Long Time Gone @ MindSay

why don't you call,
When you say you will my dear?
Is it because I don't belong to you
Anymore?

And why don't you come
When you say you will?
Do you really think it will work out wrong?

Oh and you've been lost.
And I've been saved.
Is that what comes from giving away?

Maybe in time you will come back along,
To greet me.

What if I leave?


Why don't you call?
Don't you miss me at all?
Left a long long time ago,
To where the weather was better.

Why won't you play?
You've gone and left your face.
I may be a fool all along,
But I never understood these rules.

Oh, and every street calls your name,
A whispering ghost of neighborhood flame.
Maybe in time you will wake up to find you're free.

So I grow up longing for another,
With the windy city left behind to my lover.
Will you ever know the way I cry?
You were gone that day, so you may have missed
My goodbye.

Oh, and sometimes in my dreams I hear you say
"If you really care you won't go away"

The distant bells are ringing,
In a small town in my soul
Dream up, dream up...

Strange it is that today I find that I wish that my PDA was still operational, but not because that it had more functions than my Palmtop PC. I find myself longing for colours to gaze upon, bright and joyous colours of the rainbow, and not the gray-scale hues of this ancient piece of technology that was only made operational due to the fact that my PDA was no longer. Interesting it is that something as simple as colour brought so much joy to my bleak hours of typing. One day I will purchase another PDA and again enjoy all the colours that my senses can perceive, but for the time being I must be satisfied with the various shades of gray that I see before me at this moment...

It is just interesting to think that something as insignificant as colour would be missed of all the things that my technological devices possess. And stranger still is the fact that my first computer had a monochrome monitor and I spent so much time using it, so very much time, so very long ago. My devices and I have come so very far from where we began this journey though for the sake of portability I have taken a step back along this path. Though I wonder if I had an unlimited stream of capital, would I have taken this step back in time? Would I be missing the colours of life at this very moment or would I be enjoying millions of shades of every colour that can be seen with the unaided eye? These things I wonder about as I sit here reflecting upon the technology that has brought me to this point in my life...

And I also wonder how my life would be different if I had never discovered that my comprehension of technology is adequate enough to allow me to take devices that must would have cast aside long ago and turn them into functioning pieces of equipment that I can use for my own benefit. How would I be different if I still used and pen and paper to visually express my vision of my world? I wonder...

And so I shall wonder about the impact of technology upon my life and all the while miss the fact that I do not have colour at this time, and yet I shall have much joy in the fact that more will read this than if I had written with pen and paper. So much is in my brain and this is a very good thing that I shall rejoice in...

This is the Word of the AntiCrust...

Praise be ye who Read the Word for ye are Blessed amongst humans...

And if there is no room upon the hill
And if your head explodes with dark forebodings too
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon...

And so it was that on this day I was handed a small plastic cup and told to fill it as much as humanly possible. And this cup will the fillin's I had added was handed over to someone else who then poured it from the cup into a small plastic vial that was then capped and sealed for all eternity...

Maybe this small plastic vial will be placed into a time capsule so that future generations may gaze upon in and wonder as to its contents, marveling that someone so very long ago would take some time out of his busy schedule to fill a small plastic cup and have it then transferred to a small plastic vial so that it could be sealed for all eternity though eternity is a very long time to be sealed so let's just say that it would be sealed until some later time in the long history of this universe...

But what will become of my fillin's once they are unsealed and set free onto this planet? Where will they venture forth to? What strange sights will they see and experience in a land so far removed from their creator? Will the fillin's miss me?

Alas, I grow sad from thinking that what I had created is now somewhere far, far away and I know that it will never return...

Alas...

This is the Word of the AntiCrust...

Praise be ye who Read the Word for ye are Blessed amongst humans...

Over You
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up then tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

It has been a long time, and yet the the blogs read like yesterday's news...get over yourself.