Long Long Time @ MindSay

For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong...

Funny it is that the littlest things of this existence will snap me out of the funk that I sometimes find myself in. If I set out to bring a smile to my soul, I shall never find it. But if I just accept the fact that there will be times when I do not feel good about my lot in life and just live, out of the clear blue sky a bolt of lightening will strike me upon the head and force me to realize that in many ways I am very fortunate in this world that the Fates have provided for me...

And therein ye shall find the pot o' gold at the end of the rainbow, and find it I do believe I have for somewhere deep within my soul I possess the ability to create with the written word. Why I have been granted this special ability I will never know and how I will use it to its fullest I have not a single clue, but it is there. I know all about this power I have, and I have known about for a very long time, and yet there is something that is holding me back from using it to its full potential...

Strange it is that when one is given a gift that many do not possess how that person will take the gift for granted and allowed it to go unused for long periods at a time. I know that at times I become rusty and my gift becomes tarnished from the lack of use, but with a little polish and elbow grease it can be made to shine with a luster that blinds even my self...

I may not be one of the great writers of my generation, but I know that I can put words together in such a way as to cause others to enjoy them greatly. And I enjoy crafting words into pictures that I can share with the world. And I enjoy it far more than most, including myself, realize. And that is what has taken me so long to figure out - the fact that above all of my other activities I enjoy writing most of all...

At least through this little mental exercise that I have been engaged in here, I finally have realized what the major problem is with my works, and the answer to my problem is that I really should be less critical of pieces that I have written. As I have told a friend of mine lately, far less judgment should be placed upon what one does, and far more acceptance and praise should be given in the effort - the elimination of negativity will set the soul free and with it there will be joy without limits...

This sermon was sponsored in part by the fine folks at the Starbucks located within my neighbourhood Barnes & Noble...

This is the Word of the AntiCrust...

Praise be ye who Read the Word for ye are Blessed amongst humans...

Over You
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up then tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Isn't your 21st birthday be something you're looking forward to? A mile marker from adolescence to manhood? An event in your life that marks the next chapter of your life? However, all I can think about is Candace. I finally realize the difference between crushes, puppy love, and the real thing, and after all this time for having these feelings for so long they have only grown stronger, and no matter what she can never make me mad, but she can break my heart and she has, but I still feel the same way about her. I'm really feelin Candace a whole lot, and I can honestly say that after 2 years...I'm in love with her. That's right I said it I am in love with Candace, and for the first time in my entire life I know it's love...I know what I feel in my heart is true, but...my 21st birthday marks the end...Candace is suppose to leave for colorado in august, and all I can do is try my hardest to convince her to stay. they say that there really isn't anything exciting that happens after you turn 21 and I'm starting to think that they're right, without Candace my life has no meaning, no purpose, no drive...My 21st Birthday is 3 months away, and all I am doing is dreading it with each passing day. There is nobody for me but her, and I don't want to get over her. No other fish I wanna swim with, no other party I wanna go to. My heart belongs to Candi, I love her with all my heart and soul, and it's time to prove it to her.

It has been a long time, and yet the the blogs read like yesterday's news...get over yourself.