Long Distance Relationships @ MindSay 
love
My heart is aching right now. It wants to be held.
I need someone to talk to but everyone is too close. Everyone. I just want to express my love and desires.
I should be telling my boyfriend, but I dont know if he wants to hear that right now. Even tho he does.
I just miss him, and need him in my arms. If i think that i will go through this life without ever holding him, kissing him, loving him, I cry. I cry cry cry cry. I could cry all day if I couldnt stop those thoughts.
I just went for a healing, and my kundalini is rising, my sexual self is REALLY waking up, REALLY coming out. and it got stuck and im trying to make it go up and i just feel the energy brewing insiide of me.
Healing Notes
man in a shell, afraid to be a man, hides as a boy
wont come out to me, cant express feelings, wants to be in control but hes not when i voice
my desire. strangled.unable to speak. spins the world on his finger....
fish man - hubby. will fill my belly, zones out while eating, wont hear me if i speak. Just as ravenous with my body and he is with food.
give me my son and my daughter, exact replicas of their parents.
Boyfriend
we will always be distant with intervals of physical closeness. we heal each other sexually and emotionally, and some how are sexually together when we're so far apart.
Kundalini rising, stuck in my solar plexus affecting my sexuality.
Fullfill our relationship to the fullest, because we need it, and we will leave healed, and fullfilled.
Even now i can feel my body asking, craving for sexual pleasure, sexual relief. Oh i want it.
I just want him to touch me, be within me, i just want to feel him entirely.
I love him so much. its painful to be parted. my mind torments me with pictures and scenarios.
Frig, i admit it. im horny and i want him and only him
Howdy Howdy all!
Still got the blahs but I figured thinking about someone other than myself might lift the funk and as always it absolutely does. So when you feel blue, go out and help someone with "real" problems.
Anyone know a practical studious and serious friend who seems to cringe at the thought of monetary frivolity or quiting when the going gets tough? Well count yourself lucky because chances are you found the solid foundation of a Capricorn and let me tell you they can be more valuable than gold if you need to get something done in a timely and efficient matter with optimum results. How about some basics...
| Symbol: The Goat | Ruling Planet: Saturn |
| Element: Earth | Cross/Quality: Cardinal |
| Group: Theoretical | House Ruled: Tenth |
| Polarity: Negative | Opposite Sign: Cancer |
| Favorable Colors: Dark Green & Brown | Lucky Gem: Onyx |
| Key Body Part: Bones & Teeth | Period: Dec. 22 - Jan. 19
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Determined, single-minded, directed, serious, productive, competitive, ambitious, patient, industrious, tenacious, conservative, strong, planning, a natural leader, self-disciplined, cool, reserved, dignified, authoritative, organized, goal-oriented, workaholic, responsible, relentless, traditional, goal-oriented, but can be rigid, egocentric, opportunistic, ruthless, thrifty, stingy, pessimistic, repressed ...
Our Capricorn friends like uniformity in not only appearance (Like the Libra) but also in life (Librans are not this pointed in affairs of the world). They tend to want to control a good bit of (well ALL) of what goes on and can be so stubborn that folks may shut them out of their lives completely when they refuse to even entertain anyone else's point of view. Basically folks get sick and tired of arguing with them and set their phasers to invisible where these Capricorns are concerned. This is an effective method for getting the Capricorn in your life to step outside themselves as they are deeply sensitive even though they seem tough and hard-boiled on the outside. Their innards are made of pudding in a lot cases.....no that doesnt mean you should work them until everyone can feast on the ooey gooey filling of these cupcakes.....LOL. Don't forget their propensity for taking advantage of EVERY opportunity to the point of exploitation sometimes...most pointedly in relationships.
KEYWORDS: cautious, hardworking PHRASE: I USE
The house of vocation or the individual's calling in life. They figure out their paths and damned if they don't stick to it until the wheels fall off. Their opposite sign is Cancer and it is more than obvious as to why. Like the Scorpio and the Taurus their polarities are exhaulted when they come together. Here you dont get mud but effin quicksand. The mutable Cancer goes with the current where the Capricorn brings their OWN current to the part and battles the elements tooth and nail to carve out a place. A lot of your developers and city planners and business men have this sign...
Practical and prudent
Ambitious and disciplined
Patient and careful
Humorous and reserved
Pessimistic and fatalistic
Miserly and grudging
- LIKES
- Reliability
- Professionalism
- Knowing what you discuss
- Firm Foundations
- Purpose
- DISLIKES
- Wild Schemes
- Fantasies
- Go-nowhere jobs
- Ignominy
- Ridicule
Capricorn is one of the most stable and (mostly) serious of the zodiacal types. These independent, rocklike characters have many sterling qualities. They are normally confident, strong willed and calm. These hardworking, unemotional, shrewd, practical, responsible, persevering, and cautious to the extreme persons, are capable of persisting for as long as is necessary to accomplish a goal they have set for themselves. They are reliable workers in almost any profession they undertake. They are the major finishers of most projects started by the 'pioneering' signs; with firm stick-to-it-ness they quickly become the backbone of any company they work for.
In fact when practical ability allied with the drive of ambition are required in employees to make a project succeed, Capricornians are the people to hire. They plan carefully to fulfill their ambitions (which often include becoming wealthy), they are economical without meanness, and able to achieve great results with minimum effort and expense. Because of their organizing ability they are able to work on several projects simultaneously.
They are, nevertheless, fair as well as demanding. Among their equals they are not always the most pleasant of work fellows for they are reserved and too conservative, valuing tradition more than innovation, however valuable the latter, and they are often humorless. There is also a tendency to pessimism, melancholy and even unhappiness which many Capricornians are unable to keep to themselves, especially if they fail personally. In the extreme this trait can make them a very depressed individual; ecstatic happiness alternating with the most wretched kind of misery which is so subconsciously buried that he or she should seek help if such emotions become frequent. They should use meditation as a way to find inner balance and stay on the right side of them urge to dominate others and situations.
In their personal relationships they are often ill-at-ease, if not downright unhappy. They are somewhat self-centered but not excessively so, wary and cautious around people they do not know very well, preferring not to meddle with others and in turn not to allow interference with themselves, thus they tend to attract people who do not understand them.
They make few good friends but are intensely loyal to those they do make, and they can become bitter, and powerful enemies. They sometimes dislike the opposite sex and test the waters of affection gingerly before judging the temperature right for marriage. Once married, however, they are faithful, though inclined to jealousy. Most Capricornians marry for life.
That's all for now yall...how about some poetry...here goes....(insert emotion here)
Long Distance
Map-measured miles run away
To you, clattering like trains
With their further-and-further-and,
At a speed I imagine as a shriek.
The sound dies with distance
Until it becomes a lonely murmur
As the air swallows it.
Silence. Snaps my accelerating thoughts
Back into my head: solitary confinement
After roaming free, I feel like a pin-point
In an infinite atlas. Eternity
Stretches away into obscurity.
I can only picture you in a fuzzy far-off,
Where your face is featureless, as if
Distance has stolen your definition
Along with your presence.--Ruth Roberts
Goddess Bless
Well, he told me awhile ago he was planning on going to Tennessee for college after he goes to CYFAIR in Houston for two years.....but the way he made it sound was that he wasn't really sure. Well, now he says he is definitely going.
We haven't even started this relationship yet and I already know there's going to be a breakup! for two years.while he's in TN.
Now honestly I don't think long distance relationships work....and neither does he so how is this supposed to work out?
I'm just confused and it's not something I want to hear right now. That's precisely what happened in my last relationship. We broke up before it even started.....I wasn't sure when I was returning to Ohio....and now I'm trying to make this work by visiting him in June for his b-day instead of paying of my college debt of $3100. sooner. I plan to move down to Houston late summer, but I'm just wondering about my priorities.
Am I going to put too much work into this just so it could possibly end?
Not in the sense that it's hard to be faithful, no, I've no problem with that, but it's hard going through everyday without your significant other to be with. I can spend the day just thinking of how much I wish she was here and what we'd do if she was.
It's more just being without that special person thats hard for me. I miss her an awful lot.
But, as I've told her, I'll wait as long as she will.
from letyoudown
In the past year, have you...
1) Been in more than five different relationships?
I haven't even been in that many relationships in my whole life
2) Celebrated your birthday?
don't we all do that at some point in the past year?
3) Visited church?
nope
4) Cried?
oh yes...
5) Pulled an all nighter?
i think so
6) Purchased Starbucks products?
Yes
7) Went shopping?
Yes
8) Gone camping?
nope D:
9) Gone to the beach?
yes
10) Bought something that cost $200 or more?
i dun think so
11) Met someone special?
yes, a couple, but one doesn't know it n the other does but doesn't feel the same way about me
12) Been out of state?
Yes
13) Gone snowboarding?
never in my life
14) Hugged someone?
Yes
15) Slept in someone else's bed?
Yes
16) Snuck someone over?
well my room mate wasn't home...lol
17) Snuck out of your own house?
i dun really need to n e more...haha
18) Gotten drunk?
oh yeah
19) Received a new car?
still working on the driver's liscence...
20) Gone over your cell phone bill?
yes actually
21) Been called a fat?
i'm sure of it
22) Gone on a road trip?
i wish
23) Done something you regret?
nothin big i dun think
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Right now, the last...
1) You bought?
more stridex pads this mornin (u know, for ur face)
2) Person you hugged?
jimmy i think
3) Person who called you?
the cable guy to say he was there...haha
4) Time you took a shower?
yesterday afternoon
5) Time you felt stupid?
the past couple days
6) Person you danced with?
gabby i think...haha
7) Person you yelled at?
myself
8) Thing you did before MySpace today?
school stuff
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Seven Facts
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1) Hometown:
santa clara, ca
2) Natural Hair Color:
brown
3) Hair Style:
long, all-natural
4) Eye Color:
brown
5) Height:
5'3
6) Pets:
Timmy n Bradjelina the hermit crabs
7) Mood:
emo
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Ten Love Facts
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1) Have you ever been in love?
yes
2) Do you believe in love?
yea
3) Why did your last relationship fail?
he changed, i'm crazy, i came to college making the long distance an even longer distance...yeah, i think that's it
4) Have you ever been heartbroken?
Yea
5) Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
i think i did once
6) Have you ever fallen for your best friend?
i fell for him n then he became my best friend
7) Have you ever loved someone but never told them?
i'd say "yes" but love is kinda a strong word
8) Are you afraid of commitment?
not at all
9) Would you ever date one of your Ex-Partners?
my last is the only one i might ever wanna see again, n i'd have to have a gf/bf on my arm when i did
10) Have you ever had a secret admirer?
if i did they were really good @ keepin secrets
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Eight Choices
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1) Love or Lust:
Love
2) Liquor or Beer:
Liquor
3) Day or Night:
Night
4) One Night Stands or Relationships:
Relationships
5) TV or Internet:
tough, but i'll say Internet
6) Pepsi or Coke:
coke
7) Wild Night Out or Romantic Night In:
shit, that's a real tough one........um.......fuck....both!
8) Black or White:
black
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Ten Other Facts
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1) Are you missing someone right now?
yes
2) Are you happy?
happier than i was a year ago n maybe happy overall, but this week has been a bad one
3) Are you talking to anyone right now?
no
4) Are you eating?
no
5) Are you german?
like 1/4th or somethin
6) Are you irish?
yeah, a smaller fraction than the above one
7) Are you french?
maybe, they did invade mexico many years ago...
8) Are you italian?
no
9) Are your parents still married?
Yes
10) Do you like someone right now?
yeah, i'm pretty sure i do n i really wish i didn't....
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