Listen @ MindSay

I thank you for calling out my name in times that I have wondered a little too far and my sight became blurry, there were no other guidelines or indications to point me back to my destiny.

I am appreciative for the countless moments I was forced to stand still and listen to lectures and speeches never completely hearing what your heart was saying until now. I was still a child then and as a child I thought I knew everything.

There are no words to describe the feelings as you held me when everything appeared to be at its worse.

A simple rub on my back or a smile in my direction or the words I love you.

I thank you Father, both here and there.

I thank you for being the ultimate father that will love me more than anyone else can imagine so much so that you gave me my own father

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We were younger then, you and me
Full of dreams, weren't we?
I went my way, you went yours
Where did you go, dear?

Someone said you had left
The life we lived together then
This is my way of reaching out
'Cause I remember

This is what I long to say to you
If I had one chance to speak to your heart
You are loved more than you could ever know
This is what I long to say to you
If I had one chance to tell you something
You are loved more than you can imagine
Imagine

If I told you, would you believe?
The narrow road I did not leave
If I told you, would you understand
That I have found truth

Are you jaded? Are you hurting now?
How I wish that I could tell
Where your heart's at - can you see?
Mine has found home

This is what I want to say to you
If I had one chance to speak to your heart
You are loved more than you could ever know
This is what I long to say to you
If I had one chance to tell you something
You are loved more than you can imagine
Imagine

Not sure if I've made it clear enough
It's not my love I sing about
Everybody asks, "Is God good?"
I believe he is
In fact, I know - he is.

This is what I long to say to you
If I had one chance to speak to your heart
You are loved more than you could ever know
This is what I want to say to you
If I had one chance to tell you something
You are loved more than you can imagine
Imagine


-Rebecca St. James

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There's a friend from high school, who in journals and the like only appears under the name of "Chica". She's the third component of a trio that also encompassed fuhstified and myself. When we were sophomores or so, all about fifteen-sixteen, she got herself in some rather major trouble that involved a lot of emotional upheaval, changing schools, a high amount of drama, and a great deal of confusion over what love meant.

I ran into her once a few months ago. She had her mom and her baby with her, we chatted briefly, but I was working and she had other errands to get to. It's weird, thinking of how the three of us used to be, the events that transpired, and the way that I can't put my finger on when we lost touch.

I've another girlfriend who feels like she can't remember whether or not God's real or has any love for her, so between the two, this one's on my mind.

That, and it's got some cool counterpoint at the end that I like.

One of the nicest lessons I learned (the hard way) in my years of flirting with poetry was that a poem doesn't have to look or sound like a poem and that it's easy to compose something if you relax and let the words come out on their own without tampering or minding their rhythms and sounds.

There's a contradiction to this in that bad free verse is often more painful than bad rhyming poetry, but if it's honest it's got a good start. I wrote this one on the bus. I kinda hope the person it's about never reads it.

All the While

Who would have thought
all these years
the basis for our friendship
was a mutual
secret
attraction
bound with guilt
and doubt
and insecurity
about the other's (feelings.)
All the while,
we sat across sipping coffee,
each wanting to jump
the other's bones.

Convenient,
years later,
I gave up and you found him.
I'm glad for that but
now was hardly the time
to shovel onto me
your share
of the guilt.

Keep on rockin'
-Scotto

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