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She seems to be going through times no easier than she was as the beginning of the relationship. That is to say she has gotten worse. I'm wondering what she'll do to herself next. It worries me. I don't feel as though this is something under my control, nor would I wish it were so. I only want to be with her. I don't want to be for her. She needs herself, and only herself. What happens next though? How does she heal from the wounds she bears already? I've suggested that she talk to someone. Someone who has an education. Someone other than me. I only finished college, which some of you call high school. Besides, I'm biased.
I don't want this again. I just want them to look after themselves. I gess the first two did. They ditched me. Ha. That's a depressing, although curiously eye opening, thought.
I'd like to talk to my exs. Old friends. Old enemies, sometimes. It's sad, but I don't know how. I don't even know their numbers, some of them. What do I do then? I know there are phone books. I know where some of them live. Is that enough? Maybe. I'll have to remember tomorrow.
There was something important that I remembered this morning but can't recall. Very important. I'm a mess. What was it?
The thing that dominates my mind right now is how she is going to react when she reads this. I bet she doesn't talk to me for hours and when I finally call her she acts as though nothing is wrong, or tries to hide it and doesn't tell me most of the problem. I can only think of how much time that will take, and the way she does it every time something goes wrong. Does anyone have any hints? How do I deal with this, I wonder.
I've grown so much since my first girlfriend. It's strange thinking of things that I used to do. Things I've grown out of, or ways that I've changed mentally. My perception of my surroundings has changed dramatically. I don't feel like a kid anymore. I just feel like someone who has yet to find where they belong. I wonder when that'll happen. It doesn't matter yet. It will happen.
Just another post on the all-mighty Internet. Let's see how it does.
"But if you really want to live/Why not try and Make Yourself"
I wonder, if she breaks will she heal the right way? I wonder if there will be cracks in the pottery. Beauty in imperfection seems to be a common theme these days. Will it suit her?
-Mitch
John's On Vacation!
This past week John has been on vacation! Couldn't have happened at a better time - he works in a noisy, dusty, hot sawmill, out in the country. With temperatures soaring to triple digits a sawmill is not where John wanted to be last week!
With the hot weather, the Middle East war driving gas prices ever higher and limited funds to spare we decided we'd take it easy and stay around Guelph and enjoy what there is to offer right here in our own neighbourhood.
There is much to entertain and recreate in and around the Guelph region. And this time of year, there are many food related adventures to be enjoyed as well, with nearby farms offering tasty summer fruits and vegetables to tempt the senses!
Summer vacations in Canada require a few main ingredients; friends and family, hot weather, water, barbeques and liberall applications of cool liquid refreshments! Truly universal for most of us; those 5 ingredients mix well anywhere. Realizing that we have all these ingredients close at hand there's no real need to "run away" in order to enjoy a vacation! We must add, our luck is that we have a large backyard in a friendly neighbourhood in close proximity to things of interest to us; bike trails, the rivers, downtown and around town...
Photo stories to follow! Pioneer Power - backyard cooking on a woodstove/cookstove!
I really havn't been on as of late. Life gets busy and it feels like I'm just tackling the day as it comes. This past weekend, my sixteen year old went to the Indoor Track State's Competition at Penn State University. She hates it when I brag on her because she always feels she can do better and what she does isn't always enough. Well, she is a champion with high goals to whatever she puts her hands on. Out of the best in Pennsylvania, she came 9th in both the long jump and triple jump out of around 40 girls! And her two man team won 1st place in TSA at their High School, which qualifies them for States as well.
My fifteen year boy does well in school but doesn't like to participate in everything that the school has to offer like his older sister! He's on indoor track too but as a Freshman he is just learning what is expected of him. He knows his soccer and had a great game at his soccer tournament on Saturday.
My other daughter who just recently turned fourteen, is in the Musical at her Middle School. I do a lot of driving; taking the kids here-n-there. So before I took Luke, I had to first drop her off and pick her up a few hours later and then run off to Luke's soccer tournament (printing out directions as I go). Don't you know, that I forgot to put his uniform in the dryer; well he just gave me it to wash an hour before we had to leave! Sometimes everything is so last minute!
My two ten year olds and twelve year old had me busy running them to a hockey game and friends all weekend. I had time to share the moment with just my twelve year old at a country diner in my neighborhood that I have been meaning to check out. He's not as talkative like my ten year olds but he is a boy who is all about actions! If there is a problem, he likes to figure it out. I know when I give him a job to do, he's going to do it to the best of his ability. This weekend, my one dog got into our trash and scattered it all over the yard. After going out to breakfast that morning, I ask if he would like five dollars to clean it all up because I really didn't want to do it. He said, "I'll do it mom but you don't have to give me five dollars". Isn't he sweet! I made him take the money anyways.
There's major friction between my fifteen year old boy and his father, which has been going on for quite some time. A major blowout this weekend in which my son was totally out of line and kept gettting grounded for bad behavior. It all started because one of my twins didn't want to set the table for breakfast before we went to church. It was the start of his week of setting and clearing the table for the week. It was too much work to get him to do it, so he choosed to be grounded for the day instead (they hate to be grounded ~ removal of computer and electronic gaming).
Well my older son feels a need to come to everyone's defenses, so he tried to set the table for him so his little brother wouldn't be grounded. We told him he's going to get grounded anyways, so from there he just flipped and kicked his door down and threw down my standing birdhouse (by mistake he says) and broke that as well. Him and his brother who likes to help out wherever he can, helped him put the door back on after he cooled off a bit. This was all right before church!
Life is really busy right now, trying to move the hand of the DEP in getting sewage tap-in. We're in the country and currently have septic. As soon as we get that, we then can get the builders permit and start lining up contractors to do the exterior work. My husband will put on the roof and windows and all interior work; except electrical his uncle will do that. My husband and I have been looking at rentals and found one up the street from us. It's very rare to find a rental in the country and then a landlord who would accept six children, three dogs, a litter of 11 puppies, a cat and a turtle! :D They did accept the children but said, 'No pets!'
So I have to go on-line and find a kennel plan/garage to house them on our property (we have six acres), while we live down the street for a year! We discussed building in front or behind our house or even on another piece of the property over by another road but where our old house sits, actually sits on the best piece of the property. We won't be too inconvienced by keeping the animals in a kennel on our property, we're going to be there like all the time!
Now I have to get ready for packing things up after sixteen years of staying in one place! That's something that no one likes. So last night, I went around my house and made a list of what to sell for my garage sale this Saturday. And I have to think about listing the puppies for sale next month before we move April 1st.
It is also my quarter to teach Sunday School for children's church but have been getting a little fustrated with another teacher who happens to listen in on my teachings in the children's sanctuary because she has only had one student for the past few weeks. We are discussing the '10 Commandments', trying to teach basic facts this quarter with the kids and this teacher who is by the way is in charge with the Educational Program with her husband.
They also both teach Adult Sunday School and are both extremely talented and spiritually sensitive to the things of God. I love them both dearly, but as like any 'family' there always seems to have some conflict and I have been resenting her interrupting every week. I guess she seen that I was a little upset and came and apologized for interrupting. We discussed the issue at hand of 'Thou Shall Not Murder'. Interesting concept for a room full of children, ranging from (her class preschool) to 6th Grade. The children are broken down more for Sunday School, this Children's Church is during Church Services upstairs in the Main Sanctuary.
If it wasn't for work, I don't think I could ever get on-line and talk. My job has slow moments which allows me to come on here, I guess like many of you! My husband and I also went to party after the soccer tournament at one of the parents house. Only a few people showed up. It was a lot of fun though! The mom is an artist and the dad is an engineer. Between the two of them, they built this beautiful unique home! We had an house tour, ate and talked about our spouses, our children, how we grew up and what we're all up to now. I also got to share the gospel and some of my supernatural experiences in both the demonic and heavenly. Some people just don't know that both exist.
The ladies separated to check out the art studio where she does all her work and the guys eventually went into the music room to listen to the dad jam. We found them and had a marvelous time karaoking. Afterwards, we all went home. Their house is the kind of house that you would see displayed in a magazine. They actually had the local newspaper ask them if they could display their home in the Sunday addition but they declined. They didn't want people coming around, which I don't blame them at all.
I know it seems like I am all over the board discussing different topics. My weeks are always busy, sort of like what I placed here for our weekend. I don't always use my blog as a journal but I have been very light-hearted these days and didn't want to discuss 'current events'; lately it's been making my head spin! I feel like I can only deal with what's going on in my life and not to be too concerned with world problems! Though I do keep 'things' in prayer because all hell is breaking loose and I got to keep tabs on what to pray for.
I'm thinking that life isn't just about school and the typical "Go to university, get a job, get married, have 2-3 kids then retire". Call me crazy but there seems to be a high degree of predicatiblity in that lifestyle, as I heard it called "the American dream." First off, who decided that the perfect lifestyle involves that? There is soo much pressure to go to university, then settle down and raise a family then retire then die. Woohhoo what a party. Not that I'm saying that's bad, but why feel oblibiged to have that kind of lifestyle? Were we created to have a life living inside some box, never to venture out and truly live? I don't believe so. Since when has the standard of learning been reduced to a piece of paper that says that you have "offical knowledge" of something? Choosing to get a degree a way to go, but often leaves you in debt, and sometimes without a end in sight. Learning it on you own is much less costly and time consuming and interesting. But if that route is taken, your knowledge is not often regonized. Let me have the courage and intivative to live outside of our self-made box and experience what life was truly made to be.
Wow I got inspired there, partially because of the fact that I'm sitting in Careers class, suppossidly deciding my entire future right now before I even experience the rest of my life. As well as boredom. Thankz for listening to me rant. ;)
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