Life Plan @ MindSay 
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I have a plan though, and that is a lot more than a lot of people right?
So why does this scare me so much???
My plan is to be in college till my PhD... I am going to get my Associates in Psychology at Texarkana College, then I am going to go back near my home, I am going to go to New Haven, Connecticut. I plan on getting my Bachelors degree in Psychology with my minor in Sociology from Yale University, then I am going to continue on and get my Masters and PhD in Clinical Psychology and a minor in Sociology from the same college, but I want to know why does this scare me so much?
Why, I mean I should be excited, but I am not, I am almost on the edge of being petrified.
So goodness, I need to get a grip on my life, I need to get into control.
I am sorry that everyone had to read my frightened rant, but I needed a place to vent all of this.1
So I thought it would be best to write down how I feel about your life plan since I am usually better at organizing my thoughts like this. Well you already know that I don't like the idea of you dropping out of school, but even that I can handle, its just your other ideas that make me worry so much. I just don't see how you don't believe in yourself, all the adjectives I would use to describe you would be positive, so why can't you just love yourself? I guess thats my job. Thats probably the reason god put me in your life, to show you how great, and wonderful you really are. Its just in your nature to be self deprecating, I get it, I am like that to. But just trust me when I say to you that you can do much better than a crappy apartment or town house in Gananda. You can do much better then working two jobs that pay a shitty minimum wage. There is soo much that you can do, and I am more than willing to help you in anyway I can. Thats what people who love each other do for one another, we share all the crappy things that are thrown at us, and its just easier that way. I feel like I am begging you to let me help sometimes, you know how much I worry about you because you worry about me with the same intensity. Don't give up on yourself so easily, you can do things that I can't and you call me amazing, what do you think that makes you? You need to get rid of your crappy self-image, its destroying your oppurtunities because you give up before you really get started. I know I just sound like a teacher or parent, you have told me that yourself. But Emily what teacher would be up at 4 in the morning typing this? I care, there is no way you could not realize that, but I don't think you know how deeply I care about you. I love you a million times more than I love myself, the times I have put my wants before yours I regret, soo much that I think about them all the time with disdain. Its time someone looked out for your best interests, and I plan on being that person for you, even if it means telling you things you don't want to hear right away. All I ask of you right now is that you postpone your life planning until I have some time to figure out all the millions of options available for an intelligent, beautiful, incredible girl named Emily. I love you soo much, and I hope you realize that you do matter!
Ah, me.
Obviously, I haven't gotten my alloted pagecount done on my porn. I've spent far too much time playing Katamari Damacy and goofing off. Such is the life of an unemployed cartoonist, eh?
My mother keeps harping on me, about what my "life plan" is. I have it narrowed down to five steps, five steps that she will quite obviously not like. As far as I'm concerned, she can funting well rotate, for all I care about her concern with appearances and "what will the neighbors think?"
It's come to my attention that I am very nearly twenty years old. More developments to follow.
Hey everybody!
So i have missed you guys!
Great Grandmothers Spatula! I haven't been on here in a gabizzilion years (interesting, I think SO!) lol
let see, since i last talked to y'all I have changed alot, I'm no longer the preppy yay life kinda girl, I dyed my hair black n blonde, it looks good i must say, and i mostly wear band shirts and sparkly belts.
So basically EMO 360 lol
only wesley
SO my life right now is fantabulous! besides the fact that the JP is moving to Moore...depressing, yes, but its doable. (sp?) whatevs.
I'm working at a theme park, that is full of non christians (CRIKEY!) and well my plan is to win them all in the name of JESUS! w00t Mi Madre had surgery. I got a new dog, redid my room, and went to 4 church camps already. So my summer is pretty much set.
So yeah thats about it in a nutshell, I have more to tell, but pretty much have anti-time. so i'm gonna get offa here and do something productive.
I love you all like the boogey man loves to hide under beds
X3 Niki
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