Lied @ MindSay

When I started this blog, I had a flimsy idea on what I was going to do with it. All the secrets that I wanted to share, needed to share.

Now, several days later I find that it isn’t always easy to unburden myself. After keeping the secrets for all this time, I almost don’t know how.

So, when I feel I can, I’m going to confess something here.

Today’s confession:

When I was 18, my best friend came to me and said she thought my father had touched her breasts while she was sleeping. She didn’t want to talk to my father about it or her parents. I didn’t know what to do. I went to my father and told him what she had said, accused him of molesting my friend. He denied it. He said he had just pulled up the blankets for her. There was something inside of me that didn’t believe him. A look, the smile on his face, the way he spoke. I don’t know what it was specifically. He had never done anything to me that was inappropriate in any way. I had no basis to believe he lied, just that feeling that he did. To this day, I still believe he did it.

FS

Well...Im alive....lol....not much of an update...I didn't feel like translating any stories...sorry...those really consume alot of time...like more than this <----------------------------->....thats alot of Kevin-time....:)

****EDIT...one more thing...Im so frickin hungry for a pretzel and beer its not even funny..okay maybe a little funny...but not alot....*******

anyways I blognapped this from some random person....try it on your blog...

[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3
[x ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I love Disney Movies.
[x ] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x ] I am in love with love
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[x ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] Gotten lost in my city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[ ] I Had a serious Surgery
[x ] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been close to love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[x ] Saw a therapist
[x] Played spin the bottle
[x] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] bitten somebody
[x ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[x ] Gone on a blind date -------NEVER AGAIN IN MY LIFE LMAO....
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[x] Been to Europe
[x ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[x ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x ] Been to Canada
[x ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Been snowboarding
[x] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Dropped out of high school/college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x ] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[x ] Miss someone right now

and that pretty much sums it all up....lol....

Ok so i feel like an ass..my girlfriend just told me that she had still smoked pot when we go together. i thought she didnt do it after we started talking. i mean she lived 2 hours away...how nieve i am! i found out when she broke up with me she smoked...and then when we got back together i asked her about it and she lied...one night at the bar her friend slipped and told me...I WAS CRUSHED! i wasnt sure if i wanted to stay with her...but it took some time to trust her again and now i feel like she is just a lier...i guess the old saying is true fool me once shame on you..fool me twice shame on me.:( AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH i cant say im not guilty of lying to someone i was with and i feel horrible..i guess im getting what i give but i love her sooo very much.....  how do i trust her when i feel so betrayed...i even asked after i found out the last time if she had ever did it since we have been together...she said "NO baby just that once..i tell you everything" NOT!! lier i all i ask is for you to be open and tell me things..the thing you know are important to me. Relationships are a "2" way street, but with you we are stopped at the intersection and we have 2 ways to go...break ave or life street....and we are holding up traffic.

I dont like feeling like a fool and not being told the full truth.

           Yet again I am being played. I've felt strong feelings towards a certain person for over a year but there has been no response or any gesture of feeling the same emotion's toward me. Until recently were he has told me he likes me as more then a friend. I would like to believe what he has told me. This has been hard to do scenes he never has "time" to do things with me. He attempts planning things but the plans fall through, more often then not. Next I try to call him but he never picks up! He has friends talk for him and at times I believe he may be hang up when I call. I don't have secure evidence. I wish Vitaly would really like me ... oh that would be a dream come true. Vitaly is the kind of guy who makes me smile every time I see him. He's adorable which is a plus! Sadly he seems to lie just for kicks. I don't understand why he does this? I feel bad for calling him so much but I just would like to know what's going on!  If he doesn't like me .. I would like to know. Spare this whole thing. But once you tell a girl you like her the last thing she expects is for you to ignore her.