Lauren @ MindSay

my life is perfect-christams is in 4 days-xbox 360 please-hopefully we get 2 more dipsticks for dodgeball=lauren might be there to laugh at as-just for the record you've never seen play dodgeball-im good-nobada nobada can get the rebels-she'll just laugh at as anyway-did tell you iTunes is freakin awesome

              ---play like a champion today---

                                                                               benjamin

*takes a deep breathe* Dont worry I'm almost there guys! Lol, sorry for giving ya'll such a shit load to read :(  But there's so much to tell!

Sunday: Woke up to my dad again wanting me to come home, so I grabbed some of Jensen's clothes and ran outta there. Lol, I'll tell yah, I grabbed the weirdest combonation ever! Blue stripped boy shorts, with a green long sleeved top, and converses. Wow, then I dont think that my electric blue nail polish really helped my fashion statement either. So yea, I had to go get my film developed for Photography...ha, no one develops black and white anymore. *long pause* I could fucking kill. So yea, I was super pissed because these were great pictures and I really wanted to see them developed. *sigh* All well. My sister, Chris and Elie came over taht day. Hehehe, and I am proud to say that Elie now walks on her own! :) YAY!

Once they left I did my speech shit....*shakes fist* fucking Ms.Johnson....eeerrrr. Then I also talked to Patrick about everything that had been going on that week. While doing all of this, Irene texted me telling me taht she really missed Lauren and taht she couldnt stop thinking about her and yea, we texted each other but then finally I was like dude! You live across the fucking street, let's like go for a walk or something! So on the walk we went! Lol, it was great. She would talk about Lauren and I would talk about Michelle and you know. The funny thing about this was that, our situation is so much alike. Michelle and Lauren are alike and then Irene and I are alike. *sigh* So now taht I've gotten through my shit, I am now helping her get through hers. Cause I know how it feels to love someone and not be able to be with them...god, do I know that feeling. *frowns for a secound* While walking, Irene was showing me where Lauren lived and then I suggested taht we walk through her neighborhood. Ha! Not a secound was wasted and we were there! Lol, Irene almost crossed while a car was coming...lol I dont know why that's funny but at the moment it didnt seem to not be. You know...Hickory Run is a really nice neighborhood. I think I am going to go jogging through there sometime. Hahahaha, I cant even begin to tell you all the funny things that happened, but they'll always be in my memory. Speaking of taht, we talked about how our favorite day of the whole summer was when we all stayed at Ryans taht one night. *smiles* If I could go back to that moment and just die...I would die so happy, that like if I were a light bulb I would blind you if you even took one glance at me. Lol, close to the end of the night we saw a road sign and we stood there at the edge of the road going, "Dude should we take it?" "I dunno...where would I put it?" "Its so fucking big..." Lol, but in the end we ended up crossing Austin Parkway with this big ass sign that literally took both of us to hold. In the end though we ended up just leaving it in the school parking lot because we didnt feel like carrying it anymore.

After the walk I was running home and I ended up getting in huge trouble with my dad because he told me to be home at 8 and I wasnt there until 8:30. Even though I called and told him that i wasnt going to be there at 8. Aaah, fuck I might as well not even call him because he gets pissed either way.

That night I stayed up late and talked to Michelle a little bit alone. Mostly about sneaking out and shit, but we could never do it since we both have our complications. Then Lauren ended up calling me and we talked for a while, and it ends up that my grand master plan of trying to get to know her mom is most likely not going to wokr at all anymore. Oi, her mom got this chick named Laura at our school to go and spy on me and find out who I was. Geesh, I am already scared of Michelle's dad at TC and now I have to watch out for another person at my school!? That fucking sucks! *sigh* I dont know what to do anymore...because apparently Lauren's mom got a hold of this very site. Yep, the very one that you are reading at this very moment. If that woman finds this...and actually goes through it and reads it...I'm in some deep shit. I called up Irene and told her everything about the Laura girl and how her mom found my site, and Irene just started blame herself for everything. :( Irene....babe, it's not your fault that Lauren's mom is a pyscho bitch, it's her choice to not give anyone a chance and in the end  I gurantee you that she will regret it all.

Monday: Today!!! Finally! You think taht you're tired of reading well I'm fucking tired of typing. This morning I went and saw Irene and she was listening to a CD that Lauren had made for her. *smile* Sweet Lauren! Then I went to Photography and the teacher gave me a secound chance, gave me a disposable camera, and gave me until tomorrow to get em developed and everything. *releaved* I know that I was pissed off, but really...you're the best! All day I was taking pictures of random people. Speech is a total disaster because I forgot to write my note cards so now...ha, I have to do my speech without them. *holds back anger* Perfect! *mutters: I am so going to kill Ms.Johnson....*

In Chem, Cristina brought brownies that she made herself. Lol, with a hint of her love. By that I mean taht she blew kisses into the batter. NOTE: IF YOU BLOW 3 KISSES THEN THAT'S JUST OVERDOING IT! The brownies were great...aaaahhh, full of love! Lunch I spent it all rubbing up against Will. Hahaha, dont ask we are just weird like that. And all the rest of my day just talking to Patrick about guitar, since he is now my new teacher! YAY! I am going to learn how to play after all! Woot! After school I had Run Thru Cru practice. There was this lady who really got on my nerves because she kept on expecting too much outta us when she needs to realize taht me and Dante are new!! Grrr!!! Michelle and I had our little paint wars, and I put a smiley face on her arm. Teehehe. After Michelle, Irene and I waited until we could get a ride, but then turns out that Michelle's dad came. Ha, heart practically skipped a beat. So Irene decided that she was going to stay with me. My dad ended up picking us up. Even though he was pissed beacuse of only God knows what.

As soon as I came home, dad told me that my mom was coming over. *sigh* Oh goody! That was the last thing I needed was to see mom because I knew that all she would talk about was her stupid situation...but no wait..I almost forgot. What happens in her life is none of my business. I dont know what happens but I just wish taht she wouldnt get us involved in it. It's her damn mess, clean it up yourself!

Laura called me up asking if I wanted to go bike riding (THANK GOD!) because I needed to get away from this house...away from it all. We rode all the way back to Hickory Run and oh my! Who do we happen to see? Irene and Michelle are out walking the dog. I finally got to see Michelle's new dog. It's so cute! It's a rat terrier! :D Okay...Michelle was in short shorts.....SHORT shorts......I've never really seen her like that.....*drools* It was nice. Really. I was trying hard to not look but I just couldnt keep my eyes off. *thinks about it some more*

Anyway, we were all talking and shit and lol, turns out that yet ANOTHER hurrican is in our direction! Grreeaat. It's supposed to come this weekend. Heh, but one thing I thought of was, "Awe, all the people from Louisiana who just went through a hurricane have to go through another one." It would suck if we turned out to have a disaster like New Orleans. Highly doubtful but it's supposed to be a category 3.

Laura and I eventaully went back home and went to the store to get cupcake mix. Lol, since tomorow is Cristina's birthday. Yep...that's right. I made cupcakes for her. Damn they are ssooo good but, I dont want to get all fat. (wow...that was such a chick thing to say.) 

Then I got home at 9 and Patrick called me so I talked to him for a while. Then my mom called and told me something about how Mark is a manipulator. *sigh* Whatever mom....I want nothing to do with your problems at all.

Aaannnnddddd.....wow, that's it! I am officially done! YAY! Lol, well until tomorrow! As for right now...sit ups for that cupcake earlier and sleep!

Um... well... Hi there... Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Um... well Jason definately lied to me. He said that he wasn't dating that girl but now Lauren is telling me that she walked in on them making out more than once. Ugh. I'm so mad. I'm not going to be posting anymore memories for a while. I'm too pissed to think about that. Um... well.. I'm done. Later DayS