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You've been out on a few dates, you've really clicked - maybe you're even starting to fall in love. And tonight's probably 'the night' as they're staying over. You want everything to be perfect and you want to make the right impression. Aaaargghhh! Stress!!
Chill out
Calm down now. Performance anxiety isn't pretty, and it takes all the fun out of sex. In fact, too much anxiety might end up meaning there's no performance at all, if you get the drift.
Take it easy, and lower your expectations. First-time sex with a new partner is more about exploring each other's bodies and getting to know them better, rather than putting on a show and trying too hard to impress.
Take your time
What worked brilliantly with a previous sexual partner may not work now, but that's no reflection on your prowess as a lover. Different people respond to different things, and finding out what can be half of the fun. Nerves can get in the way too, and sometimes it takes a while before someone can get naked and relax. If either of you are feeling too stressed, just take the pressure off; you don't need to have sex there and then. Wait until you're both sure that you're ready.
If you've decided to go back to yours, and sex is on the cards, then a little preparation goes a long way. Make them feel special and comfortable. Tidy up a bit, have something good in the fridge for breakfast, and stock up on their favourite drink. Oh, and make sure you've got enough condoms, because running down to the late night garage with a hard-on or a hitched-up skirt is not a good look, and it kind of breaks up the mood.
If you're going back to their place, be a good guest. Don't make an automatic assumption that they want to have sex with you, and take your own condoms as well, just in case. You'll get extra points for turning up on time, looking and smelling good. Let them know you're having a good time and like their company.
Have a laugh
It's only perfect in the movies. Nobody's psychic. You have to tell one another what you like and want, and if you're not enjoying something then don't be scared to ask for something different instead. If you are pulling out all of the stops to please your new partner, make sure they make an effort to do something pleasurable for you too - there should be some give and take. Viagra online
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Monday With Adam
I spent today with Adam. :D
When I woke up, I had a feeling I'd end up seeing him today.
I asked my mam this morning if he could come down at some point during the week - and as soon as I saw that he was online - I knew he'd end up coming down. :D
He gave me one hour to sort everything - so in that hour, I had a speed-shower, got dressed, cleaned my room and did all the random chores that mam had assigned for me - I even fucking MOPPED.
We've spent today messing around on Facebook and Farmville - playing Guitar Hero, Resident Evil Zero, listening to music and eating a ton of junk food.
We played Guitar Hero: Greatest Hits - I did a few songs on vocals while Adam played on the drums.
Then we went onto the band career and managed to improve some of the scores that Ash and I got from 4 stars to 5 stars.
Speaking of drums - I cleaned them today.
I wiped them down with a damp towel - got rid of ALL the shitty dust that was sticking to the rubber casing.
They look like new now. :)
Adam's just mint though. :)
Even if I'm in the shittest mood ever, he'll find a way to make me laugh.
We have so much in common too - we can arrange our plans so we're both amused quite easily.
And we share the same opinion on a lot too. Heated discussions with Adam are just legend. :D
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Blog #81
LOL, WORDY
All of last week, I had a song I HAD to listen to every day when I walked down to get the free college bus.
That was Dammit by Blink 182.
All this week, I've been listening to No Presents For Christmas by King Diamond.
It's proper weird listening to Christmas songs in the middle of spring.
For the final coursework week, Sarah changed our Thursday lesson to another coursework hour.
I spent it in the LRC with Lewis. I gathered together a bit of my research, but then spent the rest of the time faffing on MindSay and Blogthings.
I saw Shelly come in - she was downstairs on the ground floor doing her IT coursework.
I stood around with her for a while. As soon as she'd finished off, we went back out and sat at the round tables.
A stand had been set up in the corridor at college - giving out free chlamydia tests.
Previously when they'd set one up, Ash and I had dared Shelly to take one - but she refused.
I dared her again this time, and this time she went along with it.
So we went into the toilets on the ground floor and she pissed in a tube. :)
I saw her piss too - proper orange. Weird as.
Of course, I trust her, I believe if she had anything I could catch from her, she'd have told me.
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After she'd handed it in - we went into town.
We bought our lunches and walked back to college in time to see Ash.
We sat back on the round tables - Adam joined us too.
Shelly gave him a glow-in-the-dark condom from the bag of sexual goodies the people at the stand had given her. Lubricants and various novelty condoms - nice. :P
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In English, Mary set us all off on coursework.
I went down to the LRC - but of course, I didn't do any.
I saw Ash at the reception desk - we decided we'd go down onto ground floor and sit together.
We got two computers together and did some work on our Media Studies coursework.
Ash was making changes to the final draft of her evaluation.
She asked me what she could write for her final section - the section about the task we didn't choose.
I'd written about doing an interview and a scandal story.
I took the piss and told her that she couldn't write "scandal story", because I'd written it first. I told her she had to write "a story with elements of scandal".
Fucking piss - she was almost over the maximum word count - and she responds with: "Oh REALLY. How WORDY..."
Then I carried on the joke saying she couldn't write Jonathan 'wears formal clothes' - she had to write 'dresses with an air of formality'.
It carried on for a long time - to the point where Ash was laughing so hard she had to put her hands over her face to muffle herself, as everyone was looking at us.
I love making Ash laugh - it makes me feel warm inside. :)
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At the bus stop, I saw Becca.
She was going to her sister's house and was planning to get the 64 - but I told her she could get the same bus as me.
We stood together in the shelter and took the Leven Valley bus back to my nana's.
She came in for a few minutes and had a natter on to my nana.
Ah, the days when we were young - the randomness on that field out back...
Now she's proper different - I don't think she's changed some things, but others are proper new.
Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.
When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.
There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again.
Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.
You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.
You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
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Media Exam Make Happy Weird In Pants
It's so easy as well. If I say anything minorly witty, with a strange voice or anything semi-amusing - she'll laugh. She pisses herself if I repeat something she's said back to her with 'The Ashleigh Voice'.
I tend to make anything she said a lot more dramatic though. I add in lots of words.
I was sat on a round table with Lewis, Michaella and Ashleigh.
We had random conversations - ocassionally mentioning our oncoming Media Studies exam, which occured today at 9:15.
I proved to Lewis how terrible of a speller Ash actaually is.
We were mocking the idea of her having a reader for the exam - mainly by using 'The Ashleigh Voice' to say things like: "UHHH... CAN YOU REPEAT THE QUESTION LOL..."
I asked her to spell "reinforcements" out loud.
It's hilarious watching her - her eyes dart in all directions and she opens her mouth really wide.
And of course, she spelt it wrong.
"R-E-E-N-F-O-R-S-M-E-N-T-S".
Oh Ashleigh. :)
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Our exam was in a seminar room on the 4th floor.
Lewis and I walked up the stairs together. We started off from the ground floor at a reasonable pace - but were slightly less enthusiastic when we reached 4th.
Those bloody stairs. :)
And that bloody seminar room!
Asides from the fact a ton of people couldn't see the screen at the front properly - so the moderators had to call up some random woman, who made everyone stand up and move their desks around (we started the exam 20 minutes late because of this...) - there had to be something in the air. Everyone was CONSTANTLY sneezing, and I find sneezes piss. I was also proper itchy - I was scratching my wrist to the point where I made it bleed a little bit.
I got agitated reading over the questions at the start - so I was chewing my thumb.
I made that bleed too, and I ended up wiping a smear of blood across a page in my answer booklet.
The unseen text was fucked.
It was a trailer for Channel 4 +1 - and it was a RAPID MONTAGE.
If you started writing something about one clip, by the time you'd finished - you'd have missed about 5 others.
The moderators were fucking dozy as well - WE were telling THEM the exam times!
Oh, and one of them said 'AQA' as "AQUA!" - I seriously pissed. :)
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I'd say the only question I really bodged was the Instituions question in section A.
I really don't think I wrote enough for it.
I'd say my section B answer was pretty mint.
I used up all the space in my answer booklet with my essay.
I also got to write lots about Gok's Fashion Fix. Tee hee.
Even if I really bodge the exam - I can re-sit it.
But even so - my coursework sounds to be awesome - so that'll bring the grade up.
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I met up with Ashleigh and Shelly afterwards.
Ash had obviously not had the faff of the late start - being in a room all by herself, alone with her READER, lmao.
Ash didn't even need her 'extra-bonus-I'm-a-dippy-dyslexic-cow-extra-twenty-minutes' - she found the exam a pile of piss too. :)
I had a massive craving for crisps - so I got a bag of Smokey Bacon and a bag of BBQ Rib Walkers.
Ashleigh had a pannini - but ended up giving me half of her chips. I dunno why she bothers with chips - she always ends up giving them to me.
Not that I complain like. :)
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Today felt strange.
It didn't feel like the last day in college with Ash and Shelly together - that's what the Friday felt like.
Today just felt like a little bonus day.
Ashleigh went home at 1 - and Shelly didn't end up going to her A block lesson, surprise surprise.
The two of us went and sat on the 4th floor stairs.
I ate more crisps. :)
I also cuddled up to Shelly, kissing her a lot.
I can be content just to kiss her.
She has really soft lips, and they feel so nice against mine.
It's so much nicer to kiss a woman than it is to kiss a man.
Their lips and skin are so much softer, and you can feel your breasts press slightly against theirs when you're close. :)
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When I got home, I ate 6 rashers of bacon and a packet of bacon noodles.
LOLBACON.
I finished off Tron Bonne - updated my Backloggery. :)
I don't think I TOTALLY completed it though - I had a few Servbots whose skills weren't totally maxed...
Mehhhhh... Maybe I'll play through it again soon.
I started up a new save of Gex: Deep Cover Gecko.
This time, I'm determined to get EVERYTHING.
All the paw coins, all the bonus coins, all the remotes.
I WILL THRASH THOSE DODGY LEVELS.
Tonight, I've managed to get about a little further than halfway through the game.
I've finished off a lot of the earlier levels - I'm approaching the dodgier ones - but I'll save those for tomorrow.
My Backloggery is going to be so happy. :)
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