Late @ MindSay

Somtimes I find it hard to blog about my emotions or sometimes lack there of when their should be some.  I was up really late last night with thoughts that would go away, and I should never be thinking.   I was sitting there just thinking but I know what I was thinking I would never be able to say or tell anyone.

I find it funny that I am defined by the things I do and don't say.   I have always kept my life quiet and try to be drama free...although not always possible.  It'so secret to my family and friends alike that I like to keep my life private and I would do ANYTHING to keep it that way.  However,  I have slowly come to realize keeping my life so secret, has done me no great favours.

I have been fighting myself on and off about a serious issue for about 3 years and now I it has only gotten worse since I have failed to tell anyone who could have helped me .  Now I feel like I am gonna burst..what now?

Sorry for the late post guys!  It's been special...

 

I got up yesterday at 6:45am Drank my Salt Water and headed out for my 1 Mile walk.  Then I showered and dealt with the SWF...

 

I headed to work by 9:15 AM by got off at 6PM... From there I got on the road to pick up Mamajo (3 hour drive).  I started getting rained on and didn't want to drive back in the night and rain.  I slept on my sisters couch and we got up at 4:30 AM to drive back in time for her DR appt. 

 

So.... No Laxative tea last night and no SWF this morning.  I'll try to do the flush tonight.  We'll see!  LOL

 

Summary of the Day.... I was still pretty energetic and had no problems at work or on the drive.  HOWEVER... I have reached the point where any and all food sounds DELICIOUS!  Only a couple more days and I can start eating!  Spaghetti, here I come!

TOMORROW MAY BE TOO LATE
TO TELL SOMEONE YOU CARE
TO UTTER WORDS YOU MEANT TO SAY
WHEN THEY'RE NO LONGER THERE

TOMORROW MAY BE TOO LATE
TO VISIT THAT OLD FRIEND
YOU SHARED YOUR LIFE IN YOUR DAYS
YOU THOUGHT WOULD NEVER END

TOMORROW MAY BE TOO LATE
TO DO SOME NOBLE DEED
TO SHARE THE BOUNTY OF GOD'S GRACE
TO MEET ANOTHERS NEED

TOMORROW MAY BE TOO LATE
TO ATONE FOR PAST MISTAKES
TO FORGIVE AND BE FORGIVEN
HOWEVER HIGH THE STAKES

TOMORROW MAY BE TOO LATE
AND YESTERDAY HAS FLOWN
SO WHY NOT GET IT DONE TODAY
BEFORE IT TOO, IS GONE?

So my project was due in last week and there's a test tomorrow (worth 30%) for which I haven't studied. What am I doing? I'm writting my blog in order to avoid doing the work. Why? I don't know, I find it very hard to motivate myself. I should get back to work but . . .

 

I'm going to fail aren't I ?

 

 

The last few days, filled with appointments, what an annoyance; has kept both of us hopping. Today is the only day that we had free to pursue our life stile of this and that, no agenda just go with the flow. It is a short reprieve, the wife has blood tests Friday morning, this means fasting for her starting tonight, when she cannot have snacks it can get dangerous. Therefore, I am fixing her favorite breakfast when she decides to get up, and I got a couple of chick flicks for her to watch today. Have to love that Gal, she has put up with me for many years.

 

 

 

Take care; you all have a good day,