Last Minute @ MindSay

   





Seems like it's always all or none with me.  Wonder around in a fog and then leap into action.  I've been in a fog for about 2 weeks now.  Talk about catch up time.  Never mind that--it's Overtime from here on in. 

The verdict is in, and unfortunately, I didn't pass sophomore VCD portfolio review. This means that I can not continue in the program until I "fix" the "problem". I made an appointment with the director for Monday, the fifth. That was the earliest available. I don't know what is going to happen. I could be instructed to take a summer class, and then be allowed to continue the program, re-do review, which means I would have to wait until next spring semester to do ANYTHING, which would put me another year behind, or I could be encouraged to drop out of the major completely. Also, this is the last week of classes, next week is finals week, and yes, I have one on Monday, shortly after my appointment. I am waiting to hear from a job, but I can't accept it(I've already been hired, but I have to wait for the school to send me conformation stuff) if I have to take a summer class. If I am not taking classes until next spring, I want a job that will last through Christmas break, not just for over the summer! But now I have to wait until the very last moment to do anything because the Director can't pencil me in any sooner. How nice and accommodating not only the VCD program is, but Kent State in general. As a reminder, scheduling was done and over with almost two months ago. I scheduled during Spring Break. So, wtf? I'll write on Monday when I figure out what the hell I'm doing with my life. cheers!

I have noticed that everytime I do my papers late at night for classes the next day I get A's. But if I do them early and think about them too much I get B's or C's. My Physiology paper that is worth 100pts and had to be a minimum of 15 pages I worked two nights before it was due both late at night and got the highest grade in the class and got an A+. I noticed that with my Intro to Lit. I hate that class so I waited to do my paper the night before it was due at 2am and got a B. Now this is the professor I was telling you about that was basically calling me racist, she actually wrote on my paper good ideas. Is it true, did I get through to her, don't bet on it! She even said she hardly gives out A's. I can't stand professors like that, they set you up for failure that way. They make it seem that the goal you want to reach is impossible and they don't work with you to reach that goal. Anyways, so then there was my article critique that I did the night before and got an A. I have never experienced that in High school and believe me it isn't that our assignments are easy, far from it, it just seems that I do my best late at night and at last minute. I always make deadlines but for some reason I get motivated to do better at the last minute. It's like you are playing tug of war and you pull and pull and you just want to give up but you see the other person is dragging you almost over the line and something tells you in your head that you want this, you can win it, and you get that last adrenaline rush and BAM! you did it, pull them over the line and won. I'm sure life isn't going to always work that way but I have been good at adapting, when things need to be done and need to have lots of time to get them done like group projects because there is more than one person to rely on, then yeah you need more time, but when it's just me, I know I can do it and I do! Just an observation of myself, it's good to do that once in awhile, especially now that finals are coming up.