Lack Of Sleep @ MindSay

Dixie currently feels:

Sick

 

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I came home today, baked myself a chicken and bacon stuffed crust pizza - and ate it whilst I watched The Weakest Link.

 

I shouted out all the answers I knew, and I never got one wrong.

I felt rather intelligent, especially when the dimwits on the telly got wrong what I'd shouted out right.

 

Anyway, I think I've either ate too much pizza, or drank too much Sprite.

Maybe it was the dodgy ice cubes I put in the Sprite?

 

We buy bags of ice - dad likes to have ice with his cider on his nights in.

But the ice smells like seafood.

I have this really awful feeling that the ice is recycled, having already been used in seafood displays...

 

Eeewww...

I really hope not.

 

I fell asleep on the sofa at half 6.

Dad came in and fell asleep on the other sofa.

 

When I woke up, I turned over - and I rolled into a nice warm patch where I'd been laid.

I have a really high core body temperature - I'm ALWAYS warm.

I'm sat here in a room with no radiator on, in a towel, with wet hair - and I'm still warm.

 

It's not fair - I'm on a heavy flow period, and I've leaked a little on the front of my jeans when I was asleep.

Oh how the feminine cycle radges me so.

 

I fell asleep because of my lack of sleep.

For the past week, I've been satying awake until 5-6AM, talking to Emily or playing on my DS.

I'd wake up exactly 8 hours later, either at 1 or 2PM.

 

Last night, I couldn't sleep.

I laid awake with my DS, listening to some Fire of Glory recordings Emily had done.

 

Not that she has a boring voice - but when people read to me, I always nod off easier.

When I was little, I listened to stories on cassettes.

 

I still like to. :)

 

 

Ah, the sleep habits of some people. :D

I am so freaking tired right now. I went to bed at like, 12:30 am, then..I got woken up because I had to close my van windows -- it was pouring outside all stormy like. Then, 6 am I was at work, meaning at 5:30 I was awake. Jeez. Then I get off work at 3, and now I'm going back at 5... sunova. Honestly. First though I need a shower. Muy major. Lol. So, I'm guna go do that, and well, get dressed for work I suppose.... and tomorrow is another 6 am day... Goooolllly. Okay. Happy 4 pm. :)

 

Xo Whitney Marie oX

So I'm getting really burned out on my internship.  Does that mean that I probably shouldn't pursue a career in this?  I hate coming in every morning and having to do what I do and working with the professor I have to work with, though I rarely see her or have contact with her because she is busy with 10 other students and their summer programs and she is always gone due to confrences and no one ever knows what they are suppose to be doing.  Why have people do stuff when you aren't going to be there to help.

 

So with the drama I've been threw with my mom and family I'm thinking about changing my major to counseling. *what a change!  biotechnology to counseling!*  I wonder if it would be worth it though.  I've already completed two years in this program.  I don't know if I want to go threw another four years for counseling, but I think I may be happier there...but how would I tell my professor that, she does try really hard to make this stuff seem interesting and important, but I just don't think I can get up and do stuff like this for the rest of my life.

 

The tags help talks about cooking...I've been cooking some on my own...interesting stuff there.  If any one has any cookie recipes *exspecially chocolate chip!* can ya send them my way, I love making cookies!

The couples are taunting me. They're everywhere where I go. [Lunch = random couple making out next to me. Not to mention a bajillion couples in the hallway.] It's all a plot to make me go insane. Sigh.

 

Gym - Umm, hello? I totally ran 2 miles. Boo. We also played softball.. in which I wanted to punch people in the face. Not naming names [David].

 

Social Studies - Test.. I totally thought I did good. Wrong. We went over the answers and I got atleast half wrong. Emily es screwed. You know, that's what I get for studying.

 

English - Test.. I know for sure I got one question wrong. My lack of test-taking skills may be because of my lack of sleep. Eh. Then we did this partner thing.. where I got hyper and babbled for like 10 hours. Sooo much homework. [Considering, I slacked off last night.]

 

Lunch - Chicken nuggets & mac and cheese. The mac & cheese sucked. So, I get my food and look for my table. I dont see anyone. So I  hung out with Kari.. yup. End of story. No, just kidding. Umm.. I see my friends like, 10 minutes after I find Kari. The excitement. They kept on questioning me about food. I love food. As if I wouldnt eat it. Whatever.

 

Science - I finished my vocab, so that was good. Now all I have left is the packet.

 

Math - Linear equations. This is my 3rd friggin' year doing them and I still dont get them. Aka, Emily fails for the 3rd time. Sigh.

 

Orchestra - Not much.. got lectured for a bit about taking home our instuments.

 

I have loads of homework tonight. After that, Gilmore Girls is on. Shall watch it and then go to bed.

Tomorrow - Praise and worship [pray that Emily has no homework, please?] Praise and worship is equivalent to Emily seeing beloved Jimmy. :)

 

Loove you to death.

I am still extremely tired. I slept from midnight until about 2 in the morning and then didn't go to sleep again. They just keep getting worse and worse and I don't know how I am going to survive the rest of the school year without sleep. I haven't slept more than 3 hours a night since before he left. I used to hear his voice in my head telling me that I am strong. Telling me that I can fight them. That was how I would escape and fight back but now his voice has become a whisper and is growning dimmer every night. I shouldn't be scared to sleep. I need to sleep before I pass out from lack of it. I am trying real hard right now not to pass out and when I go home I am going to try to sleep but I doubt I will get more than an hour. But hey some sleep is better than no sleep. I just don't know why I can't fight them anymore.