I tried to get there last weekend ... Sunday ... but the boss lady was there and I chose not to deal with her. I'm so done with her .... so I just drove on by without stopping.
I went by yesterday early afternoon and no one was there. So I went back at around dinner time last night hoping to catch them there w/ no boss lady around. It was dark and I pulled up into the driveway not really realizing that the van was not there. I knocked on the door and here comes a former coworker (one I'm not all that fond of) but if there was an ex coworker to run into it would be her because the first words from her mouth were "you didn't hear this from me, but ...."
The girl who jumped off the bridge on my watch attempted suicide two weeks ago for the fourth or fifth time and has now been permanently removed from the house. This made me very sad.
Two of the other original girls were in juvie for the weekend after stealing Jack Daniel and Peppermint Schnapps last Saturday and getting plowed (all this under the watch of the girl I worked with) .... the last I had heard they were not allowed into stores period anymore .... so my question is how did they get the stuff and where was their supervision? And why was I let go? And why is she still there? But this all explains why boss lady was at the house last Sunday.
They have a new girl who I have not met. And the only original girl that was not in trouble was in the van .... coming home from a day trip to Medford. In any case I did not get my stuff because none of it was to be found. But we were locked out of the office so it could be in there. I just left a message for boss lady telling her I need my stuff asap. Like now. I managed to sneak a note into one of the girls rooms that is in juvie .... letting her know I'm here if she needs me.
As I got several miles from the house I was passed by the van coming home from Medford. I almost turned around but decided not to .... I'll go back around dinner time tonight I think .... hopefully all the girls will be there.
I don't hurt so much anymore over the loss of this job .... just will be glad to have it put behind me. There is a part of me that worries still over the well being of the girls .... but understand now more than ever that they are going to be what they want and do what they want regardless of how hard we try to reach them. I just wish I could of touched their lives a bit more. Its all so bittersweet and it will take a while to understand what lesson I was to have learned from all of this.
Hoping everyone is enjoying their Sunday .....
Peace. J.
