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Also another news. I am also now on Twitter. Use the following link to find me.
http://twitter.com/justinsamthomas
Have to take leave now. Anyway this time i won't be abandoning mindsay. So remember I'll be back!!!!!
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I think it's possible that I've hurt my friends more than I realize. And I'm sorry to each and every one of you. The other night, I went out with Katie, Katrina, and Jessica and I got a glimpse of the girl that I used to be. The one that let loose and just had fun with her friends. It felt good. And I haven't seen that girl in a long time.
I changed a lot when my brother died. His death has affected me in so many ways. Life without him is so different. I still expect to have him call me every so often just to tell me that he loves me. He did that kind of thing. I struggle a lot because I don't feel like there's anyone I can talk to about his death and how I feel. I talk to Jonathan and my family. But I got to the point, only a few months after he died, where I felt that my friends were sick of hearing about it. I mean, what more could I really say, right? I just repeat myself over and over again. But it helps. It helps me so much just to talk to someone about how much I miss him. It's such a weird feeling when losing anyone you love to realize that you will never ever see them again. I can't ever feel his hug again. I can't ever again have him bug me for food. I can't ever again hear him be silly and goofy and play with my face as if i was a little kid.
I want to find someone that I can talk to that understands. My mom goes to her GRASP group and has other parents there that have lost their children to drugs. I want to be able to talk to someone that has lost a sibling to drugs, or even so suddenly that they didn't know how to react.
I've been told that I'm a strong person. I just don't see it.
Happy New Year!
I hope 2009 is treating everyone well so far. I can't complain since all I have done is sleep and watch tv. Until this morning when I had to get up for work, which I don't mind at all.
I usually find myself getting all maudlin and sentimental at the New Year, but not this year. I am really not sure why. It isn't like 2008 was a bad year for me and I wanted to forget it. Not at all. It wasn't extraordinary by any means, but it was a perfectly fine year. So I have no explanation why I wasn't sad for it to end. Maybe it is just a more adult acceptance that time does inevitably pass and we can't stop it, no matter how we try. In fact, passing of time is a good thing, as it opens up the world to new possibilities that we can't imagine in this moment. Whatever the cause, I am now firmly entrenched in a new year, the one where I turn 30. (more on that to come....believe me!)
But now, I will take a moment to share with you how I sent 2008 on its way.
My good buddy Justin and I met his family at Ruby Begonia's in Stillwater to ring in the New Year while enjoying the musical stylings of Walden Pond Revisited. The guys of Walden Pond (Mike and Randy) are good friends with Justin and his family. We've gone to see them a couple times before (well, Justin's seen them lots, I've only seen them a couple other times) Here's a couple pics of us out on the town:
Here are Justin's parents, Kevin and Jackie...doing their best to avoid the horrid flash on my camera phone. To the right of them are friends of theirs who joined us for drinks.
Here we have Justin's sister Tara and her husband Chad, who were celebrating a night out without little baby Tiegen. And then there's Justin and I, in a pretty terrible picture, but Justin's mom, Jackie, had a bit of trouble figuring out my camera phone. Still...it's the best we've got.
Here's a great picture of Justin. Totally relaxed and drinking a beer....exactly how I picture him in my head (though usually without a lei).
And last, but not least, here is a picture of the bartender, sporting a New Year's Eve hat and working hard. Did I mention that he also happens to be my brother Nick?
So there's a recap of my evening out. I must say that one of my favorite parts of the night was as Justin and I were leaving, the band was singing "Into the Mystic" by Van Morrison, we waved goodbye on our way out and Mike, who was singing the lyrics, interjected "Goodbye Justin, Goodbye Olivia" right into the song and then picked it right back up and continued singing. It was pretty cool. It made me feel kind of famous that the band took the time to say goodbye to us in the middle of a song. Like we're superstars. Which we are.
So, this is my adieu to 2008 and my welcome to 2009. Obviously, I'll be keeping you posted on how the new year is treating me....right here on the Livlife blog.
Happy New Year!
Here's some fun news. My good friend Justin became an uncle for the very first time. His little nephew, Tiegen Matthew, was born on December 5. He is a darling little baby...and I can prove it.
Really, how cute is this picture?
And there's one of him awake.
And finally......
...one of him with his Uncle Justin. Who could smile---at least a little. But look how tiny he is! And he was overdue.
So, Tiegen, welcome to the world and, of course, to my blog. I am sure we'll be seeing more of you.
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