John Mayer @ MindSay

Hey Mindsay.

To be completely honest with you guys, I really don't want to blog today. I've been sick since Sunday night, and I  just feel all around crappy.  Thankfully I don't have the flu, but I do have the most severe cold I have ever had in my life. Not cool, rhinovirus, not cool. I think I'm going to try to go to class tomorrow (for the first time this week, ugh).  I have a 4-5 page paper due in my one class that I've only written one page of, so hopefully I can get the rest of that done tonight. Michael's had this cold as well, but I think his immune system is fighting it off a little better.  He seems to be feeling better today than I am. My head is still full of disgusting green mucus.  TMI? Probably. Anyway, enough whining about my pitiful state, I'm a fucking baby when I'm sick. The point is, I feel obligated to fully participate in the Mindsay Reunion Tour, so here I am.

Luckily for you guys, I think today is a John Mayer kinda day.  His winter tour was officially announced last night, and I will soon be acquiring tickets to his March 8th show in Austin Texas!  Unfortunately, he's way too big name to consider playing in crappy New Mexico, so I'll venture to Texas for him.  The first time I ever saw him was actually right here in Las Cruces at the Pan Am center on the NMSU campus, which is like a mile from my apartment.  *sigh*, those were the days. 

There are only 13 days until his newest album, Battle Studies, drops!  I still haven't heard of any leaks as of yet, has anyone else? (eh commntyblackman ???)  I preordered it from the JM site because along with it came a code that enables me to buy my concert tickets before they go on sale to the general public.  Unfortunately that means that I won't be getting it until a few days after the 17th, so I'm REALLY hoping for a leak. If not, I may just have to break down and buy a copy on the 17th anyway, then give it to somebody. There's nothing like sharing a little JM love though, right? I'm sure my sister would appreciate a copy. 

I gotta say guys, I'm still the pee-my-pants-at-mention-of-John's-name-fan-girl I've been since I was 16, and I really don't see that changing anytime soon.  And you know, maybe there are better artists out there.  But there is no one whose music means more to me. Period.

I'm getting married on October 24,2009.

WEEEE!!!!!



Promise to have pictures!!!!!

Songs that are getting me through what is turning out to be a very tough time for me.

1. Speeding Cars- Imogen Heap
2. Northern Downpour- Panic At The Disco
3. Break The Sky- The Hush Sound
4. Slow Dancing In A Burning Room- John Mayer
5. Let The Flames Begin- Paramore
6. All Around Me- Flyleaf
7. Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy
8. Learning to Breathe- Switchfoot
9. Dreaming With A Broken Heart- John Mayer
10. Paperthin Hymn- Anberlin
11. Ever So Sweet- The Early November
12. Think Twice- Eve 6
13. Out Through The Curtain- The Hush Sound
14. Californication- Red Hot Chili Peppers
15. Bright Lights- Matchbox 20
16. Don't Be So Hard (Acoustic)- The Audition
17. Wildflower- Sheryl Crow
18. Something- Jim Sturgess
19. Hope for the Hopeless- A Fine Frenzy
20. I Will Follow You Into The Dark- Death Cab For Cutie
21. Tears Don't Fall- Bullet For My Valentine
22. Hallelujah- Jeff Buckley
23. Daisy- Switchfoot
24. And A Tear Isn't Such A Bad Thing- The Guggenheim Grotto
25. Ohio Is For Lovers- Hawthorne Heights
26. Across The Universe- Jim Sturgess
27. Half Life- Duncan Sheik
28. In Fate's Hands- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
29. Ashes And Wine- A Fine Frenzy
30. Strawberry Fields Forever- Jim Sturgess
31. Mouthwash- Kate Nash
32. Relax, Take It Easy- Mika
33. You- Switchfoot
34. Friend Is A Four Letter Word- Cake
35. Your Guardian Angel- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
36. Track 9- Unknown Instrumental (don't know the name of it...don't know the artist...just beautiful piano)
37. Only Hope- Switchfoot
38. Jumper- Bedlight For Blue Eyes
39. Oh! Darling- Dana Fuchs
40. While My Guitar Gently Weaps- Martin Luther McCoy

 

I ended up in the emergency room last night. Aparently I'm not as good at dealing as I thought I was. Drank most of a bottle of cough syrup. Smoked until I threw up. Mom came home and I just...couldn't stop crying. I told her what I'd done, and she drove me to the hospital. Got a psych evaluation, and they determined that I wasn't an immediate danger to myself and sent me home. Today, my mom started calling psychiatrists. I have an appointment tomorrow at noon. I don't want to go, but I also don't want to feel like this anymore. Mom thinks they'll put me on antidepressants. And right now, I feel like she's probably right.

 

I just don't want to hurt anymore.

Happy American Thanksgiving!

I love you all.

You mean the world to me.

i need a new layout.

 

so not feeling the butterflies right now.....