Jinx @ MindSay

Evidently the jinx is still a major belief in the realm of professional baseball.  A construction worker working on the Yankee's new stadium buried a Boston Red Sox jersey in 2 feet of concrete in a service corridor.  The Yankees plan to donate the jersey to charity, and may pursue a lawsuit against the construction worker.  That seems a bit excessive for me, but I guess if you believe in curses, a jersey from your rival team might not be something you want buried in your stadium.

 

Howdy Howdy all!

 

Okay, somebody Please explain Love to me! How do you know you are doing it right? What are you supposed to do when you figure out "this" one is "the" one? Bah! No myclette  I am not doing that "thing" I do...  At least I hope not...ugh! Maybe? Naw..I'm chillin...right? Whatever!

 

In lieu of a poem I am posting a video of a song called "Calling You" by Jevetta Steele from one of my all time favorite movies "Bagdad Cafe". I honestly tear up when I hear it because it is so beautiful (how lame is that ya'll). Also there is another version of the song by Celine Dion that is Wonderful as well (I mean the woman certainly has a set of lungs on her--)

The version I am posting is by Jevetta Steele so enjoy.....

 

Goddess Bless

so i guess i should explain

myself rather than just pointlessly

ranting on about the ongoings

of my life and school

 

I shouldn't say my name so i won't

but i will go by my nick name

Lil'jinx

i am a jinx. where i go

clumsyness follows.

 

so i'm 15

but i'm in grade 11

i skipped grade 4 becuz i was

home schooled by my mom

from grade 1to grade 5 and she just

didn't want ot teach me grade 4

 

so here i am in grade 11.

i'm short, like 5'2"

that may not seem very short but

my school is pretty much made up of basketball

players and giants

so i feel very short in the enviroment of school

maybe thats another reason for why i don't like it

 

umm

what else

oh i love to dye my hair

it constantly changes every month or so

i want to move to U.S when i graduate

and become a hairdresser

i know my plans wont change but who knows

you can't change fate right

 

i only believe in horoscopes when they are right

lame but true

 

i beliee in peace not war

 

I'm a realist

a hopeless romantic

and i don't believe in love

 

i'm constanly sarcastic

and that sometimes pisses

ppl off but for the most part they get me

and don't get to mad.

 

if i ever sound like a downer on here

i'm really not i just come off that way

i'm actually quite cheery

i like to smile rather then frown

and i like comfort rather than

confrontations

 

i'm a vegetarian

have been for 4 months

and will be till the end of time

mooahahahaha( evil laughter)

 

i enjoy long walks on the beach

but only becuz sand and mosture helps for the perfect

combo of a natural pedi.

i would never walk on the beach at sunset though

since i'm afraid of the dark

 

i love to write and blog

alomost as much as i love to read

although you would never guess by the way i look

 

i have short hair

but i would rather it be long

i shaved it for cancer reasearch a year and a half ago

and after that i learned

my hair doesn't grow fast

so now i have short hair

not super short

since i am growing it out

but short enough that it can't fit in a pony

 

i look older than i am

which sucks because i soooo don't want

25 year olds hitting on me

but i guess creepy 25 year old have a callling

to hit on me so i have to live with it

but that doesn't mean i don't tell them to screw of.

 

i don't have a stlye i wear what i think looks good

one day a mini with a white tank and a cute crop top over it

and of course leggings paired with my black and pink converse

next day jeans and a screen tee. with sk8er shoes.

 

i'm just me

and me is getting tired so

 

peace

 

 

• today is my brother's birthday. Is he 21 finally? Now he can drink legally. He was in Iraq, but I guess he's back in USA.
• I found my jeans. I had hung them up and put them in a different place, and they were still inside out, so I didn't see them. Sorry for blaming someone in the neighborhood for stealing them.
• today I am seeing a place for rent that is less than 1 mile from work.  Actually it is like 4 blocks, so I could walk if I needed to. I don't wanna jinx it by telling everyone about it, but I'm excited. It's in a nice neighborhood & has a washer and dryer.
• still working on the script for my friend's movie. I have been so busy, so I only have written 22 pages in 1 1/2 weeks. He said I had 2 months, now he wants to start rehearsals in 2 weeks! So I am going to be pretty focused on that and spend most of tonight on it.

THE END

Ok, so I called Kaiser, and YES, they DO KEEP RECORDS!!!! This means they have a record of every single visit i've had because of that cock sucker, and yes, i can have it sent to me! but, the only problems are:

 

1. I have to sign a release form, and since i'm not in Santa Clara, this needs to be sent to me. it should get here by the end of the week, but you never know with Kaiser. of course, then i need to send it back, and once it gets back to SC, i have to call someone, and then the records can either be sent to me, or somewhere else. (example, Juvenile Probation)
2. The medication isn't on there. I left a message for my psychiatrist asking her if she has any record of the medications she gave me and how many times/when i refilled them. I know how much the Prozac was, but no the Effexor. I might have to call the pharmacy to get another record and all that.
3. He could refuse to pay. I called the woman at Juvenile Probation after all of this, and she asked if i had a rough estimate, and I said possibly $300. I actually think that's kind of low, but I told her it might be more once the records come through. She said if my ex does refuse to pay, I have other options, but she didn't want to cover those with me until she got a response back from him.

I'm trying not to be too optimistic cuz everytime something with this whole case has started to go my way, shit would hit the fan and everything would come tumbling down again, so keep your congradulations and your hopes low. just posting this has probably jinxed the whole thing. if it wasn't raining i'd go smoke a bowl, but since it is i guess i'll just go check my mail and maybe call someone back. much to my shock and amazement, callmeroger actually called me two nights ago, but i was on my way to get laid so i didn't answer and due to depression, anxiety, etc, i haven't called him back, so maybe i will. it seems kind of early, though, and i'm really shy and get kinda nervous about calling people that i know from online. i should do some homework too.