Okay, I don't mean to rag on Nick and my relationship when it was good, but I have to say this much: Jake has done in 3 weeks what Nick didn't do in 7 months; he met my mother last night. And to my great surprise and pleasure, she ADORED him. She came in and Jake was making dinner and her daughter (me) was home and the house was clean-ish. He walked right up to her, piercings and mohawk in all their glory, shook her hand and introduced himself. She was like putty! It was actually kind of funny to watch. I didn't have to say a whole lot the whole evening, which was nice because I was vascillating between euphoria that it was going well and terror that a topic of debate would come up (mom's pretty conservative, i'm relatively mid-lining, and jake's pretty liberal) or he'd slip up and mention weed or something and it would all go to hell. But it didn't. It all just went beautifully. By the end of dinner, my mom was almost buttering up to him instead of the other way around. He started rinsing off dishes, and she was like "You know, the cook isn't supposed to do the dishes." Which is not AT ALL her rule. Her rule is you mess it up, you clean it up. End of story. She even said she expected to see him back over sometime soon. I was floored.
By the way, Jake's the one cowering in the left. Zac's got the bat.
This blurred line between living with Jake and living at home. I need to go home for a night if I'm going to continue living there, but I really don't want to. But it seems a little premature to move in with Jake. I mean, I know it's worked with other people, but...I just don't want to rush things any more than I already have. As it is, I haven't slept in my own bed in at least two weeks. I haven't been home for more than an hour or two since last Sunday. For all intents and purposes, I do live with Jake. I just don't have any of my stuff over there permanently.
The lack of study time. I'm behind on my homework. I have over 100 pages in Gertrude and Claudius to read by Thursday, a Psych test on Thursday, and...I'm forgetting something. Well, maybe I'm not, but I feel like I am. Luckily for me, I have Fridays off and Jake doesn't, but that doesn't help me before Thursday. I may be taking tomorrow evening off away from him for an hour or two to catch up.
These stupid long shifts. Today will be my third long shift in a row and I still have tomorrow to get through. Plus a full day of class on Thursday. They're touched in the head if they think I'm going to cover a shift on Friday. I need a break from the long shifts!!!! I hate that place so much. I half-wish I would have gotten fired over leaving early the other night. I had a very convenient plan in place if it did happen, one I kind of almost like more than the one that involves staying at Kmart and going to school and half-living at home and half-living with Jake.
But all in all, life is good. Just some...corrections I need to make. Jake said "I love you" like...a week ago, and it seemed too soon in actual time. But given the amount of time we've spent together, two weeks was more like 4 weeks in relationship time since we haven't had any great length of time apart. In my rational, removed mind, I felt like he was jumping the gun, but in the context of the relationship and in the way the...softer side of my mind--the emotional side-- felt, it felt right.
With a chilling wind, and a beaming Moon.. we mourn the loss, taken too soon. Four legs of Love, four paws of Play, Beloved Jake was taken today. She blames herself, as accidents do...
Hail Dianna! I ask of you!
Bring him home, into thy arms to hunt to play and shine among the stars. Console the tortured who were left behind, take away the blame help her find..the way from shame Rest Easy Jake, and Julie too
I HATE my new camera! The photos are better quality but they are just WAY too big. I don't think that photobucket will let me upload them. They're REALLY big. I should have obeyed my instincts and just replaced my Spiderman camera. I installed the crap on the computer and it doesn't have jack squat and I can't take more than two photos at the same time because once you turn off the camera the dumb thing loses the photos and of course the only way to take more is to get a memory card, which of course doesn't come with the stupid camera. *buries her face in Jake's shirt* Darling, I should have listened to my mom and just replaced the digital Camera that I already have. Which by the way works fine, I just can't upload photos from IT because being the brilliant person that I am didn't wait till AFTER I uploaded the Spiderman Software. I figure that I could have Mom reinstall the computer memory and install both softwares and just use my new camera for around the house and whatever and use or replace the other camera and use that for running errands because my mother paid Sixty bucks for my new camera. I'll also use the Spiderman camera for taking photos of me and webcam or whatever, you know?
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