Interviews @ MindSay

Wow these interviews are so old. Bringing them back for k10 .

My, have things changed. But one thing has remained the same. Katie is still brainwashed by Tom Cruise.

http://redhat.mindsay.com/katie_holmes_interview_with_rancette.mws
http://redhat.mindsay.com/rancette_interviews_katie_holmes_part_ii.mws
http://www.mindsay.com/comments/redhat/suri_fury_bebiboburee.mws?start=5
http://redhat.mindsay.com/katie_holmes_interview_the_year_2060.mws

I know everyone's lives have drama in them, but it sure seems that when one thing becomes drama filled in part of my life, everything else follows suit. The past two days I have done a lot of crying. Lots of personal life stuff and lots of work stuff.

 

• The ex/landlord's marriage is falling apart around him and he isn't doing anything to stop it. At first he wasn't going to say anything because of my finally moving on with Ben. Anytime we see each other, either he cries or I cry.
• I am too much of a planner. Ben and I have been planning on going to the Twin Cities since about the time we started dating, but earlier this week he just asked off from work for Good Friday (going 20th and coming back sometime the 21st) and yesterday just finally secured a dog sitter for his dogs Abby and Morgan.
• Seeing as Ben and I are both from Rapids and are going back home for Easter, we are just going to carpool as gas here is currently $3.19/gallon. Looks like we are going to be meeting each other's families.
• Super stressed at the school due to a lack of consistancy. One week my lesson plan is fine. My plans have been fine for the past six months that I have been working there, but now all of a sudden when I do something that is remotely similar to something I did previously it just isn't acceptable. WFT!?!? Especially as I am following what our Director said to do and following what my coworker has done for the past five years. Talked to the Administrator about the issues and she couldn't believe the inconsistantcies with the Director.
• I have an interview with the Wisconsin Woodchucks on the 24th for a summer internship. Yes, I know I would be walking away from something I love, but baseball has always been part of my life. Grandpa K. played semi-pro with the Cardinals way back when, so it was kinda expected that we would like baseball. I love working with children, but there really is not advancement for me. Changing fields is what I need to do and this would give me an opening with something I absolutely love.
• Mum called me to tell me that they are going to have to put Sunny to sleep. The vet guessed her to be around 15 or 16 years old. Over the past six months her hearing and vision have gone, she has lost a lot of weight, and her hair is falling out. In the past week just about every night (during a five hour span) she has five or six 'accidents' (she is being let out right before my brother goes to bed and as soon as Mum gets up). We saw it coming, but it is still so hard.

Soo... I had my first real evaluation yesterday.  Fourth job in my life, but first evaluation.  Been working the classifieds in a newspaper for a year.  Funny thing is, though its not been the worst job ever, I've been searching for "better" jobs and realize that these so called better jobs are not that much better at all.  One is a grunt at a lumber facility, another is a parts/warehouse spot for a local hardware parts supplier, and the best bet so far is basically being a hired back/ditch digger for a municipality.  Not really aiming the bar that high I realize, but also being realistic.  I was almost a high school drop out, whom had a short stint in the Navy, have a shabby driving record and whom has jumped around for the last couple of years.  Doesn't look so good on a resume for any position.

What really got me though, was when I was cascading through the BS of the Eval, the one question I've usually heard at make shift evals and interviews wasn't asked by them... Where do you see yourself in five years?  Instead, I found myself asking that question to yours truly.  And for once, it really struck me.  I've never looked to the future except for the next paycheck and maybe a laid back weekend.  Already I've stayed over a year in an area that I really don't care for.  If I wasn't bound by this gal I love, I'd had taken off a long time ago, but I'm pretty sure I'd still be facing the same predicament regardless.

I glimpsed upon a slew of "what ifs" while my two bosses rambled off seemingly false praise (even if it were real, wouldn't really matter... because of the hiring freeze no one is getting a raise anyhow and a pat on the back nor congratulatory speech will ease the ache of bills and taxes).  I saw myself working at a large zoo, taking care of animals and explaining their lives to curious visitors... I also saw myself working in a white lab, conditioning samples in petri dishes and studying traits under high powered, electric magnifying scopes... then I saw myself swathing paths through a jungle on the edge of the savanna, studying the animals and some of the ancient traditions still held dear by the local tribes... and finally I saw myself taking an extended vacation to Norway (hey, some people got Hawaii and the Mediterranean, I've got Norway... don't judge me monkey :p ).

I guess maybe I should start college.  Really hard though, admittedly because I really don't want to give up the few little and simple comforts I have now.  And to get a degree in a sort of biology (kinda obvious with the semi-epiphany there... 'cept for the savanna one, that might be a sociology sort... have no idea about Norway though, heheh) takes a lot more than just night/on-line classes.  And I don't have the time nor the funds to get started.  And this area's colleges are always seemingly on the line with whether or not they'll be offering certain courses or even stay accredited (though I thought once a school was accredited, it always was... hmm).

But if I keep on the path I'm on right now... I know I'll end up as maybe an assistant manager/ lead grunt for a company in which i'll just be looking for another job to jump to.

Kind of bums me out though, thinking about careers and what not.  Don't know about you, but I remember when i was a kid and a teenager I had a vivid imagination of having wild adventures and ruling my own lil piece of the world as soon as i was outta the house.  Remember when in the movies and stories, the year 2008 would have flying vehicles, mass space travel, wars that tore the world apart and new governments taken over.  Heheh... maybe next year.

Yesterday and today, I had interviews at two different nursing homes. I was really nervous for the one yesterday, and I wasn't pleased with how they ran things....it seemed like they weren't as organized. Today, I walked into the place, and I felt comfortable..I wasn't nervous, and the lady reminded me of someone I once knew but I couldn't put a finger on it who she was.  

 

I really hope I got the job that I interviewed for today. It felt like I was supposed to belong there or something...I hope it works out!!

 

I'm finding myself to be on the up end of the rollercoaster...but I think it's only a matter of time until I plummet down again.

 

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Today I am being interviewed by the whole of Mindsay's bloggers.

 

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