Improvement @ MindSay

I actually think I have made a change, faster than usual. Right now, I feel I do not need Andy. I love him, but I think it is FINALLY fading.

However, this could be short lived, depending. It seems, now that a friend of mine is inviting me out and we're hanging out more, I'm alone less and it has made me happier and I think less and less about Andy.

Also, he invited me to hang out today... and I called him last night, no answer. And he hasn't called me, and today I was going to call him to ask, but reasoning came to me, that said HE's the one that invited me to hang out, shouldn't HE be the one calling. He just made plans that he had no intenion of keeping, yet again. He's not getting anything from me, now. I just needed to be mistreated again, so I would know for sure, I guess. And I have something to move on to: hanging out with someone else who does appreciate me and keeps their promises, etc.

I am getting better, I think. Or have at least made a start. Thanks to all you on Mindsay who have driven it in to me like I have myself. : P Let's hope I keep it up...

my north patio is almost finished.  this is right off the french doors leading to the tiled foyer. It's east of the more formal front door  ( where jim built the decking and I have a small gurgling water pile. Now the patio is  enclosed now just for us. I harvested the moss, jim power washed  the patio surface and we got some new  (very cheap) furniture to make another seating group. friends are coming from Seattle over memorial day and then the first week in June we have great pals from denver coming to see us.

so everything is ready just in time. I just need to trade the green butterfly chairs for the blue and add an unused trellis to the fall the support the faux wisteria. don't laugh. I don't mind fake plants, they never die.  in case you wonder .... the grill is hiiddenon the front porch where it's covered during rain and  just a few steps from the kitchen. Oh my heavens I love this home and city and this life we finally carved from the ashes of misery and depression. Go girl... right?

I've noticed with this huge crop of 'home improvement' shows that the people on the shows are way too happy and giddy to be real. In this day and age how many people do you know that are like this and if so where is the utopia they live in?

 

Things I did routinely at 35 that I no longer do:
got manicures

shaved my legs and armpits

had professional haircuts

wrote long letters with pen and ink

wore a bra whenever I went out

had tea in the afternoons or evenings

slept very late on weekends

threw tantrums when things went wrong

raced my husband to the toilet

carried a large purse with tons of stuff

wore mascara

gossiped

went camping

discussed politics at dinner

got nervous about dinner parties

agonize over the "right" gift for people

hope I looked "pretty"

 

 

Things I routinely do at my current age (gotcha) that I never did before:

go out with wet hair and let the air dry it

put my keys on a hook so I don't lose them

let my legs winterize witha layer of fuzz

wear clogs

leave my nails natural

cut my own hair in a blunt bob

feel fine about last minute dinner invitees and go with grace

hold doors open for everyone

stop to look at babies

get allergy shots so I can have a cat

laugh when dinner falls on the floor

carry the minimum in a small leather shoulder nag

have a cell phone

use a palm pilot as my memory

wear SPF 45 all the time on my face

keep a garden log

know all my neighbors

always get up around 7:30

hope I am "nice" to most people.

 

change is good