I Hate People @ MindSay

I am totally over this motel job,
I totally cannot handle the complaints
that people have, and gosh we get so
many people that just try to get us to
switch their room because they do not like
the room that they are in, so you cannot tell
when somebody is telling the truth or not.

This kid brought the gang that he is in to the
motel and there was about to be a huge
fall out, so I made him pay more for another
room... I hate situations like this,,,

I really just want a normal job where
I don't have to deal with people in person,
I can handle over the phone, but not
in person...

I think I should call the call center to
see if they still had the position open..

I hate a lot of things.  People is one of them.  No, I don't mean "people are some of them."  I mean "PEOPLE" as a collective is something I hate.

I also dislike lots of things.  Mostly this is the term I use for web personae, since I don't really know them, so how can I hate them?  Also, they don't really stir enough emotion to call it hate.  It's just this annoying dislike.  For example, the blogger brandre.  What side is he on?  What does he want?  Why does he respond to every single news comment with the pure intent of naysaying everything that person said?  Is it really a debate anymore when people give their opinions, only to be "shot down" by a lone ranger of sorts, fighting his plight of paranoid anti-liberalese?  I say "shot down" because his replies never do a good job of shooting down, they just annoy and sit there, like a zit on your back that you can't pop, even with a loofah on a stick.  It's irritating enough to have someone plowing through the blog world's opinions with a closed-minded catch phrase of "liberals are evil;" it's worse to have the dude tell you you're closed minded as well.

Don't get me wrong, some anti-liberals are cool.  I love some anti-liberal policies.  I don't classify myself as liberal or conservative, because I don't think either of the labels fit me.  And I try really hard to have an open mind (even when I'm being a straight up sarcastic, caustic bitch, during which time I am incredibly non-PC, to my undying amusement).

It's like I've always said.  I just don't like people.  It doesn't matter what you believe, what you do for a living, how much money you make.  It matters how you act, and what you say, and what you think your effect on others is versus what your actual effect on others is.  And frankly, I just don't like you.

we were actually talking about that today.

anyways.
shiny tagged me. so i take it, you get tagged, then you say ten things about yourself that not everybody may know, and then you tag ten more people?
whatever. here goes:

1.) I'm a TASAX carrier. if you don't know what that is, it's a genetic disorder commonly associated with the Jewish population. look it up, it's actually pretty confusing. Hard to explain.
2.) i find straight girls to be so incredibly stupid and annoying. hint: being straight = huge turn off.
3.) i fall for people pretty easily. no matter how hard i try.
4.) i don't like chocolate as much as other girls.
5.) chick flicks = hell on earth.
6.) i hate track, so much. but i do it anyways. because of the running, and the running only.
7.) i don't use T9 word when i text. i hate it. i use Abc.
8.) i'm really self conscious about talking on the phone. i think i have a really deep manly voice and i get nervous almost every time i try.
9.) my most embarrassing moments, both include a cell phone.
10.) i hate liars, yet i'm so good at it.

i tag...
uhhh.
whatever.
haha.

as i'm searching around mindsay here, i'm finding a lot of lists of various things about people. so i thought i'd make my own list.

 

• my name is Becca.
• i absolutely abhor my middle name, Leah. it's pronounced like princess Leah in star wars.
• if i were a boy my name would be Moshe Chayim Zohar.
  
• i'm 14 years old.
• i hate it when people call me Becky.
• i'm Jewish.
• I'm Gay.
• i'm a fake. we all are.
  
• i'm a hypocrite. we all are.
  
• i have more relationship problems than you even know.
• i love to run.
• i want to be the best runner around but i know that i'll never get there.
• i'm a total slacker.
• i hold grudges. constantly.
• i have said "lol" in real life when i thought something was funny.
• my most embarrassing moment is a phone convorsation.
• i'm always thinking about my email.
• i have extreme self respect.
• i tend to overanalyze things sometimes.
• i've found that i really suck at talking to somebody i have a crush on.
• i hate scene kids.
• i hate emo kids. i wish they'd just kill themselves and get it over with.
• i hate when people dissapoint me.
• i hate it when people are angry with me.
• i hate it when i dissapoint others.
• i hate it when i find out that people can't trust me like i trust them.
• i can be a very trusting person.
• i've been called sweet.
• i've been mistaken for a boy all my life.
• i'm extremely self-concious.
• i tell people i don't care what others think about me but it's a complete and utter lie.
• i love movies.
• i hate it when people talk during movies unless it's an okay time to talk.
• i hate it when people bring their babies to places. anywhere.
• i constantly wonder if i'm popular or not.
• i constantly think of sex. like any other teenager.
• i wish i've done more drugs than i have.
• i want to have a job.
• i have hazel eyes.
• my hair color changes with the seasons and the lighting in the room. i don't even know what color it is.
• i tan easily.
• people have told me that i'm very courageous.
• i'm somewhat trilingual. that means i can insult you in at least 3 languages.
• i'm a fast sprinter. i suck at distance.
• i have a superbly obese sister. she doesn't look like it, but she is.
• i can honestly say that i hate my father.
• i told my mother i was gay and she didn't believe me. i was fucking pissed.
• i get angry easily.
• i want to be the type of person that people talk about being nice all the time.
• i want to be the type of person that people can count on.
• i want to be the type of person that people can trust.
• i need to paint my room some color but i don't know what.
• i used to be able to draw well. i can't anymore.
• i want to take sculpture. i don't want to take Art 1.
• i am fascinated with yearbooks. i collect them.
• i am fascinated with the sciece of sex.
• i took guitar lessons for a month and quit because the teacher creeped me out.
• i used to be in the choir in jr. high.
• i absolutely love Paris Hilton and everything she does. she's hilarious.
• i absolutely hate Nicole Riccie's face. she's so ugly.
• i've always been living in the shadow of my two older sisters.
• i don't know what i want to do with my life yet.
• i haven't actually 'come out'. i've just stopped denying it.
• i'm afraid to 'stop denying it' to one of my friends. i actually want to be friends with her and i know she'll have a problem with it.
• i'm still waiting for everybody to grow out of jr. high.
• i'm 5 feet 4 inches tall.
• i'm supposed to be 5 feet 5 inches tall when i stop growing.
• i have a fetish for asians.
• i have a fetish for cheekbones.
• i have a fetish for forearms.
• i have a fetish for hands.
• i have a fetish for shoulders.
• for collarbones.
• for backs.
• for legs.
• for ass.
• for ears.
  
• for stomach.
• for neck.
• for chest.
• for calves.
• and suprisingly not for feet. i find them utterly disgusting.
• i also have a fetish for people that think History is interesting.
• for people that are good at math.
• for girls that can sing.
• for runners.
• for tennis players
• for Brazil girls too.
• i find black girls incredibely unattractive. sue me.
• i love Bowling For Soup.
• i used to be in love with Weird Al Yancovic.
• i never fit in anywhere with my friends.
• i move around from group to group to group and i've never really fit in anywhere in any group in school. like i'm friends with the scene kids and the cheerleaders and the jocks and the grunge kids and the 'popular' kids and the smart kids and the losers and the seniors and the sophmores and the juniors and the upcoming fresmen for next year and the artsy kids and just everybody.
• i want to send in a secret to postsecret but i'm afraid that my friends will recognize my handwriting. or that they'll just kow it's me.
• i'm afraid to admit my mistakes.
• i'm incredibly honest.
• i hate lying.
• i hate liars.
• i even hate the word: lie.
• but i'm surprisingly good at it. out of everyone i know i'm the best liar.
  
• i don't have a best friend.
• i have in the past posed as somebody else online and given a fake email address. it was super fun.
• i'm paranoid. there's always somebody talking about me. always.
• i like camping.
• i like taking pictures.
• i care about pop culture and celebrity's lives.
• i don't like getting super dirty.
• i don't like swimming while camping.
• i have a small 2 inch black and white t.v. in my room that doesn't have cable.
• i love the Jerry Springer Show.
• i also love The Springer Hustle.
• my mother hates Paris Hilton.
• i like debating people.
• i hate it when people tell me i'm wrong.
• i have an odd sense of humor. or so people tell me.
• i find really corny knock knock jokes incredibly funny.
• my skateboard has lime green grip tape.
• i've been skateboarding for like 3 years now and i still can't ollie.
• i know i can fit in with this group. i'm positive.
• my birthday is July 30.
• i was born at 7:02 AM.
• i'm an avid myspacer.
• i've purposely started crap on myspace to prove that somebody isn't better than i am and that i'm better than her. i succeeded.
  
• i am seriously waiting for my dog to die.
• i tend the say the wrong thing at the wrong time. a lot.
  
• my favorite band of all time would have to be New Found Glory.
• i never dance unless i'm forced.
• i hate car adds.
• i love musicals.
• i actually like school.
  
• i will be the editor of the school year book. i will.
• my dad is homophobic.
• i have Trypanophobia.
• i play mind games with people all the time. it excites me. i love doing it.
  

 

i'll be adding onto this.

 

I wrote a poem the other day during class because I was feeling upset, and this is what came out. It was written without much thought and is rather hackneyed together, but considering I don't usually write anything but short stories, I liked how this venture turned out. Go ahead and let me know what you think.

"People Are Ignorant"

People are ignorant
and in that respect,
every one of us is blind

People are ignorant,
and it's that respect,
that severs the ties that bind

People are ignorant
and if you inspect,
I'm sure that deep down you'll find

Everyone in your life,
who seemed to forget,
was ignorant the whole time.