I Hate Love @ MindSay

 Ok I dont get it my boyfriend is really senstive He makes jokes and comments about me and I just brush it off but oh no I happen to make a comment/joke and he gets ticked and pissed off at me. Then he calls me and starts yelling at me for it and then he thinks I am not going to be mad at him for yelling at me. I dont get it and my friends think he is an aswhole cause he spends to much time together and so they are pissed at me for that but that is because we love eah other dearly well I thought we did till tonite. I have very high tempered parents and now he is all going off on me i cant handle all this and my friends too. Im glad I have you guys. It is all to stress full I hate my life well I use to think that my life was pretty good with my supporting friends, good grade, and a boyfriend that cared about me but nooooo I had it all wrong every one hates me. AND my grades are droppin gnow so my mom is on my ass for that too and it is ddiveing me crazy I hate it. I just want a boyfriend that is suppporting and knows that everything is not all ok whne i say it is. I want him to loe me like I love him.

well if any of you have anything to say leave a comment but yeah I am going to go cry now. Cause i dont know where my relationship with chase is now.

bye

ttyn

Randi xoxo :-(

I've got an idea in my mind to cheat on my now serious boyfriend, Garret.  He's nice, too nice almost, but he is amazing, and i do hate to say it but, I love him.  I wish i didn't because that would make things so much more easy than they are now.  This is the first REAL relationship that i have been in that has that sort of all consuming, deep, want to see you everyday, fuck you every night sort of love.  now dont get me wrong i have loved before, but not like this. Those were passive loves.  But with garret, i hate it when he doesnt call me or touch me or something, i can barely stand not seeing him for two days at a time.  and the reason i'm going to cheat on him? Fear, basically.  What happens if it doesnt work out? of course it won't, i know this.  I'm too young to think that this thing that i have with an amazing guy will last longer than a few months, maybe a year if i'm lucky, or should i say unlucky?  If this lasts any longer, I'll get my heart broken, and i'm too much of a bitch already.   there are only two ways it can turn out if we dont break up now:

A) I become a big, huge, massive bitch without any real emotions because i got my heart broken and who's to say it wont happen again.  I'll become one of those women on movies that shelter themselves from people for fear of being hurt again.  And i would hate that OR

B) i become some sappy, sad lonely girl who only thinks about things that could have been instead of what i could make of things now.  I would hate that too.

So i  find myself at a paradox.  What to do?????

I think I'll cheat on Garret and get him to break up with me.  Jack is definately willing to mess around with me.And i find Jack intriguing, sexy and he's a big asshole which has always been appealing to me.  The only thing that could go wrong is i'll miss out on the only chance at love i've got.  But i dont believe that there's only one person for everyone do i? and if i do is garret it?

On a completely different note, i found a sweet ass lighter, it's an ice cream cone.

Well im going on holiday at 7:30 am monday morning
.. so until then im going to be a phone maniac and phone and text like everyone in my phone list ^_^
  .. and well i love holidays
.. were going down to cornwall ^_^
i love that place when im older im soo going to move there !!
,, oOoOo and guess what
.. my howt [single] lad mate is going on the same holiday ^_^
so fun fun fun and im going to enjoy the holiday more
^_^ ...  and anyways my gran came round for sunday lunch
.. and i had my make up on and for once in my life i felt purty ^_^
and she was like you have your own unique style young'un 
[ young'un is like a family name for me ]
and ill bring back prezzies
i have £200 already
and hell
i hate being single so Cornwall lads woop woop
lol
or my howt mate
or maybe ill stay single
i kinda like it ^_^
and kinda hate it ¬.¬
well lets eat apple pie [ that i made]
and NO its not poisionous
ANY ONE KNOW
WHAT
TRUE LOVE
IS ??
well hmm this is Seani defo
Love is : were you cant live with out some one ..
you hate when your not near them
you want to hear there voice 24/7
you want to be close to them body wise all atime
fell akward while your sleeping
when the pic of both of you kissing is beside
your bed
you just want to be with them
Grace : Woah that was Great .. who do you love?
Seani: the person in the pic
Grace =|
[ btw the person in the pic is me and that convo was on MsN]
i felt kinda werid about that
i looove Seani to bits
but
i rather have him as a friend we
do kiss not going out
but i know what he wants
he wants a relationship
and im not ready to give that
how ever much i love him
<3

im done with love

yup yupp u guessed it.. we broke up

i got cheated on.. whatta shock!! asssholeee

right now i really hope he burns in a firey pit .. along with the stupid whore he cheated on me w..

and if i ever see them together..

its not gonna be pretty

i hate them both so much

how can u think one minute that someone is your one and that your gonna marry them to the next wanting to hate him with every ounce in you..

i absolutely hate love..