I Dont Care @ MindSay

went missing again, im so done with it.


i try and care, and she does this shit, knowing it will worry me. so, i dont care anymore.

Yeah I've Been Menaing To Blog For A While Now.


I've Had So Much To Say But I've Forgot It All.... =[

Its 12:52 Am..
Ugh I Havent Sept Much Lately.

Yesterday I Went To Sleep At Like 5 Am. WOke Up At 1:30pm..

Most Nights I Been Getting To Sleep 2-4am


Really Not Good.


Im Happy Right Now =]
Its Cool.
Im Usually HxC Paranoid About Everything.
But Right Now I COuldnt Give A Shit.

Guys Are Easy =]
They Can Be Real Dicks - Especially When Theyre Round There Friends.
But I Realized, I Dont "Love" People. I Hate Most People... Kinda A Dumb Ting To Say But Its True.
Its Cool. They Cant Hurt Me If I Dont Care About Them =]


Im Gunna Make A New Blog, No Random Bullshit. Just Art And Shit.
I Dont Post My Pictures On Mindsay Much.
I Dont Post Much "Meaningful Thoughts" Either..

I Post Alotta Dreams Tho...
REandom.

Sorry I Havent Been Commenting Peoples Blogs Or Replying Back As Much, Too Lazy, Cant Think Of Anything Worth Saying Either.


Oh Just Remembered. I Had This Dream Last Night. I Dont Remember It Much But I Was At This Differnet School.
And It Had Like All The People I Know There.
It Was Cool.
It Was Athletics Day.
And Yeah I Dont Remember Much But I Rememeber Richard Fxd Up The Whole Thing And I Got Real Competitive About The Race For some Reason.
When I Got To The End Of The Race. Carol, The Receptionist, Was There She Was Writing The Times Down.

It Was Wierd, She Was Wearing Real HxC Fluro Make Up, And Bitching Bwt This Other Teacher, She Was Taling To Me Bwt Her As If We Were Mates Bitching Bwt Sum SLut Or Something It Was Way Wierd.

I Reemeber That After School I Was Walking Down This Street, It Seemed To Be LIke A Mix Of Lampton Key And Sonme STreet On Sydney. And I Was Walking Down, Smoking, As If I Didnt Care That People WOuld See Me Doing It, Then Someone, I Think It Was One Of My Cage Friends, Told Me That There Was Heaps Of Peope From My School Around, So I Was Like Shit, And Unlit The Smoke And Put It Back In The Packet In Front Of Everyone From The School,  But They All Werent Paying Attention, Not Even Realizeing I Was Smoking....

I Dont Remenmber Anything Else..
Well Its 1 O Clock Now,...

Im Gunna Go DO Watever Else...

x

So basically my dad is the biggest asshole I've ever met. I cant stand him. I would do ANYTHING to get out of this fuckin house and out of this town. There's not one thing left here for me. I have no reason to stay. I have to get out of here. This town & everyone here are killing me. It's all just slowly suffocating me & I cant take it.

 

I hate this town.

 

I hate everything about this town... from the churches that attempt to brainwash everyone to the schools that keep us all locked up like prisoners.

 

And I especially hate how everyone in this damn town is scared to think for themselves, but I guess that should be expected when everyone has always basically been told "Oh, no, don't think for yourself, leave the thinking to someone else, and just copy their every move." Obviously being yourself isn't important to anyone anymore, everyone is just too busy trying to be just like everyone else that they've all lost everything that made them who they were. I basically live in a town full of clones that don't know who they are or where they're going, but I guess as long as they have someone to tell them exactly what to do all their lives they'll be just fine. It's just pathetic that people are too scared to be who they really are just because they think they have to fit in. It disgusts me.

 

I hate the way everyone here is scared to do anything. It is actually kinda sad. What's wrong with dancing up and down the streets at 2 a.m. with your friends singing any song you can think of, falling to the ground cuz you're laughing so hard and not being able to get up for at least 10 minutes????   Absolutely nothing, unless, of course, you live in my town where that is basically considered a sin cuz it just can't be right to have that much fun. Everyone here would be too scared to even breathe outside after 10 p.m. "oh god, what if soneone sees me?! no, i cant do anything at all. i must be perfect. and when i cant be perfect i just have to hide from the world." GAWD. people here disgust me.

 

There's not even one thing I like about this town. Well, I guess the only thing I like about this town is that because of the people here I can honestly say that I am probably one of the most interesting people in this town.

Hi. im corey.
im half irish. half black
i dont like my self.
i burn shit and smoke alot.
im sadistic and enjoy others suffering
im bipolar and depressed.
i have friends but they dont understand the darkness
i dont care really
but it would be nice to talk to someone who does.
when i am happy its not a good happy more like a
"its ok now" happy
i hate my life.

i dont like it
but whatever
talk to me if you want
i dont care

"Can you give few second to tell about how much I care of you to day? If you dont want to know that fine! I probably tell myself about this all along!!"

 

Not much to say when we have a chance to talk..No much to think about. I really know that he always do care and love me, but right now I need to show how am I feeling to a special peopel like him.

 

Alright, Im not as a good person, and I am such a normal girl who is not as beautiful. But you know I have a good real love to you. I you open your mind to see me. Do u want this kind of people to get invlove in your life? If u really want to know! Im get ready to show you. My love is suppose to be the best thing when we have to get to know each other. Can I be your love on your side?

 

man usually never known about the woman's feeling!! huhuhu

 Bcoz of we live so far apart that why, I should tell him how much I care of him....Anyways, I will be right here...

Kitty