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Don't Blink
You know when the floor just drops out from underneath you?
I went out to dinner with my parents, and it was lovely. When I got home, there were 2 messages on the machine. I assumed they were for mom, so I didn't play them. She finally hit play, and the first one was from Jeff, my boss. He asked me to call back, so I did. I had no idea what about; if anything, I was imagining being asked if I wanted to help with the CITs this week or something. I don't know. In my mind, it was some kind of good news. Maybe he was asking if my mom had the pictures she took, and meant to say 'Ellen' instead of 'I'm calling for Emily'. Actually, I'm pretty sure that's what I thought he was calling about, because why would he announce he was calling for me, when he's my boss?
I digress.
Anyway, I call back, and he asks if I know anything/have heard anything/the news. I figured LeighAnn hurt her knee again somehow, another step towards me and the CITs.
To be honest, I wish the news was, "I know there's only one week left of work, but you're fired". I would have LOVED that phone call.
Instead what I got was, "Gaelan's brother died this weekend. He was swimming in Montana, and he drowned". And he went on to tell me about how Gaelan and her parents flew out there, and how Redyn and Sara weren't coming in to work tomorrow (their last day) to deal with stuff.
But it's not just Gaelan's brother. IT'S SAM. Sam, my co-counselor 2 summers ago. Sam with the beautiful blue eyes, who did the the amazing dives off the board, and was so good with Russell and Aaron when even I couldn't deal with them. Sam. The really sweet and cool kid who would help me get the work done, and make me feel like I wasn't bothering him when it was just the 2 of us and our kids when he was really closer friends with people otherwise on staff. Did Jeff forget that I knew Sam? Did he know it might prevent the tears for a few minutes if I had to think of the association between 'Gaelan's brother' and who that was? Did he know I was talking to Jeanette about Sam on Friday?
I'm actually devastated right now. It can't be right. I mean...not Sam.
I have about 4 million Kenny Chesney songs floating through my head right now. Be okay, Sam. Jeff's been wrong about stuff before, this has to be one of them. It just has to be. There isn't a second option.
Gaelan needs to be okay, too. I wish I knew her as long as I knew Sam so I'd feel more comfortable trying to look her up and offer her ANY kind of comfort, even though she has a million other people who DO know the family better and can provide a lot more. I feel like I need to do SOMETHING.
Something other than cry.
I went out to dinner with my parents, and it was lovely. When I got home, there were 2 messages on the machine. I assumed they were for mom, so I didn't play them. She finally hit play, and the first one was from Jeff, my boss. He asked me to call back, so I did. I had no idea what about; if anything, I was imagining being asked if I wanted to help with the CITs this week or something. I don't know. In my mind, it was some kind of good news. Maybe he was asking if my mom had the pictures she took, and meant to say 'Ellen' instead of 'I'm calling for Emily'. Actually, I'm pretty sure that's what I thought he was calling about, because why would he announce he was calling for me, when he's my boss?
I digress.
Anyway, I call back, and he asks if I know anything/have heard anything/the news. I figured LeighAnn hurt her knee again somehow, another step towards me and the CITs.
To be honest, I wish the news was, "I know there's only one week left of work, but you're fired". I would have LOVED that phone call.
Instead what I got was, "Gaelan's brother died this weekend. He was swimming in Montana, and he drowned". And he went on to tell me about how Gaelan and her parents flew out there, and how Redyn and Sara weren't coming in to work tomorrow (their last day) to deal with stuff.
But it's not just Gaelan's brother. IT'S SAM. Sam, my co-counselor 2 summers ago. Sam with the beautiful blue eyes, who did the the amazing dives off the board, and was so good with Russell and Aaron when even I couldn't deal with them. Sam. The really sweet and cool kid who would help me get the work done, and make me feel like I wasn't bothering him when it was just the 2 of us and our kids when he was really closer friends with people otherwise on staff. Did Jeff forget that I knew Sam? Did he know it might prevent the tears for a few minutes if I had to think of the association between 'Gaelan's brother' and who that was? Did he know I was talking to Jeanette about Sam on Friday?
I'm actually devastated right now. It can't be right. I mean...not Sam.
I have about 4 million Kenny Chesney songs floating through my head right now. Be okay, Sam. Jeff's been wrong about stuff before, this has to be one of them. It just has to be. There isn't a second option.
Gaelan needs to be okay, too. I wish I knew her as long as I knew Sam so I'd feel more comfortable trying to look her up and offer her ANY kind of comfort, even though she has a million other people who DO know the family better and can provide a lot more. I feel like I need to do SOMETHING.
Something other than cry.
felling better
I now feel better, everything is fine
sam likes emma white again...i think O.o
and emma really never hated sam...much
well i had i real good time with sam today, not only his he my boyfriend he's like one of my best mates too :)
i love him lots,
i also love all my friends.
bye bye x
Sam: an apology
Sam is my friend. He's been my friend for two and a half years.
I remember the first time I met him I felt awkward because I said the "Sam I am" thing and he called me an unoriginal bastard. Then he ran down 4 flights of stairs with a chair taped to him and a collar that said "Trina's bitch" on it... at least I think it was "Trina's bitch." Weird how that worked out, huh?
Sam is the only person who can actually contend with my hair. It must be a Welsh thing.
Sam is one of the funniest people I know.
Sam is a man of contradictions. Hyper but ultra-laid back. It's weird, but it's freakishly accurate.
Sam helped us build the super cool living room fort and even lent a light thingy that we never used.
Sam makes fun of me on a daily basis.
Sam refuses to believe in Cinnahutts. He used to not believe in Icees either, but there was clear evidence of that so he had to admit its existence.
Sam has driven me home plenty of times. Except that one time that Jul's did. But then Jul's took the "scenic route," otherwise known as the "forgot to turn down Bronson route." I should have gone with Sam.
Sam's dad was from the same area that I'm from. Sam has seen Jumbo.
Sam has made me laugh so hard I've cried.
I crashed in on his and Trina's Valentines dinner. CLING! (remember that?)
Sam and I share an appreciation of doppelgangers.
We used to nap together in a room of 300 or so people, otherwise known as first year film class.
Sam was hurt that I did not include him on my best friends list on a previous blog. I'm sorry Sam. I fixed the entry and now you are the only friend out of all of my friends (all 7 of them) to have a full length blog entry about them.
Sam turns 20 on the 28th. Expect a card.
28 Days Later...Plus 2 More Days
One of the all-powerful, all-knowing, all-controlling lords of MindSay has requested I write a review of the new FX reality show, 30 Days.
So, dear MindSay ruler (Sit down, Uncle Nasty, it's not you), here you go:
30 Days is the new reality show from Morgan Spurlock, the Oscar nominated director of the Oscar nominated documentary, Super Size me. Its general principle is that each week a new person will live outside of their comfort zone for 30 days, teaching themselves, and the viewers, the meaning of understanding and compassion, and that not everyone is like you, and that that is a good thing.
So far there have been two episodes. The first one starred Morgan himself, as well as his fiance, Alex. It starts off with him talking about how he's living high after the success of his film. It shows him getting into a limo to go to the Oscars, Alex is wearing earrings that cost more than her entire education, Super Size Me is selling a crazy amount of DVD's. Everyone is happy.
But for the next 30 days Morgan and Alex will live in Ohio on minimum wage to see how the many Americans that live in poverty actually live.
The hour show was structured very similar to Super Size Me, interspersing the main characters' woes - finding a job, finding a place to live, getting furniture, dealing with a urinary tract infection, getting injured on the job, not being able to afford hospital bills, sleeping with a family of cockroaches, eating nothing but rice and beans - with background information on minimum wage, old newspaper stories, and funny animations. The result is an entertaining show that not only informs the audience about how much of the country is living, but also reveals some real drama. When Alex breaks down into tears saying, "The human race is capable of so many wonderful things. Sometimes I forget that," when they discover a store that gives furniture away to those who need it, even though the people volunteering at the store and donating the furniture are some of the ones who need it, the show gets very emotional. Similarly, when she reveals that it is her thirtieth birthday, and that she was hoping for a huge party with friends and family, but instead is freezing cold in her bed with not even enough money to go to a local conservatory, you start to feel really bad for her and her situation, and thus for everyone living on minimum wage. And you get excited when Morgan surprises her by taking her to a restaurant to celebrate. You actually become engrossed in these people's lives, even though you've only been following them around for an hour.
The second show was structured similarly, but Morgan was not the main focus. A 32-year-old former athlete hasn't worked out in forteen years, so for the next 30 days he will have daily injections of steroids and take 41 pills (plus work-out 7 hours a day) to reverse the aging process.
The drama is real. His liver functions become abnormal. His sperm count drops from 80 million an ejaculation to zero (which sets his wife off since they were planning on having their fourth child). Morgan makes an appearance to go to Mexico and show how easy it is to buy illegal drugs.
The guy is very nice and very funny, and his family is loving and adorable, but the only problem is, seeing a guy take steroids isn't that compelling. He's upset because he's gained weight. Well gee, here's a thought, maybe you gained weight because you haven't worked out in 14 years.
Then, two weeks into his new lifestyle (keep in mind he's been working out 7 hours a day with a personal trainer) he giddily announces to the doctor that the steroids are working great because each time he works out it's a little bit easier.
I'm sure the personal trainer would have been furious to hear this. I'm thinking maybe, just maybe, it became easier to workout because you've been doing it 7 hours a day. Do you think?
I won't tell you what happens, but the outcome is interesting, and Morgan's typical background information and animations liven it up. It's just that some guy who wants to look younger isn't as compelling as the adorable Morgan and Alex trying to figure out whether they can afford to go to the emergency room to find out why Morgan's wrist is aching.
Still, it was a fascinating show that reveals some insights and medicine I didn't previously know about. And this wednesday (on FX at 10) a devout Catholic will spend 30 days with a Muslim family. THAT should be quite interesting.
I suggest you tune in. There isn't much else on television right now, and this is one of the few reality shows that isn't about eating bugs or finding love. It's just one person or one family's attempt to learn more about the world, and in the process, you'll learn more too.
Plus, Morgan's handlebar mustache is just irresistable.
Also, I heard rumors that one of the upcoming shows will have Uncle Nasty having sex with real people his own age, instead of mannaquins of ten-year-old boys. It should be eye-opening, and yet cringe inducing, all at the same time.
*Sorry ruler of MindSay, this was a pretty weak review. I'm off my game. I'll step it up next time. I promise.*
One of the all-powerful, all-knowing, all-controlling lords of MindSay has requested I write a review of the new FX reality show, 30 Days.
So, dear MindSay ruler (Sit down, Uncle Nasty, it's not you), here you go:
30 Days is the new reality show from Morgan Spurlock, the Oscar nominated director of the Oscar nominated documentary, Super Size me. Its general principle is that each week a new person will live outside of their comfort zone for 30 days, teaching themselves, and the viewers, the meaning of understanding and compassion, and that not everyone is like you, and that that is a good thing.
So far there have been two episodes. The first one starred Morgan himself, as well as his fiance, Alex. It starts off with him talking about how he's living high after the success of his film. It shows him getting into a limo to go to the Oscars, Alex is wearing earrings that cost more than her entire education, Super Size Me is selling a crazy amount of DVD's. Everyone is happy.
But for the next 30 days Morgan and Alex will live in Ohio on minimum wage to see how the many Americans that live in poverty actually live.
The hour show was structured very similar to Super Size Me, interspersing the main characters' woes - finding a job, finding a place to live, getting furniture, dealing with a urinary tract infection, getting injured on the job, not being able to afford hospital bills, sleeping with a family of cockroaches, eating nothing but rice and beans - with background information on minimum wage, old newspaper stories, and funny animations. The result is an entertaining show that not only informs the audience about how much of the country is living, but also reveals some real drama. When Alex breaks down into tears saying, "The human race is capable of so many wonderful things. Sometimes I forget that," when they discover a store that gives furniture away to those who need it, even though the people volunteering at the store and donating the furniture are some of the ones who need it, the show gets very emotional. Similarly, when she reveals that it is her thirtieth birthday, and that she was hoping for a huge party with friends and family, but instead is freezing cold in her bed with not even enough money to go to a local conservatory, you start to feel really bad for her and her situation, and thus for everyone living on minimum wage. And you get excited when Morgan surprises her by taking her to a restaurant to celebrate. You actually become engrossed in these people's lives, even though you've only been following them around for an hour.
The second show was structured similarly, but Morgan was not the main focus. A 32-year-old former athlete hasn't worked out in forteen years, so for the next 30 days he will have daily injections of steroids and take 41 pills (plus work-out 7 hours a day) to reverse the aging process.
The drama is real. His liver functions become abnormal. His sperm count drops from 80 million an ejaculation to zero (which sets his wife off since they were planning on having their fourth child). Morgan makes an appearance to go to Mexico and show how easy it is to buy illegal drugs.
The guy is very nice and very funny, and his family is loving and adorable, but the only problem is, seeing a guy take steroids isn't that compelling. He's upset because he's gained weight. Well gee, here's a thought, maybe you gained weight because you haven't worked out in 14 years.
Then, two weeks into his new lifestyle (keep in mind he's been working out 7 hours a day with a personal trainer) he giddily announces to the doctor that the steroids are working great because each time he works out it's a little bit easier.
I'm sure the personal trainer would have been furious to hear this. I'm thinking maybe, just maybe, it became easier to workout because you've been doing it 7 hours a day. Do you think?
I won't tell you what happens, but the outcome is interesting, and Morgan's typical background information and animations liven it up. It's just that some guy who wants to look younger isn't as compelling as the adorable Morgan and Alex trying to figure out whether they can afford to go to the emergency room to find out why Morgan's wrist is aching.
Still, it was a fascinating show that reveals some insights and medicine I didn't previously know about. And this wednesday (on FX at 10) a devout Catholic will spend 30 days with a Muslim family. THAT should be quite interesting.
I suggest you tune in. There isn't much else on television right now, and this is one of the few reality shows that isn't about eating bugs or finding love. It's just one person or one family's attempt to learn more about the world, and in the process, you'll learn more too.
Plus, Morgan's handlebar mustache is just irresistable.
Also, I heard rumors that one of the upcoming shows will have Uncle Nasty having sex with real people his own age, instead of mannaquins of ten-year-old boys. It should be eye-opening, and yet cringe inducing, all at the same time.
*Sorry ruler of MindSay, this was a pretty weak review. I'm off my game. I'll step it up next time. I promise.*
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