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Hey guys I now yall missed me I'm sorry I haven't been on I've been wrapped up in school and work but its all good makin the grades @ least. But yea leave one and say hi to me!

Kim Wilde- You Keep me Hanging on

 

Hey, so I'm back...I promise. haha. I used to write in this thing all the time , but ever since last year its seems I've fallen of the face of the Mindsay world. Ehh its alright, I've made a comeback! =] its good to be back, I feel as though I haven't been able to talk freely for a very long time so now here is my chance. I'm going to say whatever I want and not care what anyone thinks....well...I do that anyway but you know what I mean. Okay okay, so enough on introductions. I am back and a LOT has been going on with me. I graduated, I 'm going to college, I'm excited/nervous...I'm going to MEXICO at the end of the month so I am SUPER SUPER stoked for that. I no longer work at Limited Too THANK GOD. I work at another store now and pretty happy there. My co workers are laid back and fun to be around, so work isn't torture all the time. I 've also had an AWESOME Graudation Party in which my parents surprised me with a NEW CAR =]. I had college orientation which was freaking amazing. I met so many amazing people and the dance was awesome too haha. Let's see what else have I been doing.....pretty much working, shopping, enjoying myself for the most part. Well I think i'm going to go right now, and edit the rest of my blog since i haven't been on here since last year.

 

Bye!!

 

wow i haven't been on here forever! but everything else at my school is blocked :S. So just saying what's up. I am in English right now and we are supposed to be writing literary devices. they are confusing. anybody know of a good poem for personification? let me know :) have a lovely day whoever and wherever u are!

Livi Lou

I've been having Daddy issues lately. He's been real tough on me, and for no reason. He's known for a long, long time that me and my brother watch South Park, he's entered the room on multiple occasions where the show has been on. He also knows that I watch all of those R-Rated comedies, and he has no problem with it.

 

Then, my brother comes home from college with my sister for the weekend. And I say, "Dave, you see the latest South Park episode?" He replies, "Oh my god!" And we begin to talk about it. Out of nowhere, my dad goes, "Should you be watching that?"

I say, "Well, is it any worse than Wedding Crashers or 40 Year Old Virgin? You have no problem with those things."

He gives me his standard 'she's right but I cant admit that I'm wrong' look and says, "No, I trust you to do the right thing. I dont pay attention to what you watch, but now I might start."

My Mom rolls her eyes.

 

And thats only the tip of the ice berg. The day I find out that I got one of the leads in the school play, me and my mom are so excited. Dad says "Oh, congratulations. I have to rain on your parade, but if your report card isn't good enough you're not doing Drama."

I doubt he would have said that if I was in fencing.

 

Thats what irks me. He doesn't support my acting, no matter how much he says he does. I could see how excited he got when I joined fencing, and how upset he was when I told him I had to quit for Drama. He can't get into the whole drama scene, which I understand, but why can't he just support me?

 

I'm so happy I have Drama right now. It's my only escape. It's like a second family, and I hate when it ends. Its just one of those things that I'm so passionate about, and I hate Mondays and Fridays, because it means I dont have to go down to the Black Box Theatre and rehearse. For once in my life I'm not stuck with mediocre actors who dont want to be there. For once we have props, a setting, a backstage, costumes! It's something I've never experienced before, and I dont want it to end.

 

I am so lost and confused.  For the past 2 days I have hardly been able to function. I just keep going through the motions and praying what I saw wasn't true.  However, the real thing that bothers me is not knowing how to find out whether it is true or not!

A girl that I am not even close to keeps on having information to tell me.  She isn't someone that I ever thought would lie to me.  However, I'm not sure where got her info.  She told me it was her husband, he would know.

But since I saw the man I have been in love with forever, with another girl on Friday, I feel like I have been runover by a MACK truck and can't seem to haul myself up.

I tell myself all the time that I am over him, but I know I am not.  I wish I could be though, it would certainly be easier.  I am heart-broken, angry and hurt.  Since all my friends say that he has wanted to get together with me, he just never sees me alone to ask me.  Then the mystery ladies husband is like best friends with him and he says "buddy" was at the store talking about you, he really likes you.

I am still not sure how you can be in love with someone you don't know, but me I am a unqiue idiot, as I have been able to do it twice.  I have no idea what I am doing and how I get my sense of self back.

I have been looking at moving in with a friend and not that I don't need a change of senary cause I do.  While going through the loose ends to get things done, I promised myself he would be the only reason I would stay. If my friends were my true friends, they would understand that staying here would just be nonsense if I  didn't have a viable reason.

I simply want to meet the man of my dreams and have a family with someone I can love forever and for some reason I was sure that it would be him.  Now see him with someone else simply tells me to cut my losses and hurry up and get the hell out of here.

So I am simply just sad