Hope @ MindSay

Shadeofgray brings us news that for the first time in fourteen years, a baby rhino has been born at the Dublin Zoo.

The white rhinoceros is a species that was near extinction due to an abundance of hunting, however this little miracle is a sign of hope in rekindling the species.

The rhino calf is a female weighing in at 70kg (154lbs) and has yet to be given a name, though it is speculated that a public contest will be held for that purpose.

White rhinos are fully mature and ready to mate at around 6-years-old. Hopefully in another six years, this young calf will be bear her own young and help to revive the endangered species.

Ahh, wow, lol. Emotional to the max. I am feeling a million times better, for anyone that cares.

 

I love the song, Amazing by Aerosmith, the one line from that song means a lot to me, “Life's a journey not a destination” but I always think to myself, it is the destinations along they way that make the journey worth the trip.

 

I use to have a lot of regrets in my life; I use to think a lot about things in my past that I figured I screwed up, or did wrong in some manner and just couldn’t let it go. I regret nothing now, thanks to a special person that crossed my path in my journey threw life. She taught me that once something has been written into the history books, there is nothing you can do to change it, and regret is basically useless. Or if you have a regret, then take action today, to do what you can to change things in the present.

 

Things change; we all know that, life is random. Life does not follow a set path. I understand people change, thoughts and ideas can vary from one moment to the next. I can accept that, I can handle that.

 

I think two people can be friends after being intimate with each other, it may be hard at first, and it would take two very special people. But, I believe it can be done, there are lots of factors that can cause a relationship to end, it doesn’t have to be hate or anger or any crap like that, it could be just both parties grew and changed and there relationship that may have once been magical kind of cooled off into a friendship on its own. It happens, at that point, I think the two people could be friends, and what could be better than having a close friend that knows you better then some of your lovers ever will. Support and understanding is what it is all about.

 

I hope this girl and I can be friends, I hope we have what it takes to make it, and not lose one another totally. I am not sure at the moment, it has been a rough few weeks, and I admit mostly because of me and my difficulty letting go of the intimate part of the relationship.

 

I understand the relationship had to end, romantically, it was just hard for me to let go of it after 3 years, even though we where just basically friends the last while. We had a talk a couple nights ago that I thought where the first steps to friendship, but I am not sure now, I understand it can’t be easy for her either. We had great times, and now, I personally think we can continue having great times, as friends.

 

Anyway, the thing is, because of her, I can honestly say I have no regrets. I am glad about everything that happened and hope her and I can work this out.

 

Meaning is difficult to find for some people, I suppose. I've always hoped for a better future -- not necessarily for myself, but for the ones I know and care deeply for. Empathy has always been one of my strong points, though the negative consequences associated with this characteristic are unfortunately beginning to show. I care too much about my friends, family, strangers, even enemies. Even the ones I hate the most I still find some kind of pity to spare on them. A negative trait, perhaps, but it leaves me hoping for the best.


Your best interest? I have hope for you that you will keep your love for this world.

Even though it beats you down every day for the rest of your stay here.

I pray that the reading of this very personal account of war and its aftermath will benefit other combat veterans agonized by severe and chronic PTSD as it has been for me in the writing of it. The intention of this account is to help them, their friends and loved ones better understand this devastating “psychological, automatic, and natural response” to repeated, life threatening situations and to offer them hope and guidance in achieving a much brighter future. This publication will bring them to the realization that they are not alone in their sufferings and that professional help, understanding and comradeship, is as close as the nearest Veterans Administration Medical Center.

 

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So this past year from summer 07 to a month ago was a MESS.
i have no idea how ive come out of everything alive.
i went from being co captain of my cheerleading squad, an IB student, and having TONS of friends along with the perfect boyfriend to being the slut of the school, and a complete social outcast whose life revolves around sex and drugs.
how i did all of that in a matter of months is beyond me.
and topping it off by not caring and continuing the drugs and everything blows my mind away.
i went to 2 rehabs and ran away from both.
i went to jdc twice.
GOD!!!
thank god im okay now though.
ive been sober for 3 months and im getting everything back on track.
i still look back and want to scream though. i had a really good life. i just wish i wasnt so stupid.
i survived though.
and im proud to say im doing all right.
im making this site so that i can look back on my life in an other year and remind myself that i made it and in the end itll all be okay.
so enjoy reading from now on.
heres my life after drugs and institutions.