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Listening to : Hurt- Nine Inch Nails

I finished with my last paper today.Therefore I am officialy on holiday now. whoopde fucking doo.

I also had a bit of a differentiation with Karina about morals and values that we have. It feels like our friendship isn't quite as strong as it was a while ago. Both of us have changed- maybe grown up.

I came home- it was a mess..went to this little nature reserve beneath my house and parked with some stoner friends for a while and came back still to find my home to be a mess. Everything was explained when my dad took me for coffee later.

My parents are officially getting a divorce now and my dad is moving out in exactly a month or so. I was expecting this.But not now. I don't know if I should be happy or not?I know that it would make both of them much happier as the vibe at home ain't that pleasant.It just feels that people in present society just don't try anymore. It's just too easy to throw in the towel.

Just came back from the square..this drinking place in Pretoria and I'm a bit whoozy from my 3 drinks that I had. I had to get my head cleansed.I know alcahol isn't the way to do it but oh well- at least I had a good time with my friends.I miss Riaan. He's in the middle of the Indian Ocean on a cruise ship with no phone signal- for a week! So I can't even have someone to hold me!

Damn..a lot happens in one day?? It's like a soapie!!?

"Hurt"

I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

The needle tears a hole

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

What have I become?

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away in the end

You could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way

-Nine Inch Nails

Just try and smile, okay? 

Hey peeps. What is crackin? Having a better day since my lat entry.

Joel has been at state convention for the past 2 days. He comes home today. YAY!! He called me at 12:30 last night and left me cell a message. He sounded drunk. He wasn't though. He called again and said he drank one of them Vault things. O well. I haven't acctully talked to him, or seen him, since the Tursday that he left. Need to talk to him and see him.I've missed him. But today he comes home.

Went for a walk w/ Olivia and Cait last night. Olivia and I had to run home cause we were gonna be late. So we sprinted like half way to my house. It was funny. Talked to Curt and Cait for a bit. Then we sat at my house and laughed at eachother being retards. We were doing those sexy run way walks...only we were doing them WAY wrong.

Might go see the Prom walk in tonight. I dunno yet though.

TTFN

I love you.....like a lot.

Okay, I'm home w00t, and it rocks my socks off. Except the fact that I wanted to sleep passed 11:30 today but my dad was talking with his booming voice, and I hear him talking with my mom and he's like " Yea, the 3 of us can go out at like 4" and my mom goes "what about Jess?" and he goes "OH YEA! I forgot shes home"....Thanks dad!

So last night I got to see Kristin and she might come over today I'm soo effing excited, that lucky bitch gets to go to the flyers game tonight!! And Donna's working, so I'll most likely get done my chem homework and the computer in the house, maybe I'll ask my mom to take me to the mall to get more fishies...I come home and theres only one in the tank, 2 died before I left, but there were 4, so I go "Hey mom, where'd the other fish go", she says "Uhm, I haven't seen it for about 3 weeks, it's probably dead, stuck in the filter". I said "Uhm I changed the filter, it's not in there" so she says "Well it probably disinigrated into the tank"....EW....so those where the chunks floating around....

Last night me and Kristin went out and had some Dairy Queen, OMG it was orgasmic. Then we went to Grant movies, it was awesome, we saw Domino and creamed ourselves over how HOT Kiera Knightley is, and we got to see her tits, ((lmao)). It was the best friggen movie of my life, she's so fucking hot!!! Keira really should be in like every movie, just to look hot and say random things. She even kind of looks like the real Domino, who died from a drug overdose. Okay well now I'm off to go download illegal songs! Talk to you later all.

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I can't even get a random quote/lyric here..Keira's too hot.
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