Ok, so I am 37 years old. I am very possibly pregnant, the second home test this morning still said yes and my boobs feel like lead weights that have been punched for three hours. My night time body temperature is something like 1000 degrees if you are sleeping next to me.
And so I thought I'd poke around and do light research before the doctor appointment Tuesday... I figured somehow taht I had a couple of weeks or so before anything I did really counted in a major way.. I mean, sure, don't drink, don't smoke... But I'm reading bad things now about Green Tea... and HOT BATHS in the first trimester... NO HOT BATHS!!!
Shit!!
I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to soak my aching breasts in a floaty tub and they tell me I might make a three armed baby if I do that...
Now I have to do NOTHING until Tuesday and hope I don't do the wrong nothings until I talk to a person who is supposed to know...
At least I did go and buy the prenatal vitamins after reading that the first few weeks are the opposite of what I thought, they are the most important... I worry because earlier this week I took antihistamines... and last weekend I drank (not to the point of stupidity, but more than a moderate amount)...
Oy....
But I want this to work. I'm past the prime, I don't know if it will work again.. So I have no insurance... So I live in a school bus in my dads back yard with my boyfriend who is pursuing a masters degree.. So we are dirt poor... We want the child. And There is no time like today, there will never be a perfect time...
I am scared shitless, quite honestly, so I hope I do this right....
