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GAHHH
Quiz Time
Stolen From Myspace

1. Would you marry for money?
Hmm Maybe

2. Have you had braces?
YEah.

3. Could you live without a computer?
No.

4. If you could live in any past time period, where would it be?
No
I Dont Know
Its Cool Right Now
Im Used To It

5. Do you drink enough water?
No Way

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take 'em off?
Shoes
Or
Socks
Never Feet

7. What are your favorite fruits?
Hmm
I Like Green Apples

8. What is your favorite place to visit?
Town?
I Dunno

9. Are you photogenic?
No Way
Same With Lottie I Look Okay In 1/30 Pix
Thats Why Caz Has Photoshop

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?
Depends
Color
Or
Black And White
Or
Static/Blurr

11. Why do you take surveys??
Bored
No Life

12. Do you drink alcohol?
Yeah

13. What is the most beautiful language?
Cazolothian Lol Or Camp Language
Well Maybe Not Beautifukl
Just Rad

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
If I Was Asleep I Wouldnt Know

15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?
Hmm

16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old?
I Dont Know
I Will Be Young Forever
I cant Imagine Ever Being A Stuffy Old Lady
When Im Old Im Dying My Hair Fluro And Throwing Meat At Randoms While Playing Cradle Of Filth On Full Blast
Or Something Heavier
Music Will Be Heavier By Then
If I Doesnt Get Killed By Rap.

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?
What?

19. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights switched on or off?
Off

20. Do you believe in magic?
Sorta
Not Like Harry Potter Magic Though
Gayness

22. Do you like to watch cartoons?
Sometimes

23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?
Hahahah Zerrin!
Hmmm 11?
I Was Pretty Thick
I Didnt Beleive My Friends When They Said That He Was Fake

24. Do you write poems?
Not Really

25. Do you snore?
No.

26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?
Depends On My Mood
Goddd Like Most Things

27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
Umm
Whats A Rottweiler

28. Are you basically a happy person?
Sometimes Yes Sometimes No

29. Are you tired?
Yes.

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?
Yup
Always
Forever

32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?
3 Landlines
5 Cells

33. Do you get along with your parents?
Sometimes

34. Do you smoke?
Socially

35. Do you have a kitty?
Loco

36. Have you ever had a birthday party?
Not afor Years

37. What do you do when you're sad?
hmm

38. What do you need most now?
i need to talk to that guy
and a Demon nrg

39. What song are you listening to now?
No. 13 Baby
Pixies

40. What are you craving right now?
Caffeine
Really Bad
REALLY
BAD

QUIZ 2

1. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you laid ?
Whaat?

2. Where was the last place you went out to eat?
McDs


3. What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed?
Wine
Oops
Too Much Caza
Hey Dont Put That In Your Mouth!!
heheh Funny Shit

4. Which do you prefer - eyes or lips?
Eyes

5. Medicine, fine arts, or law?
None

6. Best kind of pizza?
All Of The Above

7. Is your bedroom window open?
No

8. What is in store for your future?
Hmm
I DOnt KNow

9. Who was the last band you saw live?
Hmm Some Gay One
Dad Made Me Come

10. Do you take care of your friends while they are sick?
If They Let Me Get Near Them

11. What is your favorite soda?
Demon <3

12. How many songs are on your iTunes?
280 Exactly
I Really Want More Tho

13. When was the last time you purchased something over $500?
Never
Ever
Where Would I Get That Sort Of Money?

14. Where is the last place you drove to?
Home

15. Are you experienced?
At What?

16. Any historical figures that you envy?
No
Why Would I

18. When was the last time you got a good workout?
Nah
Ah

19. If you need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?
Pft
These Questions Just Get Worse And WOrse

21. What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night?
Txtn

22. Are you a quitter?
At What?

23. Who was the last person you had in your house?
Me?

24. Can you speak another language?
Made Up Languages
And A bit Of Latin And Spanish
25. How about you put your legs behind your head?
I Could
But I Dont Want To

26. When was the last time you went dancing while under the influence?
Went Dancing?
No.
Danced?
Yes

27. Nickname?
Too Many

28. Describe what you are wearing in detail?
Red 3/4 Tights (well more 1/2), Denim Mini, Vans, Pink Ankle Socks, Happy Tree Friends Tee, Pink And Gray Hoodie,.

29. What do you think about people who party a lot?
Meh

30. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Depends Who To
Friends
No
Parents
FXCK YES

31. Are you one of those people who obsess over Hollister?
WHats That?

32. What was the last CD you purchased?
I Dont Buy Them
Last CD I Got Was Off The Radio,
Cradle Of Filth - Thornography

33. What are two bands or singers that you will always love?
Hmm

34. What of the seven deadly sins are you guilty of?
All

35. Did you just have to google the seven deadly sins to see what they were?
Why Would I Bother

36. Where is your favorite place to get coffee?
Fxck Coffee
Surprisingly
I Hate It

37. Have you ever been offered a job?
Yeah

38. Have you ever stolen anything off of a road?
Brice, The Road Cone
But I Left Him

39. When was the last time you dyed your hair?
Never

40. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Mum + J

41. Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks?
No =[

42. Miss someone?
FXCK YES

Sometime in between brushing my teeth this morning and brushing my teeth tonight, my toothbrush jumped out of the bathroom, wandered down the hallway, through part of the living room, and ended up with the utensils in the drying rack in the kitchen.

Odd.

So last night I was reflecting on my life, like I usually do. I kept thinking about the times when my former best friends and I hung out and I couldn't help but cry because I know it'll never be the same way again and it's gone. Sure I'll make new memories with new friends but the fact is that us three will never hang out again, things changed completely. I'm not even friends with one of them. And I kept telling myself "It's nothing, it's nothing, get over it!" but I can't help but miss what we had. Things were so great. I couldnt stop crying.

So I decided to write some things down. Even then I felt lame about it, but I felt it was something I should do anyways. So many times I think I'm okay and I feel fine, but then I come around and realise I was really just fooling myself. I act a lot. Like, almost all the time. I guess I'm afraid to show my feelings... which I think sounds stupid, but it might actually be true. I never thought I had a problem with it, but I may have just been thinking about my acting. If I know how I'm supposed to feel and if it's all just pretend, I can act easily. But if it's my own feelings, I'm lost.

Ever since I began writing poetry, that was my way of expressing myself. But I havn't been writing much lately. I just think whatever I write sounds cliche and I hate when things are unorginal. I've realized almost all of my poems are about love, which again I think is stupid. I hate love poems. It may sound immature, but it's true. As I said, I hate things that are unoriginal and most love poems I come across are all the same. I like to think mine are different, but I doubt it. It discourages me to write, even though I don't write for other people nor for it to sound good, I just hate when it sounds like everything else I've read. I don't even really want to share it 'cause it uses crappy metaphors and stuff, but I'll post it anyways.

So here's what I wrote last night (from my diary)...beware for bad comparisons, confusing phrase construction and general emotionalness...I wasn't exactly thinking but come on, give me a chance? >< or not. your choice.

" So my life's been a bit shattering lately. Little bits keep breaking and falling away from the big picture and sometimes it gets replaced but it doesn't feel right 'cause it's all so unfamiliar. Change is a familiar thing 'cause it happens all the time, and we're constantly forced to adapt, but then you're picked up and plucked out of everything you're used to, and adapting is common but that doesn't make it easy. Little changes can be hard to adapt with as it is. I love change, I really do. I may have a negative outlook on it, or fear it to the point of tears, imagining what mu life would be like if certain changes occured, but most change in my life, although extremely negative and difficult to bear at times, and almost making me give up completely and stop caring about everything, has made room for better things to happen later. but right now the picture keeps breaking and it's like I'm trying all the wrong pieces and right now I'm thinking about how lame and cliche this sounds. So I compare it to every thing else in my life that may have begun with great potential but  I ruined it and I'm alone and lost again. I try not to be so pessimistic, and not blame myself, but who else's fault would it be? I control my actions and decisions. I love fear but this just hurts. It's terrifying but I feel so empty. Maybe it's just terrifying because I feel so empty.  24h32 "

nobody replied to my sexiest post of the year so far :(:(

 

But anyway, I'm at work and my first day off in a week will be tomorrow, thank god! :):)

And I'm feeling pretty sexy at work in makeup, but that hickey Cal gave me I had a helluva time covering up, bastard ><!

 

 

Also a personal bit about cervix pain from me:  Only read if you're a girl or gynecologist, lol

But anyway, when Cal and I were having sex, if he goes anywhere near my cervix it hurts pretty badly, but when he actually hit the cervix, it was EXTREMELY painful!  On a scale from 1 to 10, ten being blinding, dying pain, and 1 being somebody tapping me on the shoulder, it was an 8-8 1/2, I can't believe it hurt that bad, this has been going on for a few days, I've never had pain this bad before, and the last time I was having pains at about a 6, there was nothing wrong with me (I went to the doctor) could this just be a phase?

Any help is good help :D

And in class, we were reading these self help statements, such as "I have a right to cry." and "I have a right to feel happy without people hurting me." and the paper didn't get to me otherwise I would have said, "I have a right to remain silent, everything I can can and will be used against me in a court of law."  Oh man, that would have been hilarious! :O

But they still haven't found the old lady yet...me and my neck crave justice just like we crave carrots and dip!  It will be done!

And how much should I hurt to have to take the lady to court for hitting me and needing chiropractic work?

Anybody?

How is everybody else today? :)