I've been feelin sick lately, and when I feel sick I get cranky and whine. I TRY not to. But sometimes everything just get so chaotic! I DON"T like cold rain. It makes my bones creak. And the hives from snow have started already. Just the hives, not the snow YET thank goodness.
Okay, First, I don't mind having a house full of kidlets. i love every single one of them, regardless of their abilities or disabilities. But I can't take any more of them right now! right now there are 6 of my own,2 neices, My Grandchild,one foster child, and 4 younger siblings. And they want me to take 2 more. I can't take them, and it breaks my heart that they have to go into general foster care. But i just downt have any more space to put them in!
And Miss YY seems to be having issues. She's getting clingy, and vicious. She's been attacking the other kids. Yesterday she smacked Tova-mae on the head and scratched up her face. hard enough to leave marks. And she's been screaming a lot too. Something is either hurting or bothering her, but she can't tell me what it is. That's gotta be really frustrating for her. I feel totally helpless, not being able to do anything for her.
And the home I love so much is literally falling in around us. The porch steps finaly fell in this morning. At least one of them did. And the railing is listing forward and starting toseparate from the porch. The wiring is tempramental and sometimes act like its haunted. Sometimes when you flip the switch the light comes on imediately. Sometimes it doesn't, but WILL turn on later,if someone bumps into whatever other appliances are turned on. And sometimes you can plug in the blender and turn the light on. None of the fawcets turn on. Somewhere, all the pipes have worn out. The window is held on with duct tape.Around all the edges, sealing it in, and diagonally on the crack that runs the whole length of it. Because of the water problems the kids baths are mostly a garden hose with a spray nozzel. We don't have a waher or dryer. but that makes sence, since we also can't get the water to run. The toilet...Well I won't even go there. But it involves buckets. The floors bounce and the lino is peeling. I am afraid to use my crutches on it. I am continually catching my foot and landing on my head. Oh and our roof came off in the storms las year. So once the snow starts..It will be snowing in the house. We have no heater/air conditioning, just a couple space heaters.... And we are all together, and relatively healthy and happy. So why am I whining? See what I mean? we have each other and we have the animals and I am greatful for that.
