Heart Heart Pain @ MindSay

Yesterday marked the 1 year anniversary of my niece Crystal receiving her new heart.  Day one of recovery was so exciting as sh was recovering well.  She continued to recover for 10 days before her body started rejecting the heart. My thoughts, thanks, and prayers go out to the family that was willing to donate their childs organs....

2 days ago I felt like my body was being torn apart. I doubled over from the hot seering pain that burned within and felt like it was taking my left arm off. For 10 minutes I writhed in pain. And then it stopped as suddenly as it started. I was left with a slight pain in my chest and a strange sence of emptiness. Of course my fiance took me to the nearest emergency room. With my heart trouble he thought I was having heart failure and dying. And it felt like that. For those ten minutes it truly felt like I was. But at the hospital,all they found out was that my heart was beating erratically, but it was doing as okay as it could be. That left just one other option. My twin brother,Banner.

Banner is an infantry member. And one of 5 siblings over seas. He was married when he was on leave 4 months ago, and his first children is due early next year.

And I knew at that moment that he had died. Eight hours before Ma called us because she had been notified, I knew. I knew the minute That pain cleared up. Somehow there is that twin-twin bond that everyone talks about, but I never really believed. It had never happened before. But it truly feels like part of me is dead too!

i want someone to sec
inside me, fondle my fancies
Enter my art
I wish you would
penetrate my privacy
conquer my vanity
touch my  heart.
---fran landsman.
અનુવાદ :  અર્થાત મારી અપેક્ષા છે કે મને પરણવા ઈચ્છનાર કોઈ મારા હ્રદયના ખજાનાને ઓળખે. મારી અંદર ઊંડો જાય. મારા શોખ છે તેને પંપાળે . મારામાં  જે કળા છે તેને ખોદીને ઓળખે મારી જે જે અંગત વાતો છે તેની પીડા અને તેના આનંદનો ભાગીદાર બને. મારી અંદરના અહમને જીતે અને ખાસ તો મારા હ્રદયને સ્પર્શે.
--કાંતિ ભટ્ટ

* Keep a green tree in your heart and perhaps a singing bird will come.( chinese proverbs)
તમારા હ્રદયમાં લીલી હરિયાળી રાખો તો આજુબાજુથી ગીત ગાનારાં પક્ષીઓ આનંદ આપવા ઊડીને આવશે.
--કાંતિ ભટ્ટ

My 3 1/2 yo niece has been in the hospital since May waiting for a heart transplant.   The call came this morning, if all goes well, she will be getting her new heart at 5 PM central time.  Please pray for the surgeons, for the transplant its self,  for the family that lost a child and donated their childs organs.

Have You Ever? Have ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry Have you ever needed something so hard You can't sleep at night Have ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right Have you ever, Have you ever Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You'd do anything to make them understand Have you ever had someone steal your heart away You'd give anything to make them feel the same Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart But you don't know what to say And you don't know where to start Have ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry Have you ever needed something so hard You can't sleep at night Have ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right Have you ever, Have you ever Have you ever found the one You've dreamed of all your life You'd do anything to look into their eyes Have you finally found the one you've given your heart Only to find that one won't give their heart to you Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby What do I gotta do to get your heart To make you understand how I need you next to me Gotta get you in my world 'Coz baby I can't sleep