Hate My Dad @ MindSay

I decided I just want to be friends with adam, however I still want to say something so I can hang out with him after tomorrow.

as for my day, I just worked. been kind of struggling with that this is the 9th year that my dad has been gone. then this man came in who had cancer and was getting chemo. he said God told him he needed to start eating things with more antioxidants. When he said he had cancer, I had no reaction. I mean its pretty normal to me now, like death. no real initial reaction. He stayed for a long ass time and it was starting to bother me. He had chemo, which made me think back to what my dad looked like after chemo, radiation, and other shit he went through. so I sat on the bathroom floor and cried for like a minute, since I started to feel overwhelmed. Then I walked back to the front and continued to work. I hate being emo. its been 9 fucking years, I should be able to deal with this shit.

eh thats all really. oh one thing.

Lance I know you hate PDA shtuff, but fuck it and fuck you,

I love you

~Angel

In The Last 24 Hours Have You...

1. Had sex: nope
2. Bought something: no, suprisingly

umm yea okay so earlier today went pretty good everything was kool football went well had alot of fun showed everyone my pearly whites yea yea had alot of fun!

I came home and i was watching something with my parents some comedy thingy and i told my dad that i couldn't go to Lehigh Valley Wild Cats practice 2 hours early cuse i have a football scrimmage and they need me and of course he got mad so he said fine then you have to call Rick and tell him that you can't go and i was like umm i'll just tell Khristin on the computer (that's Rck's daughter) and he's like noo you are going to call him and i was like alrite but i will do it later..and i hate talking on the fone and i don't like talkign to people..im not good with people and my dad knows that..so i went upstairs and came back down and sat next to my mom on the couch and my dad just stares at me with the dirtiest look that he always gives me and i was liek why do you always look at me like that and he was really mean and nasty and said call Rick right now before i come over there and punch you in the face and i said oh yea cuse that's real good punch your daughter in the face and he was like do it now before i pull you by the hair and i was liek why are you being mean to me you could just tell me nicely but noo you have to be snoty and then you wonder why i always hang around mommy more and like her more then i like you and he's like good that you can live with Megan cuse my sister Megan doesn't get along with him either so i was like omg dad you are soo stupid so as i was walking up the stairs he kept on yelling at me and i was liek you know what dad i don't even wanna hear it..so yea i called Rick told him everything and blah blah..so i got really upset and ran in my room crying my eyes out cuse my dad is soo mean to me..always yelling at me and blaming stuff on me and i can't take it anymore i hate him! and he doesn't even care that he hurts my feelings..i couldn't stay in my house another minute so i called my grandmother up bawling my eyes out and was like nana you need to come get me so she came and got me and we went to bingo and i felt soo much better! but im home now and i don't wanna be here i really need to get out of this house...laterr