Hardships @ MindSay

Just Don't Quit!

So I've been trying to read everything I can find on couples in the military. Not just one but both people. There are about 84,000 military-married-to-military couples in the United States armed forces. These days, it seems that more and more married couples are joining the military together, or -- very common -- falling "in love" in job-training or during the first assignment, and getting married. In my case we fell in love a long time ago... So, what trials do these couples face that aren't faced by a military member married to a civilian? Does the military guarantee to assign such couples together?

Well heres the deal, Military Couple face alot more then civilian couples....and no the military doesnt guarantee anything EVER.

This is what I am looking at. Being in a relationship with someone I adore. I love my Boo Bear!! And I am very proud that my baby is an amazing Sailor for the United States Navy!! And I am about to 'try' and get a 2 year ROTC scholarship that will require me to serve as an Army Officer for 4 years. What are the challenges ahead for us? Well lets start with the basics....

1) First of my baby is already face overseas time right now for a good 2 years.

2) If I do get this scholarship, I will be God knows were myself

          So with that seeing each other will be hard for the next couple years

3)Also we are in 2 diferent branches so we will most likely not be stationed near each other let alone on the same base

Ok now the complicated stuff

1) There are issues (you would know if you read a previous blog) with me joining the military in the 1st place, yes everyone knows i love the military but me joining does make a few things complicated.

2) Me and my boo well arent really allowed to be together, so we live a lie to a lot of people. But i think that is are smallest issues considering we are good at it.

Well no matter what I do have faith. I know we have our hard times, but i also that we have something stronger then most. I know that we can make it. And yes I know we broke up for a few months but we were both thinking about each other the whole time, we just didnt know what else to do. I really think that we can make it work. Its going to be a bitch!! but no one ever said life was a walk in the park right?

I love ya boo

So I looked in the mirror and met
A girl who hated sleep.

In exchange for his company she gave her body, but-she's- not-quite-so-alive-anymore. She's faking; I swear. Lip gloss smeared and hair all frizzled, she swaggers past the empty picture frames, with empty thoughts, listening to her failing heartbeat lapse over again.

I know she's so special, but I can't get past her eyes... What was wrong with them anyway? The colors swirled and mixed and contorted and faded into thoughts I never knew she had. The eyes in the glass caught me; and I was transfixed; [i couldn't read her soul.]

She convulses when she dreams. The feeling is so unreal, but at the same it's so solid. She keeps thinking if she closes her eyes, the bitterness will subside, but it's all the same. Her mind is deteriorating, her character has fallen, and her virtue's been stepped on.

When did she lose her strength and vitality?

And she knows she can still feel...she can still breathe. That's not acceptable.

Her breath may come shallow now, but she hasn't forgotten what it's like to love, and to be loved. The damage isn't irreversible...

music only understands the differences we make

All the hardships that we take.

During my life, I have met many people.  I feel privileged to say that there are many in my inner circle of friends that have been in my life for many, many years.  From each individual life I have given some of myself and taken some of them as well.  It is important that you choose your friends wisely and that you both give and take.  Friends are people that stand by you when you are on the mountain, celebrate your achievements and succesess.  They also help you carry your burdens, alleviate your sorrow and lift you up when you fall.     

 My longest and dearest friendship has spanned over 30 years.  She is more like a sister than a friend.  Although we live many miles away from each other, we still communicate often and celebrate each other's accomplishments.  She is a beuatiful person inside and out and I have been blessed with her gift of friendhsip.  She taught me how to SHOP and took me to get my nails done for the first time.  Come to think of it, she taught me about make up, boys and style.   For all of you that are curious, here is her web site: www.nora.ws. 

My next dearest friend was a high school class mate.  I have known her for twenty one years.  Through my high school days of hell, she was there.   We graduated together and stayed in touch during college.  We stayed in touch and shared our joys and sorrows brought by marriage, divorce and the birth of children.  We lost touch for some years and through posts she made in www.reunion.com and/or www.classmates.com, we reunited.  The irony was that she had moved from the city and lived one town away from me, in upsate NY.  One more thing, we were both given the news that are sons were diagnosed with autism.  Coincidence?  I think not...  We found each other about a year ago again and we are as close as ever.  I recently told her about my blogging and gave her the information.  Being as gifted and creative as she is, she loved the medium and has started this blog:   http://endoftour.blogspot.com/