Hair Dye @ MindSay

i got grounded for not sleeping normal. my mom wants me to not be tired for school so i can't do anything until i get more than 5 hours of sleep at a time. i told her to get me some damn sleeping pills, then. it's a stupid thing to get grounded for. also, she's insisting that i get a new backpack, when i'm perfectly happy with my old one. it's a piece of crap and i had to patch it up multiple times last year and it looks cooler. i also put shoe laces on it so it would stop ripping.

 

in other news, i dyed my hair again. this time it's dark brown, almost black. in the sun, i can still see red in it. i like it alot and i moght keep it this way.

 

i'm getting panicky about school. i really don't want to go. in the summer, the only ones to make fun of me are my brother and his friends. at school, it's everyone who isn't my friend. seriously, i've had problems with every clique. i'm too weird for the goths and emos and too dark for everyone else.

 

i also don't want to go cuz my friends are changing and i'm afraid it's because of me. one friend, who never wears black, died her hair black. another has suddenly started to buy things with skulls on them. another is pretending to think marilyn manson is hot and a few months ago, she had no idea what he looked like. they always yell at me for my weirdness and now they're slowly becoming like me. i don't want them to be like me. they shouldn't give up who they are. they're trying so hard to impress me it feels like.

 

and i don't think i'm worth it.

Is it just me, or is hair dye becoming easier to get off the skin?

Yes, I'm becoming another hair color today; and yes, I do get somewhat messy with the dye.

    So I was sitting in the salon in the process of getting a quart of gunky dye poured on my head, when I looked in the mirror and saw my best friend over to the left. Since he goes to Mass College of Pharmacy, he lives in Boston so I dont see him as often... Needless to say, it was an extreme surprise to see him walking into the salon. Silly Jay-Rad gettin' his hair cut.
    I was planning on going to Amherst with Graham to meet his best friend's girlfriend and just to party in general, so I decided to invite Jared. Cuz' everything is 10 times better when Jay-Rad is present. I finally got my hair evened out, so there is no ridiculous chunk missing, and I got it dyed black (even though it was pretty much black already). I wanted to get it red, but that would have involved color stripping and bleaching. And my hair is so weak that I knew there was no way it could handle that. So yeah... I went with the classic black.
It took 2 hours for them to finish and then I drove to my house to get something in my stomach before I had to drive two hours out to Amherst. (I had woken up at 1, and my hair-cut was at 3, and I can't eat after I just wake up... so yeah... I had breakfast at 5:30.) I elected myself to drive because well... *cough* graham can't drive *cough* (  ).
    So we got there and it turned out that Isaac's girlfriend wasn't even there for the weekend, but it was chill, cuz we chilled with Isaac and his friends. We were gonna play Beruit, but Graham opened the door to the dorm without checking the peep-hole; completely exposing our game table to the RA who was just coming by to tell us to turn the music down. So uh... we ended up going back to Isaac's dorm to sit and drink. But since I was driving, I didn't drink. Either way, they were drinking rum straight... and there was no way in hell I was doin' that.
    Most of the school was gone for the weekend, so there was no one there to even hang out with. We ended up leaving at 11:30 specifically because of that. And even going 90mph in a 65mph zone the whole drive back... it still took 2 hours. I enjoy driving late at night because that's when all the shit happens...

1. A pick-up truck whipped by me at about 120mph with it's gas tank open and plug completely hanging out.
2. A mini-van decided to take a U-turn at one of those "For police use only" breaks in the highway. And apparently he missed the turn, so he reversed down the Mass Pike in the far left lane. So I was coming behind him at 90mph, and I remember thinking, "Wow, I am coming up fast behind him." And then in a split second I realized that was because he was not only stopped... but moving backwards. I swerved out of the way just in time.
3. One minutes from my house I saw 2 police cars with their lights flashing, and when I passed I saw a kid my age performing the whole "walk in a straight line" shit, and on the top of his car were bottles of alcohol and bags of drugs. I felt so mutherfuckin' bad for him. Although he brought it on himself for carrying shit in his car and driving drunk... I still couldn't get it outta my mind for the next hour. Like I felt so much empathy for him it was frustrating.

    Yeah, so on the ride back we spent alot of the time reminising on the past. Like how great DXM was, and all the drug experiences I've had. How Jared and I met and all the shit we used to do. And then Graham and I began to talk about the begining of our relationship, and it was nice to remember all of that. It was uber nostalgic. But I find that always happens, the later it is at night the thinner the veil between consciousness and unconsciousness is. So I find my imagination and memory are better and overall just more lucid at night.

In conclusion: that was my weekend.

And on a completely unrelated note, here's a sexy collage extravaganza:

    Yeah... so I noticed this morning that there were weird little small things swimming around in my fish tank... and they weren't snails. So I looked closer and discovered that they were little fish! There are 5 of them. And they are ridiculously tiny... I'd say about a milimeter long and less than a milimeter thick. Im personally excited to be able to watch them grow.
    But it took forever for their parents to get down and dirty. Before the birth of the 5 new ones, there were 9 fish in my tank; 2 of them I bought specifically to breed. I saw male and female guppies and I couldn't resist buying them because well... I really wanted to see if they would have babies. They were bought about 3 months ago... so yeah... it took them a long time to fuck.
    But when I noticed the presence of the new fish... I decided to clean my tank. (It was like icky green mush). And now... well... it looks so damn cool. I bought all new scenery and plants and gravel... It's purty. And just the fact that I can see through the water is amazing enough.
    Anyone who has a fish tank realizes the difficulty of cleaning it. It took me over 3 hours to clean the completely filthy 10 gallon tank. And one of my dogs spent the whole time being my helper. Well, he wasn't really helping... he was just barking whenever the tank made a funny noise; and stealing paper towels when I wasn't looking... but that's Duncan for ya.


On a completely unrelated note:

    Tomorrow I am getting my hair done. Finally! I've been waiting for over 6 months for my hair to grow after it ripped out in the back. Most of it is over a foot long, so it looks really nice. But in the back... completely unsymmetrical... there are chunks which are 6 to 10 inches shorter than the rest. It is irritating, because if I wanted to get it all evened out... I would have to cut it down to a boy-cut. And there is no way in hell that is happening. So now that it is long enough... I am thinking of getting the back cut short (because I have to) and keeping the front as long as possible. So I can have kind of a badass girl devil lock. I've had a devil lock before.... but it looked weird, so I'm gonna make it more subtle this time. And I am probably gonna dye it a lightish red. (After all, if I get sick of the red eventually... I can always dye it black. Instead of having it dyed black and then having to bleach it red later.) Blah... I'm just not looking forward to the price. Getting my hair done usually costs over $150. And when they dye it... they have to use an unusual amount of dye because my hair is so effin thick and volumptuous. Haha... volumptuous... couldn't resist using that word.

I'll post pictures on Sunday or something.

Rock on.

So lately my hair has been driving me INSANE

Last summer, I had this style where I would bleach the back of my head and dye it a different color every month or so. So I would have black hair hanging over some neon color.

<-- example (see the orange?)

So, eventually I decided to bleach it and tone it white. Needless to say, getting black hair bright enough for white toner to work... requires excessive bleaching. So now, there is a nice big chunk of my hair missing in the back. Well, it's not missing. Just one chunk is like 4 inches long while the rest is about a foot.

I'm PISSED about that.
But I asked for it with the repetative bleaching, so I decided to let my hair rest and grow out. I have about 2 inches of root which are my natural color (I havent seen my natural hair color since 5th grade. And Im a Senior in High School.) But of course, since Im trying to grow it out... I cant get it cut so that it matches the length of the shorter chunk. Because that would be defeating the purpose of growing it out.

For the past 7 years I have dyed my hair pretty much once a month. I've had every single color hair except for green. And I have decided to dye it again after months of not dying it.
I really wanted to get it professionally cut and styled and then dyed red. But since Im trying to grow my hair out, I dont want to cut off all of the long parts (my hair looks uber good long, and I dont wanna loose it so soon!) So, Im gonna pull a classic semi-permanent color. I really recommend Color Pulse. Because it provides very vibrant color and it lasts for a few weeks, but it does barely any damage. I dunno why CVS doesnt carry it, but Walgreens does. So I'm gonna hop in my badass 99' Rav4 *laughs* and go to Walgreens.

I'll be sure to update this entry when I finish dying my hair. So uh, rock the fuck on.