Guy Friends @ MindSay

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth

yeah
so
iv been getting up at 12
thinking its 9
having breakfast
then having lunch at 4
then dinner at 6
andnot eating it
and then beeing hungry
stupid  caza

yesterday was  worse
i had breakfast at...
no i forgot to have breakfast
then lunch 10 minuttes before dinner

day light saving really screwsw me over
typing like this makes it look more
;poetic
even tho its all
;bullshit

im usiong all the tags
oh god ninas  making me go out with
some guy thats friends with some guy
that her friends bf knows
dumb shit aye?

LAWL

I had such a wonderful trip to St.Louis. But after I got home, I really thought about that guy too much.! I thought that we were different and we just were a good friends that's it! Anyway, I dont want to stop talking or anything like that. Just want to make sure that he will be ok in his hard situation. I wont try to think too much again. He seemed doesnt like our relation go so fast. He wants it slow and maybe we can be as more friend if we can. I agree with him but just some feeling a little bit sad bcoz I would like him to know that everything i did for him just only is from my feeling. He said, I should have a time to far away from my ex boyfriend and I said I am completely forgetting him by the way after I met that guy. When I said that I love people, it meant I really did care about and would like to know what is he up to? That why I couldnt stop talking or caring people.

I decided that I am not gonna get involve with him no matter what! I should let him know that why I care of him so much. If my love that I did for him, he didnt beleive or didnt trust in me anymore. that would be fine for me. I will be ok..

My love is wonderful..I would like to give my love to the one I really want to get. I would like them to be happy by my way. I have never force that one if he didnt want my love gets invlove his life. I am wrong that I easily trust people.

 

Kitty