Grumpy @ MindSay

This morning I got up feeling under the weather, not sick, but I feel like forty miles of bad road. My back is sore, yet I have not done any heavy lifting. Maybe one can sleep in a ghastly position, which can cause back pain. During the night, there were a series of dreams, which brought me out of a sound sleep. I hate this; it has taken years to dump that garbage yet it still works its way to the surface every now and then. Funny how the mind works, you can suppress horrific events; still they stay in the dust bens of ones mind.

 

 My Son in law and I, off to our CPA office, it time to get cracking on our taxes, now that’s a pain physical and mental. I am going to get them figured and holds off filing tell seven days before the dead line. By doing this, maybe I can avoid having to file an amended return this year. Anyway, tax time always puts me in a pissed off mode every year. As the Wife has stated I am a perfect model for a grumpy old man, my reply to her is smile when saying that.

Do take care and have a good day.    

 

 

so. i'm feeling down, sleepy and downright lazy. a BAD combination to have especially if you're at work.

(jeez dude, what's new? is there even an instance where you never felt like that?
(actually there is. don't mind my inner snark.)

anyway. for four days straight now i've been getting a grand total of 4-5 hours worth of continuous sleep per night. well, you can't exactly call that night for i get to finally(!) sleep around midnight, then pop out of the bed around 4 or 5AM. so technically, that's just a nap right? you know how nasty it is when you are yanked to reality straight from a deep REM zone? don't ask for it - you'll end up as one grumpy SOB for the entire day. and since that has been going on for the entire week, i'm now one grumpy SOB for the entire week. add that to my list above.

feeling down, sleepy, downright lazy and indiscriminately grumpy. there. noted.

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for some weird reason i'm getting a burning sensation at my gut, somewhere in the area of the diaphragm. i think it's something akin to heartburn... the genesis of ulcer? jeez. after that angina attack a month ago, now that? shi-yet.

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my PC is shot. video card croaked because of age and heat... good thing the other parts are ok. or so i hope. oh well. my trusty PS2 and guitar will keep me company until i get the PC up again. i'll be getting soul calibur 2/3 and maybe tekken 5 later to ward off the boredom.

(imagines wads of cash flying away...)

*shakes head*

sadness. good thing i have a (not-so-good-paying) job. well, it helps me to tide over the months, better than nothing.

yup, so it's definitely been a long while since i've posted. here's quick rundown of what i've been up to: school (of course), village council president, firefly (the tv series) obsession, kendo classes, resigned from presidency, school. are you serious?! that's all i've been up to?! no, not really, there's a whole lot of other stuff in there, but it'll take a long while to talk about it all and i don't think you want to hear it all... whoever's reading this... if you're curious, just ask. i might elaborate on it when i have more time. anyways, i really just wanted to post up one thing, becasue truthfully, it's been a hard semester, definitely not one of my best since i started here at cu. so, i got the following in an e-mail a couple weeks ago, reread it tonight, and thought 1) well, i've had a hard semester, i'm more than a little grumpy, which is to say my basal level of anger is a lot higher than normal, having had more than one emotional/mental breakdowns in the past few months, and this made me put things in perspective and calm down a bit, and 2) even though i'm not christian, i think it's just a good message to put out there.



There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.  She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.  He's always there for her.  She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry him.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend.  Her boyfriend asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"  The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying, "Just take care of my eyes, dear."

This is how human brain changes when the status changes.

Only few remember what life was before and who has always been there even in the most painful situations.



Life Is A Gift

Today before you think of saying an unkind word, think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food, think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife, think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life, think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children, think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, when someone didn't clean or sweep, think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive, think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job, think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another, remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one Maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down, put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.

Life is a gift:  LIVE IT, ENJOY IT, CELEBRATE IT, AND FULFILL IT!!

where's my coffee sacrifice......

I am feeling very grumpy lately with people. I don't know why but I just don't have patience for stupidity and my tone of voice takes on an edge and I hate feeling that way, but come on people!  I have a pretty pleasant voice and speak in a general upbeat and encouraging manner...so any edge or confrontation makes me feel ugly. But it's life sometimes.

Sprint customer service rep, after being transfered 4 times, JUSt to activate a new phone and de activate another.

Rep: What vision plan do you want?
Dawn: I didnt know I had to have that.
Rep: With your treo, you do. What plan?
Me: What plans are there?
Rep: One sec.
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Me. Sighs..are you there?
Rep: yes.. .one sec.. ok.. its 15.00 for one plan.
Me: What are the other plans?
Rep: Can I put you on hold for one minute
Me: If you have to.  ( Tone is now engaged)
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Rep: Dawn are you there?
Me: yes
Rep: Ok.. I was having technical problems.... are you still interested in activating the phone?
ME: ( BIG TIME TONE NOW!)  Um, yes, I have been trying to for 15 minutes, why, just WHY would I change my mind? WHY?
Rep: ok, I was just asking!
Me: Please just activate the dang thing! ( Can you hear my tone now? All politeness is gone.. I am in a raging phone rage!)

We continued this game for 15 more minutes while she screwed up walking me thru the activation phase, then the phone had to reset, and she gave me instructions to do it MYSELF when it reset.
MYSELF!  blather.

This morning.. I go to my regular Dr to find out why I retain water in my legs. Of course today they are much better than they have been.  But before I see her, I am sitting there in the office after I signed in.. I had noted that the lady in front of me, signed in and her appointment was for 15 minutes later than mine.

She called the other woman up to the counter..talk talk talk.. she comes back and sits down.

In comes a woman with 3 noisy kids.  She is half an hour early. One is reading OUTLOUD while I am trying to watch the winner of Top Chef make her grilled cheese and portabella sandwich on Today Show... I get up and walk over and turn the volume up 2 notches and sit back down. Her kids are running all over this tiny ..TINY waiting area... and switching seats.

I deeply sighed... ( Tone IMPLIED)

"Oh..are you trying to watch this show?" The woman asked me.

My eyes widened.. "yes actually, I was, that is why I walked in FRONT of you and turned the volume up to hear it. "  (Big time tone now, feeling a little guilty, by now, but so aggravated by the whole process)

So she is now talking louder than the kids, blah, blah, I tell her, really they are fine RIGHT where they are, they are settled down now.. no ..really its fine..

What did she do with that mushroom, what was that ingredient.. oh shucks, I will just have to get it online.. thoughts interrupted by the receptionist, who looks like she is 14...
Dawn?
I go up there, she hands me my forms, asks for corrections.

I look at the clock. 9:57

I said to her: "It's 10 am.. my appointment was for 9:30, and YOU are just getting to me? Now I will have to wait how long before I even get back there?" ( Slight tone , yeah right!)

She whispers... I asked her to speak up please, I cant hear you.

"I had to take care of the other lady"

Me: The other lady's appointment is AFTER me.

The recep then looks at the sign in sheet, and points at the times, and then takes her hand back when she realizes I was right and just says, "your co-pay is 15"

I give her my card, but have to say something else right? "My time is important here, why did I have to waste half an hour, when there is only one other person that you took care of out of order and the lady waiting for her flu shot?   I do not understand why it took you a half an hour to greet me and I get to pay 15.00 now for that opportunity." ( Loaded tone)

She never answered me. THAT always infuriates me more.. lol... so I sit down .. yet again..now I am trapped.. I have PAID for this fun.

I take some deep breaths, close my eyes, pray to God that I can stop being so aggravated and have a good day and be my usual cheery self.

It is probably because this month I have had so many dr appointments and tests, and everywhere I go it seems people just dont care ( you have heard my pet peeves about lack of customer service) and then the ones that DO care are stomped on by rude customers...so it feels like the whole thing of customer service is spiraling out of control and I dont know what it's going to take to get it changed.  But perhaps in my situation this is what could have happened:

When I signed in, she could have smiled and said Hello. Perhaps even taken care of me right  there. If not, she could have said... I will be right with you. Something like that.. or later on..if I had sat there the half hour, she could have just smiled, and apologized...

Apologies diffuse many situations. Smiles go even further.

Dawn ( in a better tone of voice now after the rant)
oh.. yes.. I got my flu shot today too.