Greatest Guy Ever @ MindSay

Okay.  I need to make some corrections to yesterday's blog.  I am still totally in love with Joshua Walter Wilson (he is going to kill me for putting his last name on here) and I in no way want to end whatever it is that we have.  I was in a bitchy mood yesterday and I let out some of my frustration on this about him.  He is the greatest, sweetest, hottest, most thoughtful guy on the face of the earth and there isn't anything that I wouldn't do for him.  I wish I could always be the person that I want to be but then I guess if we were all the people that we thought we should be all the time, then we would all be perfect and boring and we would never be able to improve ourselves.  Yeah...I miss Josh so much and it is freakin freezing in this room.  It feels like it's 50 or something outside but I think it's only 60 or 65.  Gosh.  It's freezing!!!!!  As I type, my fingers are slowly going more and more numb.  Oh, I didn't get to see Corpse Bride last night but I did get to see Josh which was so much better.  We will eventually get to see it together.  (hopefully...hint, hint)  Well, I have to do some french homework and I can't think of anything else to write.  Take care to all the innocent victims that chose to read this.  I apologize.

~Cathy 

well, i have had a VERY interesting summer with the boys.

first - a guy with a gurl tried to kiss me because he thought he liked me..we decided to let it go and see what the future holds after his gurl..easy no one hurt.
second - i kissed another guy and had the greatest weekend ever..it was perfect.
third - i think i fell for the second guy..it scared me but idk..i loved it.
fourth - allen asked me to go fishing with him! that wouldve been fun but mom wouldnt go for it.
fifth - a guy got a gurl to ask me out for him..i said no because i dont really know him but we r still friends which is kool.
sixth - the fifth guy asked me to go fishing just us but idk.
seventh - i found out that someone else liked me and was talkign about me to his friend.
eighth - i met that someone^and his friend.
ninth - he likes me..for sure now.
tenth - later i find that his friend also likes me and says he is in love with me. i asked y and said that he doesnt even know me and he said it was love at first site so idk.

i should be happy rite? well im not, i mean, im grateful they all noticed me but there is this one guy that i want to notice me and its hard to have fun with anyone but him. idk, im afraid of hanging out with a guy and laughing and then find out later that this guy i like does like me and thinks no i waited to long because she is with him. well that wouldnt be true but i mean what if i miss out on a nicee guy and the guy i like doenst even notice me anymore? idk im so lost and confused and im just sick of it..

whats next? a proposal? eloping? idk, my summer love life cant get any weirder..if it does i will let you know..

-Kj

i want you to hold me "good night" and kiss me "good morning"

                                       - me. *i wrote that..i know its dumb..*