The monster stocks my thoughts day and night.
He creeps along in my sleep and controls my dreams.
He beats me and is trying to kill me.
He follows me everywhere torturing my mind.
I look over my shoulder and he is there.
I run from him and he is to fast for me to out run.
He lives in my head and tells me I must leave this earth.
One day he will win and I will forever be gone.
He tells me in my dreams to kill myself and harm the ones I love.
Dreams and ideations of walking in front of a train, hanging myself, shooting myself, etc
Haunt me over and over and repeats like a pre recorded message from Satan.
I must put an end to this thing that is causing so much terror for my family.
It won't be long before I am gone.
A goodbye to those I love.
The monster will cause no more terror for you.
I know I will be missed but it must be done before someone gets hurt.
We shall all be together again with no monsters, fears, or pain.
No more chaos or confusion for anyone.
We will come together in a cloud of safety and peace.
I must close for now but shall return later if it is meant to be.
I love you all and carry you in my heart.
friends
