Good Times @ MindSay

Yes, things went great on the date last night. In fact, she is still here with me, sleeping at the moment.

 

It is not what you think though, we had such a great time we ended up coming to my home and we stayed up the entire night just talking, no T.V., no music, just us two conversing. She fell asleep on my couch about 30 minutes ago, and I just wanted to post this update, then I believe I am going to try to get some sleep as well.

 

She is very smart and very beautiful, I think I am in love already. I just hope things continue to go well when continue today.

 

I AM SO happy!

 

 

Do you ever feel like you let memories push themselves back into your head because you WANT to make yourself sad?  Like rubbing salt into wounds?

 

It's taken me this long to realise I've been torturing myself by letting them in - sure it makes me smile to remember the good times but then the fact that I can never have those good times back...or have any new good memories to add to the memory of him hits me like a big orange bus....

 

And why can't I convince myself that anyone could be as crazy and fun as he was??

 

I'm beginning to think I like to cause myself pain....maybe the tears are a good release...

Its funny.. Ever watch a movie and it just makes you think about your life and whose in it. I watched the movie "waitress" it was really good. and i just started thinking about Ryan and the cute things he'd do and say at Nyack. I remember all the times we'd be talking or I'd be crying my eyes out in his arms and He'd just sit there and hold me while i just pour out my fusterations, my anger, my sadness, anything that I've been keeping inside of me for the past 2 years. And then the time when I first told him i didnt wanna date him how he just wraped his arms around me and just hugged me and didnt let go. Or the times when i'd hug him and he'd start slow dancing with me without any music. Aww. Its funny.. all those times i turned him down over and over but yet he still got to me. Its so cute. I know Heather doesnt like him and thinks I deserve someone better than him but its the fact that no one knows Ryan in a way that I do. She barely hangs around him and when its just us, hes completely different then when we're with our guy friends or our group. ya know. He's certainly something special. and I'm blessed to have someone that cares and see's me for how much I'm worth. It's a dream. I always tell him i feel like i'm in a dream. and that i'm scared cause he'll make me happy. something i havnt been in a very long time..

Oh I had a blast tonight! I ended up calling Laura because I was just I guess itching to go out. And it turns out Sara had suggested they go to Doc's (here in town) and that Laura call me up. Why she didn't call me I don't know? But there must have been some telepathy going on because I called her. She then called Sara back and well they were gonna head over there earlier than I could, because I had two job applications I wanted to somewhat get done. I ended up only finishing one and by that time it was 9:30pm... and I was contimplating backing out but I really wanted to go out w/the gals, and I wasn't 100% about the second application. And just then Mary walks into the office telling me that Laura is on the phone.. so I end up leaving the second application not even started, and go upstairs to change. I don't really have any shoes w/which to go out so I end up wearing the high heals (black, red, leather, and leopold print). Needless to say I needed somewhat clothes to match. I ended up wearing my green skirt and my black loose off the shoulder top. (Love that top!) Well we definitely had a blast! Sara is just an amazing person. Happy I met her. She is friends with Brooke, whose boyfriend is Ryan... who almost had a fight w/Brooke's baby's father... who ended up showing up, w/his black bros. All the while, some mysterious guy is sending us free rounds of drinks, and I am smoking up a chimney with the gals (I know... I shouldn't have). Finally around 1pm the guy comes over. Name is Adam, he is 36.... or was it 38 now Laura? I can't remember. He was such a kind fellow. He married and after 6 years divorced... He had a nice friend, or was it his brother? I think it was a friend, Bernie. Turns out Bernie is William something the 4th. His father was also there.. William something the 3rd. Turns out William the 3rd has a gf that is from Westchester... so we had something in common. Said she thought there was something different about the way I held myself... that I was one of like her. lol. cute. Turns out Adam ends up picking up our tab completely!!! And gave us several cigarettes... I end up sobering up enough to drive back and well this is where I am now... I am pretty sure I have more to add after sleeping and recalling more tomorrow... but in the meantime - oh! I remembered tonight we had the pot pie I made.. and Mary kept insisting that my crust was not backed enough- but it was! lol. Miss my mom... I called her when I when my nerves were making me shot. Seemed like I was having one of my old tunnel sinus headaches today when I woke up and this afternoon my nerves (the tingly feeling deep under the skin kind) where just going crazy. huh, right? Well I am planning on meeting Matt (naval academy Matt) tomorrow evening w/his two roommates - one of which is a Spaniard... who is interested in meeting me, heaven forbide what Matt told him. At least Matt doesn't refer to me as XXXtina, like Laura sometimes does. LOL! Good times tonight. Well I off to bed, the headachefrom drinking is coming back. Muah to everyone!

Once upon a time, like 2 weeks ago, my friend from high school came to my house. He brought his friend, we'll call him "AJ" and my friend we'll call "Dane". Well these two came back from a visit in Minnesota and decided I was important. Hooray. So, as the story goes - I pulled out my little box of wonders. (Think dirty little thoughts here) I asked them to figure out which of the four was my favorite, Dane guessed very right. I KNEW there was a reason I liked this boy, although, "boy" doesn't seem appropriate given that he's only a year younger than me and the way the night progressed. So, they undressed me, literally, since they wouldn't let me take my own clothes off. They started to kiss and caress every single inch of me in the middle of the living room. Then they pulled me to the couch and Dane pulled out my favorite blue and clear glass toy and started to use it on me and I got really wet, even more so when AJ started to suck on my nipples and play with my clit. Oooh, I was in pure bliss. Well, then out came the pink and black g-spot vibrator and it did NOT fit. Well, Dane and AJ pulled out all the stops and made me even wetter and it slipped in, with a little force. Not suprisingly, I came about 3 times, then I said that was enough and made AJ sit on the couch while Dane got behind me and fucked me senseless as I sucked on AJ. Mm, I gotta say that boy was tasty. Very. Well, poor little AJ wasn't exactly used to someone of my.. caliber or loudness I guess, and he felt a little uncomfortable, so Dane fucked me again, twice, as AJ watched and got himself off, I tried to be quiet, really I did, but it didn't work very well. Well, end of the night suprise - Dane made me bleed. Like, stretched out and used pussy type of bleeding. It was amazing. So for all you out there wondering what my sex life has been like lately -  there ya go. Also, I've discovered I really enjoy titty fucking, 3somes with my friend Cortney, and anal, still. Have fun y'all, hit me up if you want more stories of my sex-capades.

 

Xo Whitney Marie oX