God Damn You @ MindSay

Damn, there is so much to post... Just got home (11:00am) from one of the most awesome nights out I've ever had, It was Rovy's 18th. And by god did we rock out. You guys rock.

We got rovy up in to the Dj booth at academy and got some mad photos of him on the decks. Fuckin A.

In other news, this last week has been utterly amazing, like damn, I feel happy again, I haven't slept at home since tuesday, its been head-swimmingly good, cause I thought all those feelings were burnt away, but they were jsut waiting for the right person...or something. It rocks.

I think I may be going out again tonight...I might die...

jesus christ.....i had to eat a fucking turkeybuger today for the second time ever....i really despise those things......i hate turkeys they suck as food...and they are too god damn hard to hunt, really....what are they useful for....they are nothing real special so lets enialate them completely....and whom ever invented this "turkeyburger" should be destroyed along with those god damn turkys....jesus....what is going on in my parent's brains....fuckin turkeyburger....i hate saying that. My dreams of becoming a chapman stick virtuoso have been crushed by the sheer complexity of the instruemnt....so i'm staying with bass. Going job hunting.....Music store, legends, III pillars...who knows.

 

It was interesting in mrs. Mulqueens class today....everyday there is an on going delay in class because Chris ziniga won't shut his god damn mouth.....I could tell mrs. Mulqueen and the rest of the class were getting so annoyed and pissed and i seriously hate when that happens ....so i yeld and told chris to shut up from across the room...and mrs. mulqueen (i love her) politely says thank you. But chris blurts out to my surprise "shut up scot, seriously why don't you go cut your wrists or something, god you fag" i was so shocked that came out of a boy i've known for 4 years mouth and was directed at me......i didn't and couldn

t say anything...i just looked at mrs. mulqueen and shook my head in disappointment in chris' words....they kid is a fake....he doesn't feel comfortable in his skin so he has to exploite others for not doing the same....what a waste of our precious air. 

okay i know i've said this before.



but honestly;

where the fucking fucker is he? god damn!



[quite sad] exes&ohs.

They tell me I am fine...believe me, I, I try.

Oh, Ever So Sweet, damn you. Damn you and your catchy melody. Damn you and your lyrics. Damn you and your memories. Damn you. Damn damn damn you to all holy hell.

*ahem*

Anyways, today was fine, nothing too out of the ordinary. I woke up, called Amo, we made plans to go to the mall, Kyle got me then her then we eventually went to the mall, went back to Amo's and watched a movie. I dunno, I'm getting back into my "I don't want to write anymore." moods..I don't really know what to say that means something anymore, most of my entries these days are just events again, no feelings, nothing.

I don't know. Summer's heading to a close again and I'm starting to think about this upcoming year. Some things gotta change for me again. I need to get my life back. I need to stop smoking, I need to keep the drinking minimal, I need to get my anxiety back under control. That's all I'm primarily worried about. There's some other things drifting around, but for now I'll concentrate on that I guess.

Eh. I guess that's it?

<3 Love you all