Girls Night Out @ MindSay

My girls and I hit some of our favorite spots last night, even caught some live music at a club I haven't had the chance to visit in a while.  We had so much fun!  Reminded me that I need to take the opportunity to do things like that more often.  Responsibility sucks.  I've got a couple bucks for a ride in your time machine.  Interested?

At least two papers have to get written this weekend.  One on Billie Holiday, which shouldn't be too demanding if I would just do it.  Great voice, tragic life.  The other is a response/thought paper on David Abram's The Spell of the Sensuous.  Terrific book if you haven't read it.  Kind of long-winded, but what philosopher isn't?  He explores what he feels is the cause of our estrangement and exploitation of the earth.  In the meantime, I need to start considering the topic for my last (thank God) history analysis.  One week of classes and Final Exam week to go...

If you guys get a chance, you should really check out Timbaland's new album Shock Value.  Don't have a critique available, as I'm still working my way through it, but he's involved atypical artists on some tracks.  Favorite song so far (and I will fully admit, I haven't been able to bring myself to take it off 'repeat' yet): Time featuring She Wants Revenge. 

Listening to (surprise, surprise) Timbaland "Time" featuring She Wants Revenge

I have no desire to do anything.  Anything at all.  Well, I did do a majority of the untangling of the mess of my travel lace pillow.  It's been sitting in a corner, crying since my sister knocked it over and fucked up something like 80 bobbins.  Quite distressing, actually.  I've been trying to ignore it for a couple of years, and now, at least, the mess is unwound.  Now I have to try to remember how to fix a broken thread as there are 3 on this one pillow.  I should rejoice that I've at least done SOMETHING, but I'm too busy beating myself up for not finishing a sodding thing today.

I told myself I was going to clean my kitchen floor of clutter and plant leaves all morning and I've only reduced the clutter by a tiny margin.  Plant leaves still mostly there.  I feel blah to the highest degree.  I don't even feel like reading any good ff.  It's rather pathetic, actually.  I don't even want to watch any new movies or my BG DVDs.  My dear doglets are intent on keeping me from leaving my post in front of the laptop at all costs. 

I'm supposed to be thinking of something to fix for dinner so we're not eating fast food again.  Can't think of anything I have the energy to make or the ingredients for.  I'm craving chocolate cake.  I doubt I even have the energy to make that, and I know I don't have any eggs.

It was girls movie night last night.  V and K and I went to see "Music and Lyrics" at the new theatre by the mall.  I hadn't been there before.  It's smaller than I thought it would be inside.  There was a total prat in there yelling at the mom who had her kid wailing a bit down front.  It wasn't bad enough for him to shout out "Take the KID OUT".  WTF?  We had dinner at Red Robin.  It had a far smaller wait than anything on restaurant row.  The mushroom burger was lovely, but I ate too much and felt ill afterwards.  I hadn't seen the mall in ages (at least since Xmas) and there are loads of new stores.  I was shocked.  A Body Shop in AV??  Holy shit!  I was a good girl though, and didn't buy anything. 

My manicure is quite knackered.  Maybe I can summon the energy to take off the lovely fuschia nail polish so it doesn't look quite so shit. 

Yes, I've been watching Bridget Jones's Diary.  I've gone into Brit-speak again.  Ta Ra!

Last Tuesday night I ended up drinking with the two female friends  M from Atlanta and S from Oregon.  I had known both of these friends for more than 20 years.  They also share another thing in common, they know about my relationship  (past and present) with my best friend  at work. My best friend and my twin from work were also invited to this outing. My best friend  had a late night date with his girlfriend and my twin was sick so neither made it to the bar. It started out like a normal girls' night out.   Since neither of my friends from the office could make it, I guess that was why everyone felt freer to speak about my relationship with my best friend.

M understands when I say that I can't leave my husband.  She stayed married until her children were grown to a man who professed to being indifferent to their marriage. So now she is divorced and has someone who treats her like she should have been for a long time. She knows and worries that I am not doing anything to make myself happy. She had asked me that question at the conference in Seattle this year and I told her that my best friend made me happy.

 

S who has gotten to know what goes on in my life at home with my husband apparently had told M what is was like before I got to the bar.  So the conversation pretty much boiled down to the fact that I could not do everything, that my husband has some kind of death wish, and that I should get what happiness I could with my best friend.

 

Oh if only it could be that easy.

 

Well I got up early Thursday...so that I could clean my place and get it all nice so that I could Invite Ty over for a night of movies, pizza and snuggling! Well I guess I didn’t give the invite early enough as I was told by him! Because he had already made dinner plans with a "friend". Fuck I am being childish about this! I know I called him when I knew he had been off work for 30 min but I guess I just had really been looking forward to spending a little time with him. We made plans for Saturday so that he could teach me about making beer.

Come Friday a bunch of girls got together and we all decided that we needed a girls night out...well being that I have lost 65 pounds and just happened to have a new outfit I was kinda looking forward to it! Although I was suppose to be the designated driver I ended up being the drunkest person of all! Being the dd normally us girls get to drink one or two drinks early in the evening so that way by the time its 2am (bars are closing) the dd will be clear to drive! I know it’s not a very good way of doing things but....that’s how it’s done in our book. Anyways the reason that I couldn’t be the dd was because I was toasted after my two drinks...lol

I really hadn’t been think(which seems to happen alot) but I hadn’t had anything to eat since early that morning.(a bagel) and with the fact that I am sooooo not use to drinking since I have lost all this weight!( I'm a freaking light weight!!!) Anyways after my friend Denise saw that I was gone just after the two drinks she took over being the dd for the night....of course everyone thought it was flippin funny that I couldn’t hold my alcohol anymore. The problem is that even though I knew I was getting drunk faster...I kept ordering drinks like old time! Too say the least I was very intoxicated and honestly can say that I don’t think I ever remember being that drunk before and I never, ever want to be that drunk again! At one point in the evening I thought I was going to pass out! That’s when I knew something was wrong and stopped with the shots and went to water....and got myself chips. Things got a little better after a little food in my tummy and no more alcohol. But being as I had drank alot of Liquor I was still very drunk....  I feel like I made a complete ass out of myself(which I have no doubt that I really did make an ass out of myself) I know that I am a completely happy person when I am drunk and am never mean so that I don’t have to worry about. It’s that I have to be careful that I am not overly friendly with people...and honest I am not one of those girls that pick up on attached men! But since I was overly friendly and just wanting someone to talk with....I think I might have made some girls very mad! Then there are the problems you get when the guy is thinkin "Ha! She is drunk and showing that she is interested I am going to take full advantage" or maybe it’s not like that at all but anyways I had to be saved as well! So the night comes and goes and we go our own ways except for myself and couple people that came in my car which Denise is driving because she is the dd now right! Well we don’t get 50 freaking feet and what do ya know we see pretty red and blue light!!! All I can think is oh shit we are fucked! Denise was the dd but she had a few more then the two drink minimum (I think she had 4 drinks through out the night) and I knew that if she had to blow, that she would not pass! So I decide that I am going to play the drunken friend and really ham it up...trust me it wasn’t much of a challenge for me still at this point! With me being a complete drunk and with the other girls being drunk as well Denise looked like a freaking saint!! She handled her self soooo well I have to say I love my girl she always is there to step if it’s needed and that night I thank god she was there for me!

But anyways Denise and I go and drop off the rest of the girls, Denise then says ok we have to get you something to eat because you are still way to drunk! We went to Shari's had a great time her and I...her laughing at me....having a heart to heart about something’s.....her laughing at me some more! lol it was a good time! By the time I got home it was 3:30am and I had to call a friend of mine to let him know that I got home safely...there again thank god there are people that care for my safety! But he and I ended up talkin on the phone till about 5am and only got off the phone because I was falling asleep on the phone. Was up at 7:30 because I was feeling sick (gee I wonder why?) crawled back in bed about 8 and when I say crawl I mean crawl! I hurt, I felt sick, and I hurt some more... that’s when I made the decision that I will not be drinking for a while...I mean I will have a glass of wine with dinner or a beer but it will not be out with the girls..or anywhere for that matter! Of course I knew that I was hung over and that to help with being hung over I normally drink a beer...I know it sounds awful but that just the way it is....and there is an actual reason why people drink a beer or drink a little when there hungover to feel better! I went to a lecture with my mother on addictions...got to love it when your mother is a social worker....anyways the reason your body feels better when you drink a little when you are hungover is because you are going through a withdrawal process....its not say you are addicted to alcohol its just saying that you have consumed a good amount and that your body is not liking that its not staying at its fixed rate (god I hope this make sense!) Anyhow I got up at about 9 because all I was doing was laying there being a lump. I talked to Ty to figure out what time we were going to get together...we figured about 2ish sounded good. Went to watch a movie in my living room when the power goes out! So I decide to take a shower and get ready for the day and that I could go over to my parents for a little while...plus I needed power so I could do my hair! Well the day moves on and it’s about 2:15ish when I get over to Ty's place where he showed me the process of making beer! It was really very fun, and I guess the rule is when you are making beer you need to drink it as well! But hey by this point I was almost dying I looked really pale when I got there he just laughed at me because he knew I had one hell of a night of drinking! But the beer did me good, it was amazing how much better I felt after drinking it. I had to work so I didn’t stay very late I was at my house with only a few minutes to get ready for work though...I leave Walla by 9pm and got to my place at 8:30pm....so I didn’t have alot of time to get my shit together...but I did it! It was worth spending that after noon/evening with him...it was good times and I think he feels the same so it’s all good!! Although I have to admit the fact that I only slept for a couple hours made me have one hell of a night Saturday! I almost didn’t think I would make it to work....my eyes were blurry and I was so overly tired I just wasn’t functioning well. Oh well I made it and that’s all that matters....I look back over these last couple days and think holy crap!

I think the extreme reality of being hung over....lack of sleep.... really came crashing into me last night! I now understand that I need to slow down on the drinking....I need to start sleeping better....I need to start taking better care of me! Because other wise something bad is going to happen!

 

Well that’s all folks lol, that was my two days off in a nutshell and maybe I this little reality check will help me get my shit together!!!

 

 

This weekend was actually packed with fun and not homework!Yay!  On Friday, my Mom, daughter, cousin, sister, my sister's roommate and her roommate's daughter went to a dinner theater at our church. They do one every year in October. It's always nice to see some of my church friends performing and having a great time. This year the theme was the Oscars and Academy Award winning songs. 

 

My daughter really had a good time and she didn't even have to wear her ear plugs. Usually when we see live shows, my daughter complains the music is too loud and ends up getting a headache. This time she was able to enjoy herself and sing along, too. She has such a sweet little voice!     I'll post pictures of us together on a "friend's only" post later. 

 

Saturday, I went to my friend's wedding. It wasn't a legal ceremony, because she's lesbian. It was more of a committment ceremony.  I cried like a baby, but not for the usual reasons I cry at weddings. Incidently, weddings and funerals are two of the few occasions people will ever see me cry. Anyway, I cried at this wedding because there was a lot of people there to support her and her partner. There was a big family showing on both sides.  :)  I also cried because she finally seems to be happy.

 

When we first met she was a mess. She was barely holding it together, trying to work two jobs and going to school  full-time. To top things off her brother was sent to Iraq, her mother stopped talking to her because she finally came out of the closet and her health was failing her. She'd suffered from bronchitis off and on since she was a kid. 

 

Anyway, the ceremony was nice and I was surprised to see our boss there. My husband shocked me by having a relaxed demeanor (he is usually uncomfortable in social situations) AND get this --- the man danced with me  --TWICE! This is a very rare occurance.  I still couldn't get him to take a picture, but I figured he stepped out of his comfort zone enough that day. 

 

Pictures from the dinner theater

 

 

Mom and me. Doesn't she look young??? This is a very good thing. Since both of my parents look young for their age, I figure I might, too.

 

 

Here's a picture of my little sister and me. Poor thing, she was the victim of most of my practical jokes and pranks. To this day, neither my brother or my sister have been able to out rank me when it comes to being the Supreme Prankster. Even my parent's weren't safe.

 

 

Showing off my outfit. Note to self, do NOT wear this kimono shirt to a church function anymore. I had to pin the danged thing to my bra so "the girls" wouldn't try to make their first public appearance!

 

 

My sister and her roommate. My sister kept moaning about how her boyfriend couldn't come.  Finally, her roommate and I told her to quit whining! It was a girl's night out. Sheesh.

 

Pictures from the Wedding -  I'm not going to post any pics of the ceremony out of respect for my friend's privacy. However, here are a couple of pics of ME!!!! Heehee!

 

 

 

Here I am next to the buffet table! (how telling!) LOL! The punch they had was delicious!  It was the one made with orange sherbet with sprite, but there was also real fruit and champange in it. Thank goodness I wasn't the designated driver this time! Woohooo!