Well, I moved in yesterday, so I guess today is my official first whole day. It's not as great as I thought it was - the apartment, I mean. The bathroom door is fucked up so we had someone come and look at it and they ripped the fucking floor to shit. The tiny, piece of shit kitchen smells like roach powder, probably some shit like a Borat mixture or something. I am so bored! Crystal (my roomie) went off to work and won't be back until 8 or so. We don't have cable yet, the internet is slow as fuck, and to be honest I'm a bit nervous to leave the apartment by myself. It's creepy and I live on the eighth floor. I don't want to be raped!! :P (I'm only half kidding.)
I'm watching the movie, Girl, Interrupted. It's one of my favorite movies, partially because I feel like it reflects a lot of shit in my life. Plus, I think Wynona Ryder and Angelina Jolie are hot as fuck. lol I really love the character, Lisa, that Angelina Jolie plays. Lisa and the rest of the girls that are at the mental institution are the ones that are fucking sane, man! Everyone else around them are the people that are crazy - living in some false reality, telling themselves a bunch of fucking lies to try and make themselves happier, but none of them are fucking happy except those that are considered "insane." This movie makes me depressed as hell, but it makes me feel good - it makes me think about life. It's one hell of a movie and an even greater book. I'm glad that my parents decided against sending me to that mental institution after I overdosed. Fuck, man, just a couple months ago some dude raped some woman at that very same institution that the doctors wanted to send me to. Scary! Although, I wonder what kind of person I would be today if I had been forced to go.
Jared Leto, from the band 30 Seconds From Mars, is in the movie Girl, Interrupted too. He's also in the movie Fight Club. He has such beautiful eyes. They just stand out so much. I wish I had eyes like that. I mean, I guess I have pretty eyes. Crystal is always saying that she wished I didn't wear glasses because they make my eyes look smaller and she thinks I have big eyes - not bulgy eyes, just big eyes. People used to say that I had doe eyes, you know, like a deer. I guess that makes me feel good. Not a lot makes me feel good anymore and if it does, I can't fucking remember it.
