Girl Friends @ MindSay 
on April 18, 2008. i lost the only girl i would ever consider as my best friend.
i'm being serious.
and why? you'd never guess.
boys.
for real.
girls may be poison,
but boys are death.
i think this is why i was so afraid to befriend boys when i was younger.
that seems so off because i'm gay, but i seriously just didn't want to be around guys. not even as friends.
now i do, seeing as girls are ridiculously stupid. boys are more laid-back and straight forward. more athletic, so we actually do things instead of sitting around talking shit. it's great fun.
but anyways.
this is what i think i was afraid of: the bisexuals.
Bisexuals aren't my favorite anyways, in fact, they're worse than straight girls.
for the most part, obviously. i'm not speaking for all bisexuals of the world here. just my experiences.
this included.
so, boy meets girl. have a great time.
sorry kids, good things aren't forever. it ends.
stay friends. that's good. at least it's not awkward? of course not.
so, girl ruins boy's friendship with other boy.
or at least tries to.
boys' friendship is too strong for girl. girl backs off.
so, girl goes to other girl.
other girl that both the boys hang with.
other girl that likes girls. that's known her forever.
that is her best friend since 7th grade.
fine, right?
well girl likes this girl she's just gone to.
girl that's friends with the boys, doesn't care much.
she's not interested in anyone too badly.
so, girl that left the boys wants more with the other girl.
other girl says no. she doesn't want to hurt her guy friends.
even if those boys are over it and have moved onto other girls.
other girl doesn't want to do anything and doesn't want to seem like a stealer.
ruined.
Now, she's dating her ex husband's "best friend", or so her ex hubby thought, until she started cheating on him with his friend. And she supposedly hated this guy. Well, when she started hanging out with this jerkoff, she got into drugs (we can't prove it, but we know she did) and had her daughter with her many times while she did who knows what with this jerk. He's the controlling type, and she once told me that he wouldn't allow her to have ANY friends over while he wasn't there. Well, I guess she took that to mean that she had to ditch all her friends. Once she moved in with him, none of us who were close to her heard much from her. She used to text me all the time, but eventually that just stopped. She obviously wasn't much of a friend if she'd do something like this. I just really miss having that friendship with another girl, you know?
I know I'm probably better off without her in my life, but it sure does get lonely without anyone to hang out with, and to talk to about girl things. It's so hard to make new friends these days, and it's really hard to make friends in general with people who have the same interests. I guess I'll just have to keep trying, and try not to let it get me down.
Once a upon a time there was a little girl. Her name is Laura. She have friends there name are Lindsay, Mellissa and Rod. They love to go to the park. One day they saw a cat and they found out that it was magic. So they use for a long time and her momk came to pick the magic cat up. And the mother and the friends got in to fight with the mother. But they gave the friend who help the magic to get home they got a little cat.
The end
Well Today I have decided that I am going to start growing my hair out, so I can do dread locks. I started them once before, but my hair was still too short at 6 inches, and the people who helped me do the back of my head fucked them up, so I took them out. I figure if I take cair of my hair now and keep it up then By the time I graduate and move to Oregon, with muchy and skins, my hair should be somewhere between 6-10 inches, and will be ready for dreading. Cool thing is that in Oregon I can have that hair and get away with it. I can still hold a job, and not be looked at as a freak when I go places ( not that that bothers me.....I meen it's me ). Oregon is a really lax state with shit like that. I should know I lived in it's sister state washington, and visited Oregon often. I meen fuck I saw a hippie walking down the street wairing all tie dye clothes and his huge beard was done in tie dye also. I meen the fucking state is full of hippies. I honestly like hippies. People give them lots of shit. Really their cool people. In Oregon there are a bunch of coast towns that are just Hippie towns, that make all their money off of tourists. I have been in a store that only sold custom toilet paper holders, and light swich covers...................... yeah the whole town was full of shit like that. I'm really stoked about moving up there. I really miss that area; god it is so much more beautiful up there and it's easier to breath too. I would also get rid of this constant head ach I have here. People here don't understand. unless you have been somwhere closer to sea level. I have lived here for 5 years, and when I pay atention I still notice it. It's probably why I'm so fucking grumpy all the time. I do hate being an ass hole, really I don't wan't to be as rude and testy as I can be, but people get on my nerves quick. expecually if I ain't had a cigarette in a while, O my god people need to back away then because I'm already on the edge of throughing punches then. I notice I have nicky fits mostly in the morning, and at the end of the day. I have been cutting down a lot. I was smoking a pack a day over the summer. because of school ( I won't smoke there) I'm at 1 a day or every other day mon.- thu. but I smoke a lot on the weekends. I need to cut down there. mabby that will help the fits. I have been drinking alot of green tea as of recent. It helps me calm down at night. I need to cut down on the soda's. they make me eritable. I would like to find a girlfriend too. I always feel better with a female companion. I hate being single. It's shitty not having some one there for you, that you can confide in outside of your friends. It was the only thing keeping me going while I was working 2 jobs over the summer, but that relationship got fucked up. O well time to find someone else, and it will be a hard task, because I'm almost 18 and I won't hook up with some one that isn't, and that cuts finding someone from school. I have to look for graduates or college chicks. I need to find a job too. Being unimploid sucks I feel unproductive, and I don't like it. It's just kinda hard to find a job with the echonomics here, mainly because I won't work fast food or phone jobs. I need a ma and pa's restraunt or a job at a store. after college I want to find somthing in the fild of psychology. That is where I want to be. I feel this need to help people through talking and reasoning. Even that would be a hard task to find a job in this town for that. The job market just all around sucks ass here, and that is a reason I am moving with skins and munch to Oregon. Well it's getting late and I have babbled on for way too long. those of you who stuck it out and read this have now had a small look at what floats on the surface of my mind in small piriods of time. Well peace out everyone, I'ma go get some fucking sleep.
that guy, Thomas