Getting Ready @ MindSay 
ready for anything
but no question about it I'm sat here blogging oh i wonder why
Why is it that some people have some crazy fucked up dreams?
It confuses hell out of me how people can believe that all these impossibilities are going to be their future.
Least I call it impossible since none of them seem to make an effort to achieve their goals.
Fame isn't something you just one day wake up with, is it?
And how is that even a future, everybody knowing who you are?
how can you be known for having no talent?
It gets rather irritating when you're around people who are trying to fill you with all their dreams of such great things and how they reckon that's their futurue.
I have probably one friend who inspires me at the moment. He's studying to become a science teacher and he's proper intelligent. but not only that he has the most amazing funny personality to go along with that. I wish I could be like that. Well I know I can be if I study hard, which is what I'm going to do. When I spend time with him I'm just full of a million and one ideas that are all realistic and achievable. It's insane 'cos when I'm with me "best friends" I never get that, I'm just filled with their idea of reality which is pretty insane.
Anyway I best go get ready since I'm meeting Jason in 15 minutes and I'm no way ready
in abit
oh um if you wanna contact me
tw4t@live.com
myspace.com/_tw4t
I'm always on those :]
xxx
So honestly, I don't know anymore.
My life is beyond crazy at the moment.
Between, struggling to keep my grades above a C
and trying to keep myself from falling apart again,
I have no time left for maintaining my sanity.
Teachers --
Seems like the more everyone in class is ready to wrap things up and get ready for summer,
the more the teachers want to force us to study and do 6 hours of homework.
two words: not kewl. =/
At Home --
Parents.
Enough said, right?
Yeah.
I try to do everything right,
say all the right things to them
hoping it'll get them to leave me alone,
even doing chores and any other random shit they want done,
but still, I'm not good enough.
I'm not the daughter they'd been hoping for.
I know that for the 15 years I've been alive,
they've secretly been hoping that I would eventually become this wonderfully amazing child
The one they'd always dreamed of.
Guess I'm just a huge disappointment.
I'll never be good enough for them.
I'm just hoping that one day I can just get over that
and try not to think about how I've disappointed everyone.
Friends --
Hmmm.. what is there to say?
well, okay, so recently, I've found out things about a few of my friends that i almost wish i didnt know.
Smoking.
Drinking.
Self-Piercing.
And god only knows what else.
I mean, yeah, it may not seem that bad,
but i just think of how long this could have been going on and kept as a secret from me.
can i trust these people?
I dont know. I guess.
And at the same time, I'm actually closer to my friends than I ever have been before.
It's Me Against The World [and the world is winning] --
That basically sums up the last week.
First the shit between me and Becca.
Yeah, I was having a HORRIBLE day.
i took it out on her by saying "fucking fantastic" when she was going on and on about how happy she was.
yeah, i probably shouldnt have,
but havent we ALL done that before??
yeah. we have.
but instead of her just saying "well, somebody is bitchy today. . ."
and being done with it,
she goes on to say that Chris deserves better than me [true, but not her place to say that]
then she says some more shit like that.
the next day ends up being pretty much the same.
then yesterday (Day 3) I end up saying she's fake [it's true]
she gets her [asshole] of a boyfriend involved.
(yeah, dnt lie to me bitch, i know you went whineing to him and made him "fix it")
so i get a message from him saying "becca's fake"
(pssst.. yeah she is) but instead i say " let het bitch fight her own battles, this has nothing to do with you"
it should have ended there.
it didnt
he goes on to say "why cnat you ether dump Chris and get outta our lives or kill your self and get outta our lives either way everyone will be happy"
(basically the convo goes like this, blue is him, the other is me)
why cnat you ether dump Chris and get outta our lives or kill your self and get outta our lives either way everyone will be happy
umm.. no, sry, it dnt exactly work like that. :/
darn
why do you grasp to fals hope of ing happy with him?
being*
your just fooling yourself and slowly killing him
. . . well, 1- your wrong, & 2- is this supposed to make me feel terrible or sumthin? not working. maybe if it was coming from anyone else, but coming from u, it means nothing. :/
it doesnt?
how many times have you seen him in person
why do you care? mind your own fucking business
no Chris is like my best friend
and he has turned against me cuz your making his life misreble
i know, how can i be his best friend and trign to break hime and his gf up?
he cant see what best for him
hes only gonna get worse
it wont be the same person ever again if this keeps up
well, sry, but it's not up to you.
i know
its up to you and your killing
him
w/e
not my life or bf
hes gnna be diffrent forever
and cant you understand that you can never be with him?
your so far away and only met him once...
it dosent work
i've tried it before
and i almost ended up killing myself
is that what you want for him or you?
you cant say fer sure that is what would happen. you dont know. mmk. not everyone is like you. :/
its doomed to fail
and Chis is soo much like i se to be its not funny
And thats where it ended.
Yeah, what i was saying was pathetic, I know.
But if you've ever been put in a situation where you have someone like this asshole sayin shit,
a crazy fake delusional bitch saying shit,
both of your parents goin at you,
and you're trying to keep yourself from crying,
you'd understand that it's damn near impossible to come up with any convincing things to say.
and thats what sucks.
but it's kewl.
I dont need people like that in my life.
So yeah, I guess thats all I gotz to say =/
i 
Chris
OMG hope you are all ready for tonight. We dance like there is no tomorrow..ok Just kidding about that, but I am like oober excited about snoball tonight. I have so much to do though before it happens..I Have to clean my house before everyone gets here and I hav e to take a shower and I have to brush my teeth and get ready and all that jazz...I have lots o ffriends coming over to get ready at my house...we are all going to have lots of fun...And I am uber excited about going to the dance tonight with the one the only Eric...Ok he isn't the only Eric, but he is the only one that I want to go with..
Switching gears...Last night we had a basketball game and Eric chilled with me...was fun...He was so adorably cute last night. He sat behind me and wrapped his arms around me and all that Jazzy stuff..it was really cute...
OMG...so...time of the month..for girls...Hate it...but is also a good excuse sometimes...anywho...I think I am going to start today and I really hope I don't cuz then it will ruin like everything...but I have good control and lots of different things to help with it...I still hope I don't...that would be horrible!!!!!!
I am so stressed and excited and nervous right now...
I have to go and get things done...talk to all later...
The high for today is supposed to be 54. It's about damn time!
I'm looking forward to today. I enjoy going to school. Everything about it.
I got ready for school in no time this morning. Threw on a black shirt, my black hoodie, some jeans and my black converse. I feel like I should be robbing a bank, but at least I'll be warm and cosy! That's actually pretty much all it takes for me to get ready. And brush my teeth and wash my face, which I still have to do, yeah. But that's it! Bet you wish you could get ready so easily, huh? ;)
Brrrrr it's cold!
Well I guess I should quit wasting time. I'm sitting here typing this because I have extra time, but if I stay too long, I'll run out of time! heh.
G'day everyone.
-Liv-
For the thousands in attendance.....and the millions watching around the world.....Ladies and gentleman.....
Llllllllllleeeeeeeeeeet's get Rrrrrrreeeeaaaadyyy to sssssssssssssssssssuuuuuck iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!!!!!!
BOOM!!!! ARE YOU READY? YEAH? YOU THINK YOU CAN TELL US WHAT TO DO? YOU THINK YOU CAN TELL US WHAT TO WEAR? WELL YOU BETTER GET READY TO BOW TO THE MASTER.......BREAK IT DOWN!!!!!!!!
Your ass got hit by DX
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