I think too much.
Remember back in Geometry, when you did proofs?
Ah, those dreaded proofs...
I hated them.
So confusing.
So complex.
So damn easy!
Common sense, people.
They just made you feel so stupid.
Well, I think in terms of proofs.
Kind of.
But more complex.
If this, then that.
If this, then that.
If this, then that.
Therefore, if this, then that?
Common sense...?
Sometimes it clicks.
Sometimes it doesn't.
I was talking with a very good friend of mine last night.
She was telling me about her break-up.
She said something worth repeating:
"You think, when you do the right thing, it makes you feel better.
Because you've done the right thing.
But I didn't feel any better.
I only felt worse.
And I sat in my car and I cried and cried and cried, until I didn't have any more tears to cry.
I did the right thing. It was supposed to feel right. But it didn't feel right."
"No it doesn't.
It never does.
That's why it's so hard.
You never learn anything if there's nothing to learn from.
You don't gain anything if there's nothing lost.
It's not supposed to feel right, because you did the right thing.
But that doesn't make it wrong."
Why do I get so depressed at night?
Because I'm left to myself.
Just me and my thoughts.
Therefore, if this, then that?
"But it doesn't feel right."
There are no explanations.
This is my thought process- summarized.