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[Blog #32] --- Weird... --- [Sunday] - Dixie's first time...

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Dixie currently feels:

Smiley Weird...

 

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Blog #32

Dixie's first time...

 

 

...Right... Ummmmmmmmmmmmm... Let's see.

To start from the beginning.

 

Ash and Shelly woke me up at around half 10.

We went downstairs - Ash made herself some toast - I nommed out on the remainder of the garlic bread from yesterday.

 

We spent a few hours playing World Tour - I was on drums, kicking some arse.

I've gotten really good with the kick pedal now - it doesn't hurt my leg anymore.

 

Anyway - we played up until 1 - and then Ash's dad came to pick her up.

Shelly stayed with me until about 9.

 

We spent a few hours playing the co-op career on Guitar Hero III, eating southern fried chicken and owning n00bs on wi-fi.

(Well, I was owning n00bs on wi-fi - Shelly just watched me. :D)

 

...Anyway... This is where things started getting a bit weird.

I turned off the Wii and laid on my bed. Shelly came and cuddled me - telling me how much she loves me.

I felt really shit for some reason, so I was just thinking about how much I hated myself.

 

...Then somehow - we ended up sharing a really passionate kiss.

I snapped afterwards - broke down in tears. No idea why.

I tried to calm down - I listened to some Silverstein whilst Shelly went outside for a cigarette to calm herself down.

 

She came back up afterwards, cuddled me for a while - after I'd turned off Smashed Into Pieces - it was really starting to get on my nerves. I can only listen to it about 5 times in a row, unless I'm cutting myself to it.

 

...Then the conversation turned to sex.

Of course; I do like Shelly quite a lot. I'm in love with Ashleigh - but I'm quite attracted to Shelly too.

And for one - Ashleigh is a bit straight.

 

I started getting depressed again - I went to my tin and cut a few in the top of my arm.

I wanted to ironically carve "I love you" into my arm - but I only did the I. I gave up eventually.

 

I was starting to wonder if having sex really would make me feel valued.

Though I also felt a bit sleazy, almost as if I was using her.

I felt I'd be honest and I'd tell her. She understood. She could see how aroused I was, but at the same time - how terrified I was.

 

From then on it sort of blurred into itself.

We were just laid on my bed making out for a long time - I carressed her breasts - she licked my neck, stroked my stomach.

She knew I wanted more - she undid my zipper and my button - rubbed me through my clothes.

I unlatched her bra, slipped her shirt down - licked and squeezed her breasts until she was moaning into my shoulder.

 

She pulled down my underwear - continued to rub me - slowly, teasing me - then she'd get faster - and so on... I was really enjoying this - I couldn't keep myself quiet.

I laid back on my bed, just absorbing all this attention - then she went deep inside me - harder, harder - I was trying so hard not to scream.

 

The entire time I just heard her whispering in my ear how she loved it, how she didn't know I trusted her so much.

She was so considerate too - she knew I was scared, and she has more experience than I do - she kept on asking me if I was alright - to which I moaned out for her to be faster/deeper/harder - to which she obliged. :)

 

...Then she said she was thirsty.

I was hyper now - no clue why - I told her she could taste me.

She'd been rough with me, I was stinging - so she licked me better.

 

Either way...

This marks the day of my first sexual experience with another woman. :)

 

I've caressed and licked another's breasts - and I've had oral sex, I've been fingered and... Yeah - all seems well. :)

 

I will admit that sex is overhyped.

Yeah, it's great, it feels really good at the time - but don't expect too much, or you'll be disappointed.

 

And it's not planned... It'll happen like it happened to me - in a weird fucking context.

But it'll be worth it. :)

 
 
   
 

[Blog #34] --- Neutral --- [Tuesday] - Expert fingers do you well!

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Dixie currently feels:

Smiley Neutral

 

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Blog #34

Expert fingers do you well!

 

 

Although the green sarcastic smiley says I'm neutral - I'm bordering on depressed.

That smiley really does look like a sarky little cunt. I can't actually find one that looks neutral.

 

I awoke after the funniest fucking dream EVER.

I often have weird dreams where Ashleigh does mental shit - but never as bad as last night's.

(I've had two dreams where I've killed her before - but comedy deaths, rather than cold blooded murder.)

 

We were all in college - the three of us, Shelly, Ash and myself - standing with a group of lads.

They were daring us to do mental shit. One of them dared me to stick a candle in my arsehole and light it.

...Oddly, I did it and seemed quite pleased with myself.

 

But then they turned to Ash - handed her a Snickers bar and dared her to stick it up her arse.

She didn't look amused - but she put her hand down the back of her trousers and did it - I watched the bulge of it sticking out slowly disappear as she fully inserted it.

Then they made her jump up and down and jog on the spot until she was really sweaty. By this point, the chocolate had melted inside of her - then they dared her to eat it.

So there she was, dripping in sweat, scraping chocolate from her backside and eating it.

 

I woke up and fucking pissed myself laughing.

I need to stop having such mental fucking dreams!

 

And the sick thing is; it's given me a craving for a Snickers. :D

I won't ever be able to look at Ash eating one the same way again. ROFL.

 

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I started my day by cleaning my teeth, tidying my room and thrashing away some Expert & Hard vocals on World Tour.

After I'd gotten dressed and brushed my hair - I decided to start on the drums career.

 

Dixie only went and got three 100%s in a row.

Easy shall not be a hard task for me.

Once I have mastered it - which doesn't look to be difficult at all - I shall move on to Medium gladly. :)

 

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Shelly turned up at half 12 - we played through a few songs on band quickplay - her on bass guitar and me on lead.

I picked some really stupid songs - ones I barely ever play, so I wasn't doing as well as I normally do.

 

LOL - 98% on Expert - terrible. :P

 

I then moved on to Wi-Fi - time to thrash the daily n00bs at guitar battle mode.

Shelly only seems too pleased to watch me on Wi-Fi - which is a bit weird. Not that I'm arsed like.

I'm just not the sort of person who can watch someone else play Guitar Hero.

I can watch Shelly and Ash on co-op mode - but only for around 5 songs, then I'll get a craving to play too.

 

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It became apparent after an hour or so that neither of us were as entertained by Guitar Hero as we normally are.

I was expecting this to happen of course...

 

We made out for a while on my bed - then I knew it was my time to repay her for what she did for me on Sunday.

The fact she was laid on top of me didn't quite fit with my initial plan - so I had to sort of re-arrange myself so I could take her top off.

I had a bit of fun fondling her breasts - squeezing them, licking them, sucking them - the like. She seemed to like this, so I moved on further down - undid her jeans and started to reward her.

 

Now yes, I was terrified at the aspect of giving pleasure to another - oddly, more so than I was accepting it.

My fingers are incredibly short - her little finger is the same length as my index finger - for a size comparison - but it seemed that they were working pretty well.

 

Either way - I made her come. I didn't think I'd done her justice; for you see, everything I do isn't good enough for anybody at all. ...Still, she insisted to me enough that I'd done better than most people do on their first time.

I'll have to take her word for it, I guess...

 

Hey - my fingers may be short, but just watch me thrash away some Expert guitar solos. Just watching my fingers moshing on the fret buttons will make you moist. :P

 

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Of course - I was satisfied with making her satisfied, but she wanted to have a go with me again.

I let her, of course. Lmfao, I be a bit of a whore sometimes. :P

 

So she felt me up, I took my clothes off - she started with my breasts then went down.

Wasn't bad. I will admit yes, better than Sunday.

She went a lot deeper, a lot harder - I enjoyed it a whole lot more.

She licked me a lot more too. This made me feel pretty honoured - I'm not comfortable with giving oral yet - and apparently she's only given oral to one other person besides me.

 

I wanted anal too though.

I'd even provided baby oil - but she was scared to. She asked me to show her how I did it to myself.

Now this was pretty embarrassing to say the least - but I did as she asked, had a little bit of fun with myself.

Just as she was about to take over for me - my mother only came in the front door.

 

DAMN IT WOMAN.

I had to put my clothes back on pretty quickly - rofl.

Though the panic did nothing to arouse me less. :P

 

Oh well, there's always next time. :P

 

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Once I'd cleaned myself up and gotten dressed again - I went and bought some chocolate - a Toffee Crisp for me (my 3rd favourite) and a Crunchie for Shelly (her favourites).

 

I got the usual bread and milk staples for mother too.

Came home - made up some egg mayo sarnies for myself and meatballs and chips for Shelly.

We watched The Simpsons together - always a great chill-out time is 6PM on channel 4. :)

 

After returning upstairs - we laid on my bed together, basking in the scent of the pillow mist I take great delight in spraying every several seconds.

I enjoy lavender more than I enjoy anal. Lmfao. Just imagine them both together. :D

 

But damn Shelly and her ways - she got me aroused YET AGAIN.

So fucking easily as well - so she ended up giving me some more.

 

Tee hee, the second time was so much better.

Despite the fact I had to try so hard not to make a great deal of noise, as my mam was downstairs - she went so hard with me and I almost reached a climax.

Most people only reach climax during masturbation though, so I'm not bothered. :)

 

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I've spent the rest of the night messing around on YouTube, playing with the trailer clips on Movie Maker and listening to my "NEW PLAYLIST".

It rules - it's a combo of 5, 4 and 3 star rated songs; the ones I'm currently listening to the most, ones I like on any occassion, my all-time favourites and some overlooked classics.

 

I very rarely skip a song when I listen to it. :D

 
 
 

   
Another survey ... lol

I couldn't help myself, blognapped from loveisnicotine , thank you sweetie! (see i got this from her so i didn't corrupt her :) )

 

1)  How old are you?
46
2)  Do you label yourself as gay, straight, bi-sexual, or trans-gender?
bisexual
3) Are you happy with yourself as you are?
I'm learning to enjoy being middle-aged young
4) What would you change about yourself if you could snap your fingers and it was done?

more toned, less flab

5) Do you like sex?
does a fish like water, does a wolf howl at the moon, does a bear ..... go figure
6) Are you monogamous? 
by our relative defintion yes :)

7) Have you ever thought of participating in swinging, group sex, or same-sex situations? 
who me????

8) Are you ready to come out of the closet?
I never could find things when i needed them ....
9) Do you dislike, like, or love oral sex? Giving and receiving? One or the other?
i find it extremely satisfying to give someone wonderful pleasure orally and it's always nice if the favor is returned
10) Swallow or spit? Hetero Guys, if she squirts, this question still applies to you.
why waste good stuff .... unless my lover wants to put it somewhere else
11) Afraid of the rim or give it some loving attention?
Cleanliness is next to godliness, with that in mind pleasure is found where loving attention is given.

12) Where is the most riskiest place you've had sex?  
in a store room of a shoe store 
13) Have you ever gotten caught having sex in public? Details would be fun.
nope

14) Have you ever worn something in public that revealed a little too much or made you uncomfortable? 
nope

15) Was that piece of clothing your choice or a partners?
see previous question
16) Have you ever experienced voyeuristic urges? 
omg, the older i get the worse they are 
17) Have you ever streaked? Where?
nope

18) What fetishes interest you?
What fetishes give my lover more pleasure ... that's where you will find your answer :)

19) What fetishes have you experimented with? Alone or with a partner.  
a little BDSM, a little toe sucking, can you say Mistress, the smell of leather .... 
20) Have you ever woken up somewhere, naked, not knowing how you got there?
nope

21) You know that one stray and unusual hair that grows in an unwanted place. Where does yours grow?
the older i get the more i find
22) While having sex, you observed something in a partner that completely turned you off once. What was it?

i try to overlook the small stuff, none of us is perfect
23) Have you experimented at all with same sex partners?  FYI - most gay people have done it with the opposite sex. It's the same as a hetero having sex with the same sex.
i wouldn't call it experimenting .... i just call it sex

24) Have you ever had a member of the same sex hit on you? Were you repulsed, flattered, or both?  
yes and very flattered

25) How often do you have sex?
not nearly as much as i would like, does jilling count?

26) How often do you think about sex?
what ???? what was the question i was thinking about betty & lori & ....

27) How often do you want to have sex?
take a number please ....
28) What is the most important asset for your partner? i.e. penis size, breasts, ass, chest, back, etc.
a sweet soul and willing heart
29) What is your favorite position?
very dependent on the partner's gender, doggie with hubby ... 69 with my gf
30) You have the chance to save someone's sex life. They need to fire things up in the bedroom. What suggestion do you have that would bring great adventure, thrill, pleasure, etc. for a couple?
let me watch them for a month, a personal interview with her .... then let me make some suggetions ;)

 
 
   
 

i need some new underwear.
people are peculiar and i often find myself emotionally attaching to them.

i may have lost my groove again. i held onto it for so long and rode it out as long as i could. but, i feel, the time has come to where i must abandon the path i have made and tread a new one.

i kind of enjoy the randomness of it all.

one of the people, that i must emotionally abandon, is this guy named mikey. don't ask why, but, i developed a sincere crush for him and the effects of his personality. he's not queer. well, i'm pretty sure even though, you can never be too sure. Either way, i justified everything he did to fulfill my internal desire for him to like me back. hell, even to just lust me back.

however, the reciprocation of flirting has ended and i'm beginning to feel more used than anything.

i'm stepping out of the box of my inner child and being the responsible adult. being the adult.

it's uncomfortable and unfamiliar.

but, i must draw the line. you can't fuck with someone's emotions for too long or they snap.

i don't want to get to that point. i'd rather end what we have at the rising action of the story than reach a negative climax and an unhappy resolution with an awkward denouement. nobody likes that shit. it's just not nice.

i think the best solution is to move on because, for all i  know, he was never flirting with me and was just using my intelligence to help him progress in class.

it'll take some convincing but, i'm pretty sure i can get myself to believe that i had simply imagined it all along.
 
 
 

   
omg

sex earlier was awesome. omg. dont have time for details now cuz i'm using the wireless signal i'm getting from Mosgo's, but omg...i told him when i left to call me when he's ready for me to come back, n i think he's gonna cancel on me/not call at all. i wouldn't blame him, tho. i mean, when i got home i took a nap. well, i showered first, but then i TOOK A NAP! that's how worn out i was! lol, omg...yeah, i think he could feel that i haven't had n e thing in there since the last time he was, lol...he moaned "oh jesus," he never says things when we fuck. :D hehe, ok, maybe some details...skip this part if u don't want to read it, hehe...

 

we didn't even make it to his room, we just fucked on his living room couch :P n then the floor when he was ready to cum. everytime i've ever had sex on a floor, i always end up being the one on top n i always end up getting fucking rug burn. his carpet really hurts, too! but omg, did he have an orgasm...omg, it was amazing seeing him cum...n it we did it doggy style...a lot, lol. it was soooooo good! n i guess its official, i can't have an orgasm n be quiet at the same time. i tried n every time i tried to hold the noise back the orgasm would crap out before i could actually have it. but i did still cum a few times, lol...poor Squeakers XD (his cage is in the living room, i was feeding him hay while J finished putting some stuff away :P) oh, n u guys should be so proud! i made the first move with him! :D usually he starts kissing me, but i was sitting on the floor feeding Squeakers, n when he walked into the room Squeakers stopped doing it. (silly chinchilla) so i got up n turned around n J asked how i was, which is how we usually start off, n as i said, "i'm good, how are you?" i put my arms around him, and as he responded i started kissing him! :D i'm proud of myself, hehe. we made out for so long, it felt so good to hold him and feel him hold me again! feeling his arms across my back again...omg...n at one point he was doing me from behind n he almost got me to cum, n i was like, "Come on!" n he said he'd cum if he went n e faster. Then he was like, "You can turn around n i'll cum in ur mouth n then i can go back inside you." n u know that's totally what we did. :D it was awesome, n i was amazed that he was able to stay hard after that! :O i kept sucking on him for a bit, then he had me stand up n he asked, "How do u wanna take it?" "How do u wanna give it to me?" "However u wanna take it." XD "Do me from behind some more," i told him. oh, n when i was bent down on the couch, (when he was doing me from behind we were standing until it got really intense n i put my knees on the couch to help support us), i discovered that if i turned my head just the right way, out of my pereferal vision i could watch him screw me. XD it was hot, i mean, omg, there was a hot naked boy standing behind me screwing me from behind. it was really bad for my neck, i know, but it was soooo hot!

 

n i saw this when i signed onto mindsay just now. i figure some of u readers also saw it, but i wanted to share incase u didn't XD good times :P

 

 

but yea, i think i might send him a text asking if he's still up for more tonight. if not that sux, but hey, he's the one missing out on a rare opportunity to do me up the ass, lol. n at least i got to see him once earlier today, right? :P

 

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damn, he just sent me a text telling me he's tired n he's gonna go to bed...i knew it...but i still did get to see him once today! :D i still really hope he changes his mind, tho. even earlier he cuddled w/ me afterwards! i love it!:D

 
 
   
 

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