Full House @ MindSay

Its hard to turn around and actually look at yourself flaws and all and admitt where you have come from, where you are and where it is you desire to go. I have come so far from the old me that sometimes I have to ask myself was time that so long ago or has the pain freed itself away from me that what I thought would never be funny has me crossing my legs.

As far as the house is concerned I have one week left and I the speaker phone has been used to bring calm in every space of this house. be it my mother, my aunt or myself this placed has been prayed upon so much I have not really needed my sleeping pills.

As far as work, well if you have been a friend since Jan you may recall I was accused of creating a hostile work enviornment. I can look back and admitt that I need to loosen up but in no way did I ever knowingly attempt to cause anyone pain, but I did and for that I was punished in more ways than I could ever imagine.Long story short I have not only been given an invitation for a classm but there is a spot opening at the dept. 7pm-3am

Can you say THANK YOU!

Sorry I dont know if you heard me. I have been on midwatch from 11pm -7am since 99 and now I have the chance to work something that appears a little more mainstream and its m-fri.

I am so blessed in this moment.

Please continue to pray for the house, especially Mike Howard (to some it may be a great deal to ask for but I neeed your prayers for him as much as myself as he does)

Be loved,blessed and happy!

Yep I have done it...finally watched my head roll down the street and allow my brains to leak out. Money the root of all evil, yes but it also pays the cable,phone,gas,electric,water bill and most importantly the morgage. So what did I do, I private and I need my space Cj went from sharing the house with the kids (nina Simone and Smokey) to now having a full house of misfits. Honestly everyone here is a misfit in their own way and yes I will through myself in that box.

The first roomate works at a bank and carried herself with a very quiet wafer like kind of way, of course that was before she got comfortable and now allowed chatty kathy and the chuckie doll rolled into one come out. Within the last couple weeks she has managed to leave the downstairs light (large chandalier) on as well as leaving the front door wide open. Ooooooh I so wanted to say something bad when I approached her but instead I asked if she knew she left the door open. "no i closed it I know I did" ok so when I say wide open I actually meant she didn't lock it. Did you lock the door? "oops I guess I forgot". I patiently went over into the kitchen and told her that she might have also forgoten that we are giving away weapons for anyone breaking into the house....i have a full rack of knives hanging up next to the stove.

The following day the same roomate closes and locks the door this time and also donates a parting gift to the house by running over the trash can as she gos to work. Trash was all over the place as well as children passing the house that could have been struck. I breathed in and just said a minor prayer, got dressed and picked up the trash.

I could go on with the other drama, keys left in the door, lights left on, water left running, full trash can in kitchen...but I wont because I know that I am not perfect and while the ages of my new roomates are 34,25,23 and 21 I assume this is the pay back for the stupid things I did while I lived with my parents. Instead if flying of the handle I have advised all the roomates that the house meeting has been moved up from january to this saturday,......oh wait i forgot the last guy to move in complains about the hustle and bustle of the city, loud music and guys standing on the corner. What does he do the night he moves in, Im playing John Coltrane and the next thing I hear is BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM.......TAP TAP,BOOM,BOOM,BOOM,BOOM//

I felt like my mother when I jumed out he bed and said oh hell no. Are you kidding. The guy is youn g and this is his first place and he us use to playing it loud, but understood after I spoke to him that it was not only too loud but rude. Don't get me wrong I turn the base as high as it will go when jamming to Stevie Wonder, Curtis Mayfield,Old School slow Jams a little rap and maybe just maybe Bonnie Raitt gos past the point where music is played but this is all done away from others houses as I am driving along the highway.

I feel better...older but better

I hope everyone has a fun week and something exciting and wonderful happens. Things are going good, as you know, but my kids are coming home and i will have a full house again before summer is over. i get them moved out and now they are moving back. I love them but it is hard to handle 3 other adults in the house, two now and my daughter in july. the one i wish could come home too is now scheduled to go play in the sandbox again this fall, that thought just breaks my heart. oh well life will be interesting but i won't have much free time ... i hear maid duty calling ... lol.

I hope you enjoyed the peek into my private life, betty is very excited & wants to share more ... i agree 1000% ... so ta ta for now.

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I've been feeling weird lately. I can't really put my finger on what it is that's wrong with me, but I know it's just not me being me. I guess I'm just stuck and I can't get out of my rut. Who knows?

Diamond and her family decided to BBQ at a park in Surprise on Sunday (Yes, it's the actual name of a city), which is like 40 mins from my house and 10 mins from theirs. I decided to finally join them hours later. Went I got there The Newlyweds(I don't think I've ever discussed them. Hubby's 31 and Wifey is 23 (draw your conclusions now lol) were leaving.

The Newlyweds: have been married for exactly one year. They spent half of that year fighting at every shin dig we had, until they closed on their house. Then magically, there were no more fights, Wifey usually provoked them from what I can see. For instance: You do not push your fingers againist your hubby's head in front all his friends during a shin dig, no matter how drunk you are. (She was stone sober at the time).

My theory: Hubby bought that house by himself, pulling down two jobs while graduating with a Masters degree. (the two jobs and Master degree are fact, who contributed to the house purchase is a guess, considering she's a medical records clerk). We went over there about two weeks after they closed and moved in, Wifey was on  a dreamy natural high and kept saying all night, "It's like a dream. I can't believe it!" This was followed by looking at their wedding pics. Which by the way, were fantastic! I haven't seen them fight since then.

Anyhoo... they were leaving when I got there and I hung out with Diamond and her fam. They have a full house now with her young sister and brother in laws (11 and 13) plus her own children (6 & 11), but they had me dying. I love how they interact because it's real. They spend alot of time with their kids, even though we average a shin dig like 2-3 times a month.

We just hung out and kicked it. They told me that the Newlyweds are going to start working on their first kid. I was like uh WOW. I feel for Wifey because I think she's being cheated. I mean she's never been clubbing like most females her age, she moved here for her fiancee away from all her family and friends. It's doubtful they'll ever move to Cali where's she from. A bride at 22, and a mother at 23. Damn! The reasoning: Hubby doesn't want to be too old to enjoy his children. Dang, he couldn't wait until she's 24 at least?

I remember her bring this up with me & Diamond a few weeks ago. I asked her if she was ready to have a child, and I was told, when is anyone ready. True. Diamond was no help in this as the elder married person of the crew. LoL. I told her, Diamond had her kids prior to getting ready, they weren't an option. I said you have an option that alot of people do not have, you can try and plan. I told her to wait. Enjoy this time with your husband and adjust to this life change before your life changes again. She basically said that both families were inquiring about them having a baby and that Hubby initally said he wanted to wait another year but he's been remarking about how old he's getting (he turned 31 in October).

The fucked up part: She just enrolled in school for Medical Billing, a two year program. Do you think she'll want to finish once morning sickness and bloated feet kick in? Doubtful.

I feel for her because it's like nothing is her decision. From everything they both have told me has Hubby's decision. The wedding, the honeymoon, living here, the house. Opps, except for school he told me, direct quote, "She wanted to go back to school, I let her go back to school". Note: he still works 2 jobs, and they live approximately an 1-2 hours from Phoenix depending on traffic. What the hell was she supposed to do when he doesn't get home most nights until 10?

I guess I had more to say about them than I initially anticipated. Well, I'm off on a date, should he show up I'll be back tomorrow with details. Ciao!