Are you ready?  Thats all it took for me to freak out. I was scared that he would tell someone if I did say yes. I just sat there, my legs wrapped around his waist, trying to think. Its a big thing for me being my first time and all. He started by kissing my neck and slowly moving to my chest. He just kept trying and all I could do is sit there. I was frozen I couldnt believe that I was really here in this moment. That the guy I liked, liked me back. He asked me again and still I couldnt answer him. I just let him keep doing what he was doing. Then he started lifting my shirt, I was so embarrassed about the way my body looks, looking at my body his smile got bigger and he moved in. He started kissing my chest moving through my chest he rubbed his face in between them. He took off his sweatshirt so quick that I didnt even see the shirt come off under it. Do you want to? Im not even enjoying this and he is asking me if I want to. I feel so weird with him rubbing and touching and kissing every inch of me. When he got on top of me and started rubbing himself on me I could feel him getting even more excited. I started feeling like I could handle this. I got the courage to tell him Im ready.  He moved down and unbuttoned my pants and pulled them off of me. It wasnt as easy as they say it is. I helped him get them the rest of the way off. He started undoing him pants and thats when I knew there was no turning back. All I could think of is I hope he doesnt tell anyone about this. I dont know what I will do if anyone found out. He gentle entered as I sent out a ouch to his ears. He asked me if I am okay. I say nothing but nod my head. He starts moving in and out and kissing my lips gentle moving to my neck and back up. I feel so much pain that all I could do is lay my head back and let him go. He says I want you to enjoy this as much as me. He starts heading down south and the next thing I know he is eating me out. I couldnt help but laugh it tickled so much. I had to tell him to stop. Thats when I decited I would join in on this experience. He went back in and I started kissing his chest and digging my fingers into his back. Thats when it happened he couldnt hold it anymore. He was way to into it that he couldnt stop, he didnt want to stop. He busted in me! Being it was my first time I wasnt on anything and he just so happen to not have a condom with him. I just keep telling myself it took only those three little words two thoughts in my head and one answer.

 

Now you will feel no rain,

          for I will shelter you . . .

Now  you feel no cold,

          for I will be your warmth  . . .

Now there will be no loneliness,

          For I will forever be  your loyal companion . . .

Now we are two persons,

          But I will give you my one life, so there is only one life together before you and your days are long upon the earth . . .

 

{Apache Blessing To His Bride}

 

G.

P.S. Pt. Mugu Beach, Memorial Day . . . first time you took me in your arms for a kiss and didn’t let me go . . . first time you said “I love  you” before I did . . . “our first time” . . .

 

P.P.S. Miss you . . .

 

P.P.P.S.  . . . my Angel . . . I’m a different man these days . . .

Uhm, 'pano ba 'to? sorry! first time eh, this will be my very first, as in first blog (nainggit kasi ako), yun lang, 'la na, dapat ba may format ang blog? dapat siguro meron, hehehehe! tapos may teacher na mag che-check, yari!

 

marhz

room, 12:54 a.m.

(punye^_^ sakit sa ulo, hirap pala nito)

 

So.I decided to hang out with this guy and we were gonna do an unspecified drug, that's generally snorted. Well I had one of my drug facts mixed:

Speed doesn't equal Cocaine.

Speed does equal meth.

 

My excuse for not eatching earlier is a) I don't do meth, and b) The lights were super dim, otherwise I would've noticed the crystals.

 

He was understanding of my mix up, apologized, and I told him that it was a shitty high, and he said "good, then you won't get addicted" Nooo... shit. Well. I brough American Beauty over to watch,but I kinda forgot to check the case to see if it was in there.. and yea, it wasn/t. Way to go me! We ended up skinny dipping in the hot tub surrounded by 2 feet of snow. That was cool. I have never skinny dipped with a guy. But since he wasn't getting a blow job I was gonna get fingered, I was impressed that he had that self control

Last night, I typed a 10 page essay in just over 3.5 hours.
Oh yes!

Genio helped me with two paragraphs.
Therefore being a 12 page essay.

AMEN!

DONT FORGET!!

John Mayer will be on Oprah for the first time today!
Ya'll better watch it!
Also, check out his blog.. he is going to be blogging throughout the show.
He's too funny!
I love that man!

No Lost tonight :(
But I am going to watch Day Break.. see what that's all about.. not to mention a few spoilers for the episode in February will be in there! :P i have other motives! :P

Have a great day everyone =)
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p.s- i put my heart in to that last poem... thanks to those who commented! :D