First Blog @ MindSay

Hey. Entry Numero Uno. So. A wee bit about myself, eh?
First off, I hate first blogs. I hate the word blog, and I hate this awkward "Hi, I'm the writer of this blog, and uhm...this is me!" I hate it. A lot. Hopefully having said that will disspell some of the awkwardness. (I hate spelling "awkward." It's exactly what it says it is. It's awkward. Cumbersome, if you will.)
Secondly, hey! I'm already doing it. I lapse into these little asides (indicated like so) pretty frequently. I suppose that probably means I'm a bit scatterbrained. It does all make sense to me. I just have these random tangents running through my mind.
Uhm...yeah. Awkwardness not entirely disspelled. I'm not going to lie. Anyway...more from me in a bit. Probably not too much of a bit, but yeah. :)

Hey...is this thing on?

 

Hmm, so this is blogging? I just write a bunch of stuff about me and people read it. This seems like it will only serve to reinforce my belief that the world revolves around me. Watch out world.

 

This is the part where I have to give a shout out to Meg. (Partly because she gave me a nod in her blog so I owe her). Meg spends most of our workdays bugging me to join the technology race. I'm not on facebook, no MySpace either, and beyond email and my cell phone I virtually don't exist. So, Meg, here you go...my very own blog! Wow, exciting stuff. Now Meg and all my other cool friends and family get to check me out in cyberspace and see what I am up to.

 

Today I am sitting at my desk at Hamline creating a blog. Great day for librarians everywhere, I assure you. Tomorrow, I will be sitting at the desk at AP likely showing my new blog off to Meg. Libraries are truly wonderful places. Not only do I get to help people daily, sit in a fun atmospere surrounded by books, and chat with awesome librarians like myself, I get to play on the computer and (drumroll please) create my own blog. So, welcome to my blog and stop back soon.

I'm not going to do your typical introductory blog post . . .  I'm going to dig right into the meat of this and write as if noone is paying any attention.  I've had a blog before, and I've no intention of having this one read by anyone I know or have known.  I'll make it more personal.  For venting.  I've been having the sort of thoughts lately that I've thought that I want to record, but we'll justsee if this gets updated or not.  Writing things gets things out for me so there'll probably be a fair chance, anyways.

 

I'm feeling pretty frustrated right now, I feel as if I've hurt someone completely unintentionally.  I have this friend, let's call her Button, I'm not quite sure why that name but it seems to fit.  Well I've known Button for a long time now, about fourteen years, and we've been sort-of close friends for the last three-ish years.  We've gone to school all the way from senior kindergarten to our first year of university, excepting last year when I took a year for an exchange and she did more highschool, but I digress.  (It seems I really am explaining things to you, my fictitious audience.  Or maybe just to empty cyberspace.)  Button is a nice girl, and I tend to joke with her a fair bit; she's the sort of person that seems to need teasing to come out of her shell.  Or so I thought.  Apparently not so much, and I've hurt her feelings somehow, and . . .  that's the last thing I wanted.  I don't really know how to change my attitude towards her, nor do I know the details of what upset her, except that I've not been quiet about certain things that are supposed to be quiet and . . .

 

I really need to be writing my paper.

 

Except that the thought of this is making me sick to my stomach.  That I could hurt her without intending it, or even realizing it.  I should really learn when to keep my mouth shut.  And I should really learn how to read people better.  But then, I've never really been good at that, I've only ever aspired and attempted to be.  Too naive and trusting.  The aspiration to do good does not equal actually doing good, a lesson to learn.

 

Also, I should learn not to procrastinate.

So I'm pretty new to this.

 

Things are going good ish! LoL!

 

I talked to this really really cool person last night (til like 4 am hehe).

 

I've developed a crush...but I'm hopeless romantic (in their terms).

 

I'm ready for college!!!

 

August 16th, I start a new life!

Sup People

 

My name's Simran. I live in central Illinois. This is my new blog. Keep visiting.