Find Yourself @ MindSay

I sent off my admission papers to Montevallo today. Weird. The rest of this semester and then the summer...then Montevallo. A good two hours away. I'm not running away..or maybe I am...I think I need to.

Maybe you shouldn't even be confused. Will it really matter in the end?? I'm running away from you too. I wish I wouldn't. I'm not stuck between a rock and a hard place....I promise. All you have to do is decide but you're indecisive like I used to be. Whenever I make up my mind you can't. Guess thats how this one's gonna go.

Let's switch it around...this time...I'm caught in between what I wish for and all I need.

I am trying to find me so I will vent a lot here.

I think I am a lesbean out side of the fact that I like the meat stick.

I have been in love two times I want to find someone that will help me find my happy. This Time around It will be all about me. I hope!

u look in the mirror...

is it you?

do you even see you in there?

anywhere?

of course not...

or is it jus some one whos trying to fit in?

trying to find themself?

or just a total flake?

faker...

are you trying to adapt yourself to your surroundings?

trying to blend in with the crowd?

dont you think u were made one way for a reason?

i cant see you...

do you wanna scream?

wanna slit your wrist?

just because you know this isnt you?

i wont push you..

can you find your center?

define yourself?

label everyone?

impossible....

can you see me?

can you find who i really am?

or do i confuse you?

probably...

am i a prep?

am i a punk?

or am i just me?

exactly...

totally random poem i just thought of... ive been thinkin alot about the way i "classify" myself.... and the truth is.. no one can classify any one... idk if that poem confuses u or not.. but it makes perfect sense to me...

~♥ you know the way i feel about you... i make that crystal clear...