Feel Bad @ MindSay

i'm having a problem with anxiety right now. i don't want to get all emo, but all i ever do is listen to other people's problems. i'm fine with it usually but lately i've just been having all these emotions of my own and i can never talk to anyone about them and i never get time alone hardly to just think. today i was with my friend and my crush and we went to a park and i just wanted to go chill by myself on the swings. i was fine there for awhile but then i started shaking really bad and breathing hard and almost crying and i felt like i was gunna puke. then, to make it worse, the guy i like snuck up on me and saw me like that. he asked what was wrong but i don't want to say anything because i don't want him to think i'm messed up and complicated. he gave me a hug, though, and i felt better for awhile. i really want to be with him because he makes me feel so good about everything. i like listening but talking about myself always feels awkward to me. i feel like crying right now. i don't even want to say all my real problems on here, it's just such bad stuff and everyone will judge me. i need to talk to my friends in person but they're always busy.

no sleep last night almost
i had a bad fight and told someone to go hang themselves
then they said they would
ohhh fuck i feel bad
they didnt but i thought they actually would
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
then i had this bad ass dream and it made me feel even worse
then i felt sick at school
well not really
i just felt really faint and exhausted physcally and emotionally
so i went home
i made myself sicker
my brother came down stairs and told me he baked me a cookie
he sounded so suspicious
he was either doing something real  bad or nice
i went to see it and he'd used all the cookie dough to make a giant cookie
and i ate half and feel sick
ima dumb shit lol
im going to get really fat one day
made a new bebo skin this is the main_bg

lol
gaia event
way dif this year
this is my bebo shit:
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←Cazzazzleness,
Bring the violence`
It's significant`
To the life`
If you've ever known anyone`
Bring the violence`
It's significant`
To the life`
Can you feel it?`
<3 Violence Fetish // Slipknot
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P E A C E ~ O U T

dont know why im posting it....im bored
fuck
oh man i haet it when 'agatha' dresses halloween

creepy shit aye
im listening to
i am hated // slipknot

and using suggested tags
Old man logan:
Want some candy, bub? Sure, lemme just reach into this fish here...

lol

suggeted tags

fuck you mindsay

I really can't believe I didn't do a b-day post on the 3rd of September for myself.

I feel bad.

Anyways, I'm sixteen as of then.

My best friend has chlamydia, I wasn't even sure what to say to her when she told me.  I feel so bad for her, she says that her boyfriend might have been cheating on her.  She was thinking about calling a couple people to tell them to get tested...wow.

damn if i don't feel good recently, some would call it mania? i call it just plain good... but i tell you one thing my mind is racing faster that Dale Ernhart (can't spell that name, and don't care much to look it up, its beside the point) and i feel better fuzzy slippers... but the bad part about this whole deal is that i am one sleep deprived whore... i laid in bed last night for about 4/7 hours without sleep and the 3 hours that i was sleeping i was in some hardcore dream... i woke up still with a lot of energy and with some really trailing vision... without drugs mind you...

i feel like i can take on the world, but i feel like ass hole without sleep... some would call this mania? i call this just plain bad... see this goes back to the previous post about not being in the right mood at the right time... there may be a reason for this lack of sleep, but i'll get into that when i "feel" more like it... right now i feel like taking a shower cause my skin is crawling and i want to smoke a stoge... i also feel singing, but whatever, who cares about that :)

(pst... i do)